A/N- I didn't get reviews that I wanted for my earlier chapter, but I put this chapter up for my favorite reviewer LoveCantFindMe. I do want reviews please they keep me writing. If you have any questions just ask and I will answer them. Sorry the chapter is so short! If I don't get reviews (at least 5) I will end it ...I already wrote 2 different chapter one to end it and one to continue so please review! So here you go LoveCantFindMe this chapter was posted up for you!!!
Chapter 4- Guilty
Recap: he leaned in…..
I stared shocked whatwas he doing? His face was inches from mine. Quickly, I turned so my check was facing him, hoping he would stop. He groaned but didn't stop.
He kissed my check softly then bent further to kiss my neck. I flinched as his warm lips touched my skin, and he laughed.
"What's the matter Bella? I don't bite." I straighten and stepped back from him. "No you don't, you just turn into a big scary werewolf!" U rolled my eyes and frowned still angry. A smirk took over his entire face as he stepped forward and took my hands.
"I'm sorry Bells, do you forgive me?" he put on a puppy dog face are baby wolf...I don't know what to call it. I scoffed "No!" he leaned in yet again. "Then let me make it up to you."
His lips met mine. The kiss was sweet and hesitant but full of passion. His tongue licked my lips as if asking for permission to enter, and my mouth opened (French kiss).
He pulled me closer so my feet left the sand. Part of me wondered why I was letting him do this, but the other part didn't care. Heat engulfed me. "I love you Bella." He said between breaks.
"I love you too, Edward." His name escaped my lips. Jacob backed away from me. His eyes full of anger and sadness. "I'm so sorry Jake." The words were a whisper and a tear slid down my cheek.
The anger left his eyes but the hurt didn't. "I didn't mean….but you….and I do really….but he…and…I'm sorry." I ran to my truck and drove as fast as I could home. When I looked back Jacob wasn't there. I felt so guilty.
How could I let Jacob kiss me? Why did I like the kiss? But worst. Why did I kiss Jacob and then tell him I love Edward?? Tears slid down my cheeks and I almost crashed into a red car.
I finally made it home and ran inside. Charlie wasn't home yet. I ran up to my room falling the whole way there. I locked the door and picked up my pillow. There where it lay every night for my suicidal thought (which didn't happen often) was my knife.
I couldn't live knowing that I hurt Jacob, Edward was gone, and that I kissed the lips of someone other than Edward. So I picked up my knife and put it next tp my heart.(A/n- no she isn't dead she has it next to her heart but not touching her flesh!)