Harry's Special Xmas Chapter 10, a harry potter fanfic

Harry's Special Xmas

Hey... So this is it... The final chapter... I had fun with this story. I hope you did too,reading it... Hehe...

I guess some of you might already know how it will turn out in the end, but I hope you will read my endnotes once you completed reading this story.. :)

Disclaimer: These wonderful characters are not mine. They belong to JK Rowling. And i'm sorry to those perfectionists out there if I seem to have butchered some of the essential characteristics/traits of these characters for this story...

Chapter 10

Ginny was in her room sobbing. She had placed a locking spell on the door of her room. Wiping her tears away on her pillowcase, she thought about her fight with Dean. She wasn't the type to cry over such things. She was tough. She wasn't one to cry herself a river over break-ups and such things. But that remark.. It was too much for her to handle at the moment.

And Harry had kissed her. It was enough to bring such havoc on her hormones and feelings at the moment. Her plan had backfired horribly and she didn't know what to do next. Her intentions were quite simple and yet, she knew, even if the plan was a success, she knew a part of her would ultimately regret it.

"Admit it Ginny, you were never over him. Just, preoccupied with other guys like Dean and Michael. But you were never over him." Ginny found herself talking to herself.

"But he never paid much attention to you anyway Gin. He was always talking about Hermione and Ron and more of Hermione. In fact, he's always talking about Hermione..." Another part of her uttered.

"You just want him Ginny.. You just really WANT him... For the wrong reasons.."

Hermione's voice suddenly echoed in her mind... "You're insatiable Ginny.."

Maybe that's what I am.. she thought...

Tears flowed down her cheeks once more... She just wanted him... She didn't really understand him and his complications.She just wanted him... She wasn't there for him, not in the way that Hermione was. She wasn't the one he looked out for whenever they boarded the train to Hogwarts. She wasn't the one that was there for him all the way from day 1. She wasn't part of the golden trio. He wasn't the one whom he wrote the song for. It was her. It was her all along.

She knew her heart was breaking. But she knew it was the right thing to do. He wasn't hers. He never was in the very 1st place. Maybe fate already had his name written next to a brown-eyed girl who was currently very sick in the hospital wing and it was all because of her. Maybe it wasn't supposed to work out anyway between Harry and Ginny...

She wiped away her tears even though there was an undeniable pain ache that she was feeling at the very moment. She knew it was painful to do what she had to do but it was for the best and she never could abandon and ruin the friendship she'd had with Hermione all these while. Not even for Harry or for other guys.. She knew she was the one to put things right. And Dean.. Tears started flowing again... It was never really him in the 1st place. It had always been...

She sighed. Maybe if the heavens above wanted her to be with him, then she eventually will one day...An advice from her mother years ago echoed in her ears...

"Just leave it to fate and sacrifice Ginevra..."

"Karma is real my dears..." Trelawney's voice suddenly echoed in her ears, much to Ginny's horror. And Trelawney said she was the worst in Divination and here she was suddenly remembering her lessons at the weirdest possible moments.

Through her tears, she felt herself smiling... Maybe there was indeed some truth to that crap she had been learning all these while.

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Harry and Ron were seated in the quiet common room. They had entered the room a few minutes ago and as expected, the others were still not back from the Christmas party. It was still pretty early actually. It was only 11.30pm and it amazed Harry that a lot of damage could be done within a short period of 3 hours. And here they were , in the wake of the damage, silent and uncomfortable as the crackle of the fireplace accompanied them.

Harry looked at Ron,whose face was looking towards the fireplace. He looked ... resigned, sad almost... And Harry somehow knew what it was about. And since they were as close as brothers, it pained him to look at his mate that way.

Just as he was about to start the conversation, Ron spoke, his eyes still on the fireplace..

" Remember you said you were never gonna take her away from me..."

Harry looked down to his sneakers, guilt and pain at the sound of his friend's voice.

" Loook...Ron..About tonight.. I don't know what happened... And I don't know why..."

"No, let me finish Harry..."

Harry shifted in his seat, flinching. He has yet to get medicine for his bruised self but at that moment, nothing hurts more than hearing the words that he was about to hear from his friend...

" I always knew that I liked her Harry. Deep inside, as insensitive as I was, as dumb as I thought I was, I somehow knew... But I never really showed her any interest... I never did, because..."

Harry looked down upon his chuffed sneakers, dreading what was to come. He didn't want their friendship to end.

"Because... I knew there was already someone else in her heart... And as much as I really hate saying this.. I think that it's you mate..."

Shocked at Ron's words, he didn't know what to say next.

"No...It was you Ron.. She said..." Harry stumbled for the right words... He knew it was equally hard for him to say this... But Ron was his mate, his buddy, his loyal friend.

