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Chapter 2- Erased?

I t was Jacob standing about ten feet away from the door. He had a worried look in his eyes. it took a while but i realized why that was. He was looking at the cut on my wrist that was still oozing some blood. He never took his eyes off of it he didn't even blink.

Before I could ask what he was thinking he was hugging me (tight!). "Oh, Bells what the hell were you tring to do?" That was exactly what i was trying to do if I couldn't have Edward (it hurt to think his name) i might as well be in hell, but I couldn't tell him that.

"I-I wi-l-l te-ell you on-ce i-i ca-an breeathe." He let go of me letting my lungs fill with air.

"Bella you mind telling me why you have that cut on your wrist...and don't you dare tell me its old blood is still coming out?"...Yes i did mind telling him, how would i tell Jacob my best friend that i was trying to kill myself?

"You wouldn't buy that i was washing dishes and a knife slipped ..Would you?" He could hear the hope that he would believe me in my voice.

"Bella I might be younger than you, but im not that stupid." he smiled but it didn't reach his eyes. He made his way into the house.

"Okay, I'll tell you but not here were Charlie bound to have woken up by now and is probably going to eardrop if he isn't already." Hope filled my body Charlie wouldn't let me leave the house. Not yet. And i was glad i didn't wan to tell Jacob what i was thinking. " I don't think he will let me leave thinking it'll probably go looking for E..umm...um look for."

Jacob could tell that i couldnt finish and ran up the stairs to ask Charlie, and i was glad i would have to say his name it was bad enough that i was thinking it! I ran upstairs to change, because knowing Charlie that conversation would last long.

I changed out of my muddy clothes into my favorite pant and fav. Shirt. I walked over to the mirror and then noticed what i was wearing. I was wearing his favorite blue shirt. I took it off and it landed by my window. I changed into something i hoped would be better, but i was wrong. I was now wearing the shirt Esme had lend me last spring. This time a tear slid down my cheek and i pulled off the shirt and it landed on my radio.

That is when i remembered: It will be as if I never existed. I ran to the radio and pressed down on the top. The latch unhooked; way to slow; and it was empty! I fell to the floor and landed right next to the album Renee had given me. With shaky hands i lifted the cover. The first page was blank except for my handwriting on the bottom: Edward Cullen, Charlie's kitchen, Sept 13th.

I felt the smooth wooden floor beneath my knees, and then it was pressed against the skin of my cheek. That is when i felt it after a long while of crying, i felt a board loose under my cheek. it had been shifting unnoticed for a while.

I lifted it knowing what to except except maybe a rat.. ew...!Tears fell down from my eyes as i saw the photos. The photos that belonged on top of their description in my album and there it was my favorite gift; the clear CD jewel case w/ his compositions.

There was note on the very bottom. I picked it up with trembling hands. It was from Alice, my heart literally skipped a beat. The note read:

Bella,

I'm really sorry he's making us do this to you. None of us wanted to leave you; not even Rosalie. He says its for your own good; he loves you Bella no matter what he says; you don't have to believe me but its true. I 'm going to miss you ' you were my best friend and sister. I hope this doesn't last long. Edward would kill me if I gave this to you personally but i couldn't leave without saying goodbye. So i hid the letter and i hope you find this soon. Don't you dare do something dramatic Bella. I promise I won't let this go on for long. I left you something to remember us all by.

Goodbye for Now,

Alice

I never knew how many tears i could shed. A picture fell out of the envelope; it was the most beautiful photo I had ever seen. The picture was all seven of them in front of their now empty house. Rosalie stood with Emmett behind her, next to them was Alice and jasper hugging, then it was Esme and Carlisle holding hands and then finally it showed my favorite person Edward.

Tied to the end of the photo was an oval shaped locket, inside were pictures of my favorite people; Alice and Edward one on each side. I put the necklace around my neck and put on a flannel shirt. I put the picture and CD in a box under my; I would look at them when i was ready to dwell on the fact they were gone. But what did Alice mean by I promise this wont last long and goodbye for now??

I headed for the living room and put on my Converse and sat on the couch. I was lost in thought and i almost forgot that Jacob was inside my house. Then i heard him and Charlie laughing as they come down the stairs.

"Morning, Bells!" Charlie seemed weird and happy..What had Jacob told him?

"Hey, dad."

" Ready for that walk Bella?" Jacob asked holding out his hand.

Was I ready? It didn't really matter did it? I was going to have to tell him eventually why not now? I took his hand and it felt so warm compared to Edward's. As we headed out the door i caught a caught a glimpse of Charlie smiling.