It took too long to update, thus I'm going to try and do a couple chapters today to make up for the lost track of time. This entire chapter is just flashback. R&R. Thanks and enjoy.

Summary: With the breaking of a promise, Yuuta's world becomes unstable and seeks other people to try and bring that world back from the brink of destruction, but even after going as far as to try and repair things, will Yuuta ever find a way to repair the damage done (especially in his heart)?

Warnings: This is yaoi, YuutaxMizuki, FujixTezuka, YuutaxAtsushi, Fujicest, and Kisarazucest, and mentioning of TezukaxRyoma.

Disclaimer: I do not own Prince of Tennis, nor any characters in this fic. And I do not own any songs you see, Clazziquai. It's been translated from Korean to English.

// Don't be sad. As time passes we'll become

I can't live without you

I hate you because I love you this much

Without saying anything, just hold my hand

So you don't recognize me, don't keep any memories of me

I love you, but if I have to send you away

I won't have any scars or regrets

Even if everything changes, I won't

I love you

I still love you very much //

Yuuta was collapsed on the couch, he had just went through such a long day. Syuusuke had decided to leave all the cleaning to Yuuta. So thus, the boy had cleaned the house from top to bottom. He hated cleaning with a passion, well not to that extent, but he couldn't stand it. It's reflected in the fact that he rarely cleans his room unless threatened by Yumiko or his mom. A shiver ran down the back of his neck or maybe it was sweat, he did more work today than he does at tennis practice.

"Tadaima." The elder Fuji's voice rang out from the genkan.

"Okaeri." Yuuta called from the living room. Fuji smiled at his brother befoe going into the kitchen to put away the goodies he had had gone out to buy, saying he had to run errands for Yumiko while she was away visiting friends in Hiroshima for the weekend. Their mother and father were at a meeting in Kyoto for their father's company. They figured it'd be a nice little vacation for the two of them. This left the two brothers alone to take care of each other, or more like Fuji take care of Yuuta.

"Yuuta, do you need anything?" Fuji called from the other room.

"No, Aniki." He blinked as Fuji now stood in the doorway.

"No sweettooth after cleaning all day? I've brought rewards for my little brother." Yuuta twitched at the little brother comment, but sat up.

"What're you talking..." Yuuta's voice seemed to go mute at the sight of a bag of truffles.

"I bought treats for you, Yuuta. Kaa-san wouldn't approve if she was home, but she doesn't need to know." Yuuta's teeth already hurt just looking at the bag. Yumiko had been saying he was going to wrote his teeth if he doesn't get rid of liking sweets and pies.

"Is that what you did when you said you were running errands for Nee-san?" Fuji plopped himself down next to his brother.

"Possibly." Yuuta dug his hand into the back and started to unwrap them, sticking two right in his mouth.

"This day'll be between us, then." Fuji smiled, popping a truffle into his own mouth.

"Agreed. It's also to make up for yesterday." Yuuta stopped midchew, going white. He didn't want to remember that. He moved away an inch. He couldn't stand remembering it. Worst of all, he liked how it felt. He wasn't supposed to enjoy his brother kissing him, that's why he had punched the other before disappearing into his room. He didn't want things to be like that, it couldn't be like that. He didn't want to belong to his brother, no, he was only just a shadow of the other boy. He was only an object of affection, that was why Fuji bought him things that he liked. Yuuta slowly grew disgusted, with not only himself for accepting them, but his brother for thinking he could buy him.

"I don't want it." Yuuta had swallowed what had been in his mouth and got up.

"Yuuta..I'm sorry." Yuuta turned back around, his mouth was open to say something, but he closed it and stormed off. Fuji signed as he set the chocolates down. He really had messed this up. He winced at the front door slamming shut.

Yuuta rubbed some sweat from his forehead. He had been having the trainer practice with him for the last two hours. He got most of his frustration out, but a part of him wasn't satisfied.

"Hey, we're a player a short. Care to join us?" His face turned to meet the boy who would change his future drasticly.

"Sure."

"Good choice. He's Fuji Syuusuke's little brother." Yuuta snapped his head to glare at his trainer, but it returned back to the new trio.

"I don't care who he is." Yuuta ended up playing singles against the three boys one after the other, ending with Mizuki.

"I was completely overpowered." The two shook hands.

"The three of us are going to be regulars for St. Rudolph this year. You should think about coming to our school. We're the tennis elite and you'd be a good addition." Mizuki, as he introduced himself to be, was twirling strands around a finger, a habbit Yuuta would fine to be quite normal when Mizuki was scheming.

"Eh? Can I really just do that?" Mizuki nodded and motioned to Atsushi.