"It was you all along mate. She was into you all these while and I...I ...I...just fell for her only recently..."

Ron gave a resigned sound and he finally tore his face away from the fireplace, straight into Harry's face.

"Maybe.. But, I guess..it's a little too late for me...She's already fallen for you... Hard. And as much as I may have liked her before..Or as much as she may have liked me.. Well... I think that has somehow changed..."

At that moment, someone else was coming down the stairs. Both of them looked at the figure coming down. Still dressed in her party clothes, she came down. Ginny gave a weak smile towards her brother. She saw Harry's bruised face illuminated by the light from the fireplace and guilt immediately began to seep into her.

She knew Harry couldn't possibly remember what happened in detail between them. Ron on the other hand, was looking expectantly towards her arrival in the main common room area, an undeniable question in his eyes. There was no anger in his face. Just... A look that said... " You better clear things up with me coz I'm already too tired to get angry with you or anybody else and please make it short and simple coz we'd had enough drama for the night..."

She slowly made her way to both boys, seating herself next to Ron and looked at Harry. Harry looked at her, a small reluctant smile on his face. He probably didn't want to know what actually happened and the extent of damage he had caused.

Taking a deep breath, she let it out slowly before she started.

"Harry... Ron... Before I start, I just wanna say I regret what I've done.. And I'm not proud of what I did. So, I hope both of you, will find it in your heart to forgive me..." Her heart still aching from the events of the night, she told both of them what she had wanted to tell them all along...

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Hermione groaned as she woke up from her dreamless sleep. Her head felt really heavy and her throat sore from all the puking she's gone through throughout the night. Alcohol poisoning... Urgh... She will never lay a finger on her another one of those shots again... Her body was aching and all she wanted to do was to close her eyes and go back to sleep. Just as she was about to do that, she realized that someone was snoring very loudly across her. She opened one eyelid very reluctantly. That someone was snoring very loudly and it was annoying her tremendously. She felt like using the "Silencio" charm on the figure but somehow she couldn't quite muster the energy to grab her wand that was lying on her bedside table. Another snore hit her again. She tried covering her ears with her pillow...

But suddenly something clicked in her mind. Wait a minute There was only one person she knew who could snore as loudly as a washing machine... She let go of her pillow and opened both of her eyelids this time.. Yep, she was right. And she smiled at the sight that greeted her..

He was slumped in the hospital wing's armchair cross her, head flung back, mouth slidely apart and yup, he was snoring very very very loudly. He looked very different when he was asleep without his glasses on. Innocence. Less Intense than he usually was. She smiled. But then her smile faded when she saw the bruises upon Harry's face. Large purple bruises that made her flinch. She carefully got up, her body screaming in protest but she just knew she just had to sit up and walked over to where Harry was seated.Looking at the window, she was not surprised to see the early morning rays streaming in. Carefully taking Harry's hands into hers, she sighed. She knew she drank too much yesterday and it was all because she got insanely jealous over... She sighed yet again.

She looked into Harry's face. Strangely enough, despite all the ugly bruises upon his face, her heart raced at the sight before her. Taking a finger, she traced the legendary scar upon his forehead,enjoying the feel of his skin against hers. Those green eyes hidden from her under his closed eyelids, thick lashes framing them, that messy crop of hair ... This was not supposed to happen. But it already had. Her heart ached at the sight of the bruises upon his face. Just like it always did whenever she saw Harry in trouble. Maybe it has always been there all these while.

Her fingers trailed down towards his lips... She hesitated, and then placed a soft light lingering kiss upon his lips. One last kiss...

His eyes fluttered opened slowly. Hermione gently lifted her lips away from his. She couldn't quite meet his eyes. Embarrassed at being caught,she merely let go of her grip on Harry's hand and was about to turn towards her bed when she felt him pulling her back.

"Hey... "He said gently as he pulled her down to sit by him on the armrest of the chair. Hermione could feel the intensity of his gaze upon hers. She didn't dare look into his eyes. Not after what she did...And after last night... Even though she was really drunk, she had bits and pieces of what occurred the night before and much to her regret, she knew it wasn't a pretty sight. Not a pretty sight at all...

She felt Harry take her hands into his and she knew he wanted her to look him in the eyes. But somehow she couldn't. She knew she was falling for the wrong guy... She still had feelings for Ron.. But this new budding feeling towards Harry had hit her so fast and hard, it made her dizzy just thinking about it. And here he was right by her side and she felt her stomach muscles clenching and her palms all sweaty.. And she thought that only occurred during her exams.

"Hey... Look at me...Please 'Mione..."he whispered softly into her ears...

