Title:Jagged Edges
Rating:M
Author:Freeing Alys
Summary:It's funny how much a person can change in two years. Liley. Rated for self-hatred, self-mutliation, eating disorders, and lots of other stuff I may not be sure of.
Disclaimer:I DO NOT own Hannah Montana or anything/one affliated with it. That all belongs to Disney.

12. Confussion

I tell Mrs. Avery about Lily and she nods her head, like it's no big deal. "What should I do?" I ask her and she shrugs her shoulders.

"Give her a little space and time, this was a big thing for her and obviously it's upset her. Just give her space, let her know you're there and when she's ready to come talk to you." Mrs. Avery smiles at me, like she is so sure of her answer and I nod my head. She has be convinced.

"Okay. Thanks." I glance at the clock and note that second period is about to start. I have to go. "Bye." I stand up and Mrs. Avery nods her head at me.

"Tell Lily I'm here as well." Mrs. Avery tells me and I nod my head, I sure will.

I walk out of Mrs. Avery's office and walk as quickly as I can to my next class, not able to afford to be late again.

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Lily is sitting at lunch, her head is hunched over and she is quickly picking at her food. I take a deep breath and march over to her, ready to be her friend, and anything else. "Hey." I fall into the seat next to her and Lily glances up at me.

"Sorry I was such a bitch last night." She says and I nod my head.

"It's fine. I can understand." I say and I glance at my food, not feeling at all up to eating it.

"It was just scary and I had spent the whole day with my mom talking to her…and I just needed to be away from it." Lily tells me and I smile at her, remembering what Mrs. Avery told me.

"Well, I'm here for you, however you need me. Mrs. Avery says you can come talk to her too." I tell Lily and she nods her head.

"I don't want to do that…but I'm glade you're here." She smiles at me and I nod my head, feeling safe again. Now that Lily is okay and happy with me again.

"So, do you want to go to the beach after school?" I ask Lily and she nods her head, smiling.

"Sounds great." She says and I glance back down at my food, and start to pick at it.

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Oliver sits down next to me during English and he shrugs his shoulder. "She's back today." He says simply and I nod my head.

"Yeah, she has. She's feeling better now." I tell him and he nods his head.

"Okay good. I didn't know if I should talk to her." He says and I shrug my shoulders, unsure of his fears.

"It's fine. She's feeling like herself now." I tell him, tapping my pencil on my desk.

Oliver nods and leans closer to me. "What is up with you two?" He asks and I shrug my shoulders again.

"I don't know Oliver…we just like each other." I say and he nods his head.

"Okay." He says and turns back to the front of the classroom.

"Are you okay with it?" I ask and Oliver nods his head.

"Sure, now I just get it." He whispers at me, his eyes going cloudy.

"What?" I ask not sure of what he is getting at, and I'm starting to get really confused.

"I asked her out a few months ago, she said no and acted really weird." He mumbles at me and my heart almost stops. That much have been right before she kissed me.

"Oh." I say, unsure if I should tell him about the kiss. I decide not to, Lily is the one I have to talk to.

After class Oliver gives me a quick hug and tells me to call him if I need to, I guess Lily spilled about other things too. I walk towards my next class, my mind still on Lily.

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Lily is waiting for me at my locker after the last bell of the day. She greets me with a smile, and I return it. "Hey." She says as I open my locket and set my books inside. I don't glance at her as I take the books out that I need for homework and then shut my locker and lock it up again. "You okay?" Lily asks me and I nod my head.

"Sure. We need to talk." I say and she nods her head slowly, picking up on my feelings.

"O-okay. What's up?" She stutters and I shrug my shoulders.

"I just really want the full story from you, about you and us. And I mean the whole story." I say trying to hint that she is understanding what I am hinting at.

"what's up Miley?" She asks and then crosses her arms ovoer her chest.

"I talked to Oliver today." I tell her and her face drops. "I guess that means something."

Lily nods her head and then glances at the floor and then up at me. "Yeah, I…" She trails off and I shake my head. No matter what, she just wont be honest with me.

"Whatever." I sigh and then sidestep Lily, preparing to go home.

"Miley wait! Let's go to the beach, and talk okay?" She asks and I nod my head, it's better then her being silent.

"Yeah, okay." I tell her and we walk off together in the direction of the beach.

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At the beach we find a quiet spot, where not too many people are and we sit next to each other. I stretch my legs out, attemping to get a tan in my short mini skirt. Lily is staring at the sand, her eyes darting from side to side, like she is in deep thought.

"So?" I ask, trying to prod the truth out of her. I just want to hear it.

Lily glances up at me and shrugs. "Why do you think I wanted to be friends with you when you moved here?" Lily asks and I shrug my shoulders, I always thought she wanted to be my friend.

"I don't know." I say, running sand through my fingers.

"I liked you Miley! It was the first time I had ever felt anything like that, and I was trying to deal with it. I became your friend and I tried to just be that. Because I didn't know what else to do." Lily glances down at the sand and my heart stops in my chest for a millisecond.

"What?" I ask her, feeling confused and a little sick feeling. Everything I had ever thought about our relationship was pretty much fake. She was never my best friend, she was just trying not to like a girl.

"I'm…" She stops, and then glances up at me. "I was confused, and really scared." She says and I nod my head.

"So after Oliver?" I ask and she nods her head.

"I pictured myself actually being with Oliver and I felt…odd. When he asked me that day, I realized I didn't want to date a boy, and then you popped into my mind. So that day, I just acted on how I was feeling ,even though I wasn't sure." Lily explained and I nodded my head, it wasn't the answer I wanted, but at least it was the truth.

"Oh. Okay." I have no idea how to respond to her, I have never felt the way that she made me feel right now.

"I'm really sorry, I should've been honest." She mumbled and I nodded my head, she really should've.

"I need to go. I promised Dad I would help him….now." I say standing up and wiping the sand off of me. "I'll see you around." I promise and then I walk off of the beach, in the direction of my house, feeling more confused then I have ever felt before.