"He was having brother problems and I recruited him to come to St Rudolph not long ago. Same can be the same for you." Yuuta nodded, planning on transfering as soon as possible. Yuuta left back for home more happier than when he had left. He was still recalling the boys he met. Mizuki's composure was just amazing, he seemed well collected. And Atsushi had a slight feminine appearance to him. Yuuta's cheeks tinted pink at his thoughts. He sighed as he opened the door and shut it behind him.

"Tadaima." Yuuta slipped off his shoes and proceeded it.

"Okaeri, Yuuta." Yuuta headed right up to his room, setting his stuff down. Yuuta turned to head back downstairs when he paused at his brother being in the doorway.

"Yuuta..."

"What."

"You went out to play tennis?"

"Yes, and I met some interesting people who made a good offer and I might take them up on it." Fuji blinked.

"What offer?"

"You'll see." Yuuta brushed his brother as he went down to the kitchen. The rest of the weekend continued with the two brothers speaking as little as possible, their parents and sister returning in time for dinner of sunday. At dinner, conversation brought up Yuuta's offer.

"Anything interesting happen this weekend?" Their mother asked. Yuuta's attention was taken from poking a carrot to his mother.

"Yah. I wanna transfer schools." Everyone stopped eating, turning their attention to the youngest Fuji.

"What are you talking about? Are you not happy at Seishun Gakuen with Syuusuke?" The first year wanted to yell that he wasn't, that no one ever noticed he wasn't.

"I met some boys at the tennis courts yesterday, they told me about their school. St Rudolph, an all boy's school here in Tokyo. It's a boarding school, but it's promising. I can even play tennis for them. I'm not exactly.. a hundred percent happy at being in Seishun." His parents exchanged glances.

"Can't you just play tennis for Seishun?" Yuuta shook his head.

"No. That's Aniki's role. I'm tired of being Syuusuke's little brother. It's the reason I'm not playing tennis. I hate being compared to him. I'm tired of it, Kaa-san, Tou-san."

"You should let him go. It'd be good for him." Yuuta was surprised at hearing his brother talking.

"Syuusuke..." Yumiko was sitting right next to the elder brother, and could tell there wasn't quite right about him.

"If it's what you want, Yuuta-dear. Then we'll talk and have you transferred to St. Rudolph." Yuuta nodded.

"Thank you." Dinner continued in an uncomfortable silence, their father breaking the silence by telling them about their trip in Kyoto. Yuuta and Yumiko washed the dishes, Syuusuke seeming to disappear into his room.

"Yuuta, are you sure you want to transfer? Syuusuke has always been so proud of you being in school with him." Yumiko handed her brother another dish to dry, which he did.

"I don't care, Nee-san. I want to go and find myself. This is the perfect chance. I won't have to be Fuji Syuusuke's little brother, I can be Fuji Yuuta." He set the plate down, his sister trying to register the words in her head.

"Yuuta... Talk to your brother. I'll take care of the dishes, just go talk to Syuusuke." She took the towel from him and shoo'd him off. Yuuta sighed as he wiped his hands on his shirt, standing outside his brother's door for a minute. As he was going to knock, the door opened.

"Come in, Yuuta." Yuuta could catch a small hint that his brother hadn't been doing just anything, but wouldn't say a word. He slipped in and sat on the edge of his brother's bed. It smelt of him, smelt of the sweet scent that he always would associate with Syuusuke. It was sweet, but not over powering, no, it was gentle, like his brother.

"Aniki... I'm sorry." Fuji sat away at his desk, turning his chair to watch his brother, trying burn the image into his mind so he would never forget the boy.

"There's nothing to be sorry about. It's simple, you're not happy at Seishun, and you deserve to be happy." Yuuta stared down at his hands. How he wanted to yell that he was just running away from his problems till he can sort them out, but the words couldn't take form. He got up from his seat and stopped at the door, it open a little as he stood there.

"One day, Aniki... One day I'll tell you exactly what's making me unhappy." It was left at that as Yuuta left the room, closing the door behind him. He was quickly accepted into the school he wanted into, and quickly sent everything there. And like that, Yuuta was gone. The first day, Syuusuke couldn't get used to the silence, it was too unnerving. He would sit in Yuuta's room, trying to adapt to his brother nolonger being there.

"One day, Yuuta... One day I'll make you happy again, believe in me. I have to send you away, so you can grow. Not as Fuji Yuuta, no as a human being. I know... I should've stopped you, but I love you too much to want to keep you within this cage. I won't change, because I want to be the one you'll return back to. Just.. return one day, return back to me." These words would never reach the boy who now resided in dorm life, ready to begin the change which would unknowingly occur.

Back to normal time, Yuuta brings Atsushi home with him. How will his brother deal with his younger brother's new love? Will the war become less or will there still be an unsettled hatred still hanging in the air? Find out next chapter.