She knew she should, but she was scared too... It was wrong to fall for Harry, and she knew she won't pull through any emotional crisis if anything happened to their friendship. It was just too precious... And Ron... She still loved him...But this new feeling with Harry... She shouldn't be doing this...A tear fell from her eyes.

" Hermione...Please... Don't..Don't..Don't cry..."

"I'm sorry Harry, but... I just can't fall in love with you..." She said, as tears flowed freely from her eyes...

It cut Harry like a knife when he heard those words past those lips of hers. He lifted her chin, forcing her to look into his eyes... And when her brown ones finally did, she was shocked to see her reflection in his eyes which were filled with tears...At the sight, she couldn't contained her tears no more...

"Why... Hermione... Why not? Please... I... I'm already in love with you..."

She lowered her eyes and her soft sobs filled the room as Harry hugged her tight, and it broke Hermione's heart feeling his body shaking with each of her sob. She held on him tight, and she felt him stroking her hair and she was sure he was crying too...

Suddenly she heard him whispering something into her ears. Through her tears, she realised that he was softly singing to her...

I am always thinking of you

In my sleepless solitude night after night

If it's wrong to love you

Then my heart just won't let me be right

'Cause I've drowned in you

And I won't pull through

Without you by my side

Hearing those words made her cry even more. She knew she should tell him that she was confused and had feelings for Ron but Harry was making it hard.. Very hard for her to do so as he continued to sing those words softly into her ears...

Baby can you feel me

Imagining I'm looking in your eyes

I can see you clearly

Vividly emblazoned in my mind

And yet you're so far

Like a distant star

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Unknown to them, Ginny was witnessing their embrace through the small opening in the Hospital Wing doors. She was about to enter the room when she heard sobbing and she stopped.Hermione was crying against Harry's shoulders and she heard what she said to the raven –haired boy...

"I just can't fall in love with you"

Her own tears fell from her eyes when she heard that. Hermione, you idiot, he really does...He really does love you...

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"Why not? Tell me why not?"

"It's...Ron... I..I..."

"He knows Hermione.. He knows how I feel about you... And.. And he said... It was...alright.."

"Those feelings for him, and these new feelings for you.. And I'm confused Harry. Ron, he.. well.. He has been here," Hermione took Harry's hand and placed in upon her heart before continuing," for so long... "

Harry remained still in her arms, eyes still connected with hers. The consistent beat of her heart was all he could feel at the moment as Hermione's voice echoed again and again in his ears... He knew, he just had to convince her...

Taking her hand that was holding his palm against her chest,he took it and placed it upon his own chest...

"Do you feel that Hermione... That beating...It has always been beating that fast whenever I'm near you these days... Just the sight of you... Just the thought of you.. And this is what happens.."

Hermione smiled through her tears, as she felt the fast and strong pounding of Harry's heart against her palm...She didn't know what to say...

Harry took Hermione's other hand and placed it upon her chest gently,much to her surprise.He then leaned in nearer to her, his lips inches away from hers...

"Feel that Hermione? Your heart's beating as fast as mine when I'm near you..."

Hermione indeed felt it. And for the first time, she suddenly understood what he had been trying to say...

" I love you Hermione Jean Granger..."

With that he kissed her tenderly...

Hermione closed her eyes, at the touch of his lips against hers... And with her palm still placed upon Harry's chest, she felt the fast fluttering of his heartbeat... Her own heartbeat seemed to echo his very own.

She felt her own heart pounding fiercely against her ribcage and for once in her life, Hermione Granger was wrong I'm not an insufferable know-it-all after all For one thing, she didn't know that Harry and her was ever possible. A delusion. And yet here she was, in his arms, hearts pounding as one.

Ginny who was still at the door couldn't hear the exchange between them but she knew it was going to be alright..She brushed away her tears... Thank God you've come to your senses Hermione... With that, she walked away, her heart still aching but somehow she knew she was going to be alright... Someday, maybe... Her fate might intertwined with Harry's one day..Who knows.. Anything could happen... She shouldn't give up hope... Afterall , they were still very very young... A chorus from one of Dean's muggle cds suddenly played in her mind...

Baby if we met each other under a different sky

Maybe then things would be much better between you and I

We could always hold on to this one special thing we might share

And then only then, you'll tell me that you really care...

She smiled... It was gonna be ok...It was gonna be alright...someday...

Pulling away from Harry slightly to look up into Harry's green eyes, she whispered...

"I'm afraid..." She paused.

"Afraid of what,'Mione," he whispered against her lips.

"I'm afraid..I've fallen in love with you too, Harry James Potter..."

Harry looked down upon his Christmas angel ...

"Don't be..."

(: ------The End----- :)

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