Hold on tight
Amanda looked at him and said, "Sirius… I…" He said, "You what?" She stood up and said, "I'm sorry babe, really I… I am, but I can't." She ran out of the room and Sirius felt his heart shatter like a diamond cut the wrong way.
Amanda ran down the stairs and out of the common room. Lily stood as Sirius came down the stairs, she said, "Black, what did you do?" He looked at her and she backed off, James looked at Sirius and said, "Padfoot, are you okay? You look like someone died." He shook his head and said, "I asked her to marry me." Lily's eyes widened and said, "So why did she run out of here in tears, she said yes. Right?" He shook his head again and said, "She said no. That she couldn't." James and Remus went over and sat by him so they could comfort him. Lily looked at him and said, "I'll go talk to her." Sirius asked, "Why? I thought that you didn't want us to be dating." She smiled and said, "I didn't and I still kinda don't, but you two are meant to be together. I know that, you make a perfect couple. That's why." Sirius mumbled his 'thanks' as she walked out side.
(Out side in the Forbidden forest)
Amanda walked through the forest side by side with none other that Luscious Malfoy. She turned to him and said, "What the hell does your master want with me?" He looked at her and said, "He wants what's best for the world. To get rid of the filth that clogs the world to make it a purer place for everyone." She turned and said, "How can you say that? He ordered my cousin to die! He, his wife, and his son were pure bloods, and he killed them because he wouldn't tell him where I was!" He turned and said, "That is a shame but you must understand that when he takes over that those who don't obey him will die, poor blood or not."
She stopped and looked at him and said, "What makes him think that I will just join him? I don't agree with his ideas!" Luscious turned to her and said, "You know that he won't stop, unless you join him. Look I know that you don't agree with him, but I don't want to see you hurt. Please just join us." She stared him in the eye and said, "I will not. But I want to know why he wants me." Luscious took a deep breath and said, "You've heard of the prophecy of the butterfly right?" Amanda walked ahead and stopped in front of a tree. She turned back to him and said, "And he thinks that I'm the butterfly." Luscious walked up next to her and said, "Sadly."
Amanda turned away from him and started to walk towards the castle. Luscious ran up to her and grabbed her hand. They stopped and she asked, "Would you just hand me over to him?" He looked at her and said, "I…" She looked him in the eyes and said, "Would you just hand me over to him?" Luscious took a deep breath and said, "Of course not." She wrapped her arms around his neck and said, "Thank you." He wrapped his arms around her and said, "Anytime." She stepped away and said, "Sirius proposed." He said, "Congrats." She shook her head and looked away before she said, "I turned him down." He looked shocked and said, "Why? You love him." She looked at him with tears in her eyes. She said, "I… I don't want him to get hurt or killed because of me." He said, "As much I would love to see Black hurt. I don't want to see you hurt. Amanda…" He stopped as they heard the snap of a twig.
Amanda jumped around to see Lily and the Marauders standing there. Sirius stepped forward and said, "Is this way you said no?" Amanda shook her head no and said, "No, he has nothing to do with it. We were just talking." James said, "Oh, really." Lily said, "About what?" Amanda looked at Luscious and said, "Maybe you should go." He nodded and said, "Okay, I don't want any trouble." He kissed her on the cheek and walked passed them keeping an eye on Sirius. Amanda said, "Please let me explain." Sirius said, "Please do." She took a deep breath and said, "He's my friend. That's it, there's nothing more to it. We were talking; I wanted to ask him what his master wants with me. I know that it sounds weird because he's a Deatheater, but he wouldn't hurt me." Sirius looked at her with a look filled with so much hate that Voldemort couldn't even challenge it. Amanda stepped away and said, "Why don't you believe me? Lily?" She looked at Lily, who looked away. Amanda looked at Sirius and said, "You promised that you would be there for me. And now because I have a friend that you don't like you're going to walk away from me!" He turned away and said, "He's one of them. Amanda." The tears that she was holding back began to roll down her cheeks as she said, "So you're saying that because he doesn't see things the same way that you do; that you are going to leave me?" He looked at her and said, "You are trusting your life to a Deatheater!" She said, "At least he isn't going to turn his back on me when I need him the most!"
