A/N this chapter may be a little confusing with all the names and everything ergo the title Confusion...LOL…if you have any questions just as…big thanks to my beta LoveCantFindMe (Brooke) THANKS BROOKE!!!

Recap: I couldn't live knowing that I hurt Jacob, Edward was gone, and that I kissed the lips of someone other than Edward. So I picked up my knife and put it next to my heart.

Chapter 5- Confusion

I put the knife right next to my heart so I could die faster. I closed my eye and softly whispered "Goodbye, I love you Jacob, and I'll love you forever Edward." I moved my hand forward so the knife would plunge into my heart. Instead I hit my chest with my fist very hard.

I opened my eyes, confused to what was in front of me. Why wasn't there a knife in my hand? Why wasn't I dead? I looked up and right there in front if me stood Jacob. God he had bad timing, but of course to him it might seem like excellent timing "Can I have my knife back please Jacob? I was in the middle of something." I asked holding my hand out in front of him.

APOV (Alice)

How could this be happening? Bella hadn't talked to that werewolf friend in months! Now I keep trying to check up on her, even though I'm not supposed to (stupid Edward and his stupid rules…does he not know l love Bella) and all I see is…well nothing.

This was getting on my nerves. First I see Bella about to kill herself, then I see her finding the stuff under the floorboards, and now right when I'm about to send Edward to go tell her the truth she disappears again! The last time I saw her she was holding the locket I left behind tightly in her hand. But the suspense was killing me (if it could kill me).

"Edward! Get over here now!" I yelled as loud as possible.

"No" it was mere whisper but I still heard it perfectly. I had been talking to Rosalie about my visions so it wasn't surprising to hear her talking to Edward.

"Don't worry Alice. I'll get that pathetic piece of lard for you."

"Edward, Alice is calling ….wait let me re-phrase that for you…Alice is yelling for you." Rosalie said walking into the room.

(I already saw what was happening in my earlier vision) Edward lay on his sofa listening to Bella's lullaby.

"Get out Rosalie." This time his voice was hardly hearable, if that's a word. I should ask Jasper.

"Oh please, you really think I want to waste my time and be in your room? I'm just here because the sister that actually wants to see you wants to talk to you about Bella." Rosalie spat.

Edwards head popped up. "She isn't supposed to be keeping tabs on her!" he yelled this time. "Why do you care anyways Rosalie?" he threw a pillow at her, like that would hurt.

"She is keeping 'tabs' because unlike you she actually cares! As for me, I love Bella or was starting to love her… I haven't decided. And I miss her some. So get your stupid ass into Alice's room right now or I'll get Emmett in here!" She threatened.

Still, no Edward in my room. Just as I was about to yell again I heard Emmett walking toward my room. Emmett walked through my door with Edward swung over his shoulder. "Here you go Alice this 'thing' was just there on the floor."

I giggled as he carelessly dropped Edward on the ground. "Thanks Em-" was all I managed to get out before Emmett cut me off.

"Yeah sure it was no problem. Did you see if Bella got the letter and pictures yet?" Emmett asked. Edward slowly lifted his head from where he landed face first on the ground.

"Emmett! Dward-eay is in the oom-ray!" I spoke Pig Latin hoping it would take Edward a while to catch on. Too bad it was also taking Emmett awhile; guess Emmett forgot I wasn't supposed to have left anything behind.

"Huh? I don't understand…I don't speak Pig Latin, Alice."

"Stupid Emmett just get out now!"

"OH! Okay I get it you were saying Edwards in the room….oops sorry Alice I'll just be going now." Emmett covered his mouth and tip-toed out.

Just in time Edward screamed. "ALICE! What the fuck was he talking about?!?" At that exact moment he flew over to me.

"Um well let's use hypothetical terms?" I suggested. He rolled his eyes "Okay lets say 'Bob' over heard his siblings talking about leaving 'Macy' something. What is 'Bob' supposed to do to his siblings? Kill them or torture and kill them?"

I gulped hard and loud. "Well lets just say hypothetically of course that 'bob's' loveable emphasis on the loveable sister 'Nicole' couldn't leave without saying goodbye-"he cut me off.

"So you put –"I didn't let him finish.

"You mean 'Nicole' put, right?"

He just rolled his eyes and continued. "Whatever! So 'Nicole' went and gave Be-"he saw my mouth open and corrected himself. "I mean 'Macy' a letter?!"

I giggled how he could think I would do such an insane thing. "No silly, 'Nicole' sent her lovable," big emphasis on the big brother, "'Kyle'" stupid Edward cut me off again.

"So 'Nicole' sent" I covered his mouth.

"Don't worry 'Bob'… 'Kyle' just hid the things where 'Bob' hid his things."

"But how did you know?" He stopped and I just point to my head.

"Visions! Stupid 'Nicole'" he paused and he saw me step back and frown.

If I could cry I would have, I loved Edward and now he hated me.

" So does 'BOB' hate 'Nicole' now?" I asked as he stepped forward, towards me.

"I could never hate you 'Nicole'." He smiled "You had every right to do what you did."

I hugged him and whispered "I love you too Edward" He chuckled "Don't you mean 'BOB'?" I rolled my eyes "Edward shut up" I said smacking his back.

He stepped back "Why are you blocking your mind Alice?" It was true I had been repeating the same numbers in Spanish over and over again; uno, dos, tres

"Well I need to tell you about 'Macy' because I'm confused." And with that said he left my room and half way out he yelled "I don't want to hear it Alice!"

A/N-sorry I took so long to post up this chapter, I hope it didn't disappoint any of you. Thanks for all the people that reviewed! Next chapter to be posted soon. Love ya all! ash

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