2) The Pain

Although the worst of the transformation was over, surges of pain and midnight spazzums are regular now. I had researched the transformation pathway, and it did say it was terribly painful. The only thing is, this was the pain that just rips into you so bad you think your gonna puke. The only good thing about this, that I didnt read about, is that during th ripping pain, the one that bit, and transformed you is the one whos responsible for you. For me, that person was Ben!

After the night i accidentally destroyed the chains, the only way to keep me still to absorb my new body was for him to hold me. Not hold me down, but hold me against him. I would know when my last day of pain would be, because when he held me tight against his ice cold, iron hard chest, I could feel his strenght, I could feel his cold skin, and I could feel save even tho I felt like dying. Apparently when the transformation was cmplete, I wont feel the coldness anymore. Although I "may still feel the slight strength difference" as he himself told me, and of this I was terrified. Is it wrong to love your adopted brother, if your not blood related? How could we be? We have no blood.

I now know why he was so much better looking than all the others. It was a wonderful curse. I saw it happen withing myself. As the transformation took place, I was slightly altering, getting prettier every day. And even though he was starting to look more ordinary every day, I still loved him.

One night was more terrible than usual. It made me think. Did Ben have to go thru this horrible pain too? Or was he different? I gathered up the courage to mention it to him one night after my daily routine.

"Hey, Ben? I have a question."

He looked at me with his beautiful eyes, a smirk playing across his face.

"Yes? Wait, lemme guess. You wanna know about my times of transformation, right?"

My eyes widened

"Uh, yeah. How'd you know? Is that like a bonus of being a vampire? Mindreading?"

He chuckled and put on my favorite smile. I melted, as usual.

"Yeah, kinda. Yes, i went through your pain, too. Except I had teh chain restraints."

We laughed

"So, how long did you take? You know, before it was over?"

He thought long and hard whle staring into my eyes. I couldnt move. The beauty was overwhelming me.

"It took me three months. It took Alicia seven. I suppose it just depends on how strong you are, and how well you fight it. She was weak, and didnt have the willpower to fight. It was terrible. I felt so bad for the poor girl."

"Oh...well then!"

That was the only pathetic thing I could squeak out.

Then he started watching me again. I tried my hardest not to meet his gaze, but i couldnt resist his eyes. At that instant, i could almost feel him searching or just plain reading my mind. I closed my eyes and turned away. Then he chuckled I know he found something he found interesting. Something that i probably didnt want him to find out, for a long while. Then i was stupid enough to finally ask.

"What are you laughing at?"

He grinned as if he was satisfied over something.

"You felt me searching your mind, didnt you? i can olnly do that with direct eye contact. i always was a speed reader. i know all about you now. from the moment you were born, up toa minuet ago.

His grin widened, knowingly. i could feel my face getting slightly warmer. He knoew i loved him. He saw me blushing before him, and it was bound to be noticeable, due to my getting palerby the second. Now i was almost scared. then he said

"C'mon, Kat. Please, let me in your mind. Give me a chance for me to be thurough. Im intriged. Let me know details...please?"

The way he said "please" almost killed me. I was melting away on the inside. I finally opened my eyes, and turned back to him.

"Okay, fine. Just dont make fun of me, okay? Promise?"

In the same melting tone he spoke again

"I promise."