She ran past them and Sirius yelled after her, "YOU KEEP BELIEVING THAT UNTIL HE HAND YOU OVER TO HIS MASTER!" He turned back to the group and said, "I'm going to go for a longer walk." He walked deeper into the forest and James said, "Let's just give him some space to chill off." They walked back up to the castle and into the Gryffindor common room to find that Amanda had cried herself to sleep on the couch. Lily walked over and sat down next to her. She tucked the hair that was hanging in front of her face behind her eye. James walked over and said, "Lil?" Lily looked up at him with tears in her eyes and said, "I can't believe that I just did that. She would never turn her back on me, even when I use to hang out with Severus. She never like him but she would never do what I just did. She's my cousin Jamie; and I turned my back on her." James said, "We all did, and we can't take it back. We can't change what we did. But what are you going to do when they want us to pick sides?" Neither of them realized that Amanda had woken up until she said, "Why would I want you to choose sides, when I already know that you don't trust my decisions." She stood up and started to walk up stairs when Lily said, "I'm sorry." Amanda said, "I know. But it still hurts any ways."
Amanda walked up stair and Lily put her head in James neck. He wrapped his arms around her and said, "Maybe you should try to get some sleep, before classes start in a few hours." Lily nodded and gave him a kiss before walking up stair. James walked out of the portrait hole to find Professor McGonagall standing there with her arms crossed. She asked, "And where exactly where would you be off to Mister Potter." James took a deep breath and said, "To go look for Sirius." She raised and eyebrow and said, "Why would he be out of the dorms at four thirty in the morning?" James said, "Amanda and him got in a fight and he said that he needed some fresh air." She looked at him and said, "You return to the dorm and I will make sure that he is back." James nodded and walked back into the common room and up to the boys' dorm. He did not how ever go to bed he instead he grabbed his invisibility cloak. He then snuck out of the tower and ran into the forbidden forest. While out there he said, "Padfoot!" "Come on where are you?"
He heard a scream followed by a laugh. He walked towards the area where it came from to stop thirty feet away from Amanda, who was being tackled and licked by a huge black dog. She said, "Where did you come from?" He barked and she said, "Well any way. Can you keep a secret?" He nodded his head and said, "I really fucked up big time today. My boyfriend asked me to marry him and I turned him down. I still don't know why. Then I find out that the dark lord thinks that I am the butterfly. Do know what that means?" The dog snorted and shook his head. She pulled out a piece of paper and read, "Teetering on the path of light, a butterfly there is. Her heart is laden deep in sorrow for know that her mind has thrown it away. Giving up on love she finds is hard, but to know that doing the right thing is the one that hurts the most. She walks her path to only find a fork in the road, one completely dark and the other with lights. One holds the truth and how to save the world the other hold the lies, death and destruction of all she holds dear…" Amanda cut off sobbing with tears. The dog put his head in her lap and snuggled closer.
She giggled and said, "You remind me of Sirius. I miss him; I wish that I would have said, yes. I'd be the luckiest girl in the world." The dog whined and she said, "What?" He stood up and grabbed on her shirt lightly pulling her. She stood up and said, "Okay I'll follow you, give me a second." She followed him but lost him as she rounded a tree. She looked around and screamed in surprise to see Sirius standing there. James, who had heard Amanda scream came running and said, "Are you okay?" She smiled and said, "Yeah, and James about what I said…" He shook his head and said, "No, you shouldn't be sorry. You had every right to say that. We should have trusted you." She gave him a hug and turned to Sirius and asked, "Is it still an option for me to say yes now?" He thought a moment and said, "Of course!" She threw herself at him and he wrapped his arms around her before starting to carry her towards the school. James followed after and they tried sneak back in when Amanda said, "Look! The sun is rising." The two marauders stopped and looked to the east to see the sun rising. They stopped to watch as the golden ball of fire raise above the horizon.
As they entered the common room they looked up to see Lily sitting there. Sirius let go of Amanda and she walked over to Lily. Lily looked up at her and they could tell that she had been crying. Amanda knelt down in front of Lily and said, "I'm sorry. I shouldn't have said that. I was mad, but I really wasn't mad at you guys. I know that it seemed like I was but I was really mad at myself." She pulled Lily forward and gave her a hug. Then said, "So is there any possibility that my favorite cousin and head girl; would allow her favorite cousin, her favorite cousin's fiancée, her boyfriend and herself to skip the first couple classes and sleep?" Lily looked at her and said, "Fiancée?" Amanda shrugged and said, "I'm really tired Lil. Can't I explain later." Lily nodded and said, "Straight to bed with us all." They laughed as they walked up the stairs. James gave Lily a kissed good night, well technically good morning, as Sirius did the same to Amanda.
