6. Break Away
He was sorry. He truly was. He needed to break away though. Away from the town. Away from Luke. Away from school. He needed to find his dad and also who he was. He couldn't do this in Stars Hollow. He had to do it in California. He knew he couldn't take her with him. She couldn't leave school, her town, her mother. No matter how much he wanted her to, she couldn't and wouldn't.
She'd try to talk him out of it. That he knew. She would get out the pom-poms and give him the "You Could Do Better" speech. He didn't want that. He didn't want to admit that he had failed. Not to her. That would be the worst thing. It would be unbearable to sit through. Unbearable to see the disappointment in her blue eyes. The pain that he had lied to her. The love that he feared and wanted at the same time.
She was everything he wanted and he was scared. He was afraid that he would screw it up somehow. He would mess up and mess them up forever.
He wanted to get away before the pain of heartbreak hit him. He wanted to get away before he had the chance to be a heartbreak, if he wasn't already.
She deserved much better than him. She needed somebody she could trust and depend on and someone that wouldn't fail . Someone that could achieve more than him. He was worthless and unworthy and he knew it. He wanted her, but he knew that good things can't last forever. He was running, leaving a clean break. Clean breaks heal faster.