April 7th

Year 9

Disclaimer: I own no one!

A/N- Sorry this update's so late. I got lazy!

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4/7/2002

To my Bright One,

Jo and I have still have not gotten pregnant. A year of trying and nothing…why is this taking so long? It happened so easily with you!

I just want to be a mother. Why is that so hard?

Jo is giving up-the hormone shots. She says she can't deal with it anymore…the disappointment, the pain. Neither can I. Disappointment every time her period starts, disappointment over losing you, pain over watching her suffer through these horrendous shots. We'll reevaluate in a year, but Star and Sammy, our new Chihuahua puppy take up our time. We even splurged on a doggy stroller!

So, I finally get to push a stroller with our dogs…It's good but not quite the same as a human baby.

I cry a lot for you, Precious Girl. I miss you so much. Has a decade really almost passed? It seems like just yesterday…

I love you.

Love,

Mommy.

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