The girls walked into the dorm as Ally and Eve woke up. Ally looked at them and said, "Are you two cool, with each other now?" They nodded and Lily said, "Will you two cover for us in Potions?" Eve nodded as she got out of bed and said, "Of course!" Amanda and Lily crawled into bed and pulled the covers up to their chins, Lily falling fast asleep. Just as Amanda was falling fast asleep she felt some additional weight on her bed. She opened her eyes to see Sirius leaning over her. She smiled and said, "What?" He made a poutie face and said, "Come sleep with me." She smiled and got out of bed putting her fuzzy electric blue slippers on following him out the door.
They walked into the guys' dorm as Remus and Peter were leaving. She smiled at them and Peter said, "So you don't hate Sirius anymore?" Amanda shook her head and said, "Only you." Then walked over to Sirius's bed and jumped on it. Sirius chuckled as he walked over. Peter on the other hand looked very nervous. Sirius looked at Peter and said, "Don't look so worried Wormtail. She's joking." Peter gave a force smile as he walked out, and Amanda said, "No, I really don't like." Sirius frowned and said, "Why?" She shrugged her shoulders and said, "I have a bad feeling. I mean… I don't really understand it… But I just can't get my self to trust him." Sirius kissed her on the nose and said, "We can handle this issue later." He laid down wrapping his arms around her as she snuggled closer to him. He smiled and kissed her on the head. They had fallen asleep, around lunch time Sirius stir from his stomach growling. Stared at Amanda watching her sleep, 'She's beautiful when she's asleep.' She rolled over and opened her eyes. He leaned down and kissed her. She giggled and watched James walk up behind him and pour water on him. Sirius screamed and said, "James! What the fuck was that for?" James was rolling on the ground laughing when a bunch of water got dumped on him. He looked up to see Lily standing at the door holding her sides from laughing. James stood up and said, "Is something funny? Baby." Lily smiled but shook her head, James walked over to her and said, "Well, how about a hug then." Lily shook her head and said, "You're wet." He smirked wrapping his arms around her cornering her against the wall and said, "I didn't notice." Amanda, who was laughing hysterically, screamed as Sirius wrapped his arms around her and said, "And what exactly are you laughing at baby?"
She wiggled against him and said, "You're cold." He chuckled and said, "It's hard to tell when I have someone as hot as you next to me." She laughed and said, "You know you don't have to flirt, I'm already yours." He laughed as he started to kiss her neck. Amanda moaned leaning her head against his shoulder. He put his hands on her hips lifting her so that she was in a strattling position above him. Amanda smiled leaning down to kiss him. Sirius kept his hands on her hips pulling her down as he arched up deepening the kiss. She broke their kiss, as she started to trail kisses from his jaw line to his neck. Sirius's hands moved from her hips to her side. He began to gently rock his hips against hers creating a light friction between his hardening member and her wet area.
Across the room Lily blushed and looked over James's shoulder they heard Amanda moan. She said, "Maybe we should give them so privacy." James nodded as he started to kiss her neck, he said, "We should go to the Head girl/ boy bathroom." Lily kissed him and said, "I love the way you think." James chuckled lightly as he dragged Lily out the door.
(Back to the bed Lemon)
Sirius grinned as he heard the door open and close. He said, "Their gone." Amanda smiled pulling his shirt up, placing little kisses on his stomach. He groaned the closer she got to his growing erection. Amanda smiled as she dawned upon his bulged pants. She giggled and asked, "Does it always do this." Sirius gritted his teeth and said, "Only when you're around." She smiled again and placed a light kiss on the bulge, causing Sirius to whimper. She slowly hooked her fingers on his Pajama pants. Kissing him on the lips as she pulled them down, Sirius arch up to make it easier. Amanda didn't wait to pull his boxers down; as soon as his pants were off his bulging penis was exposed to the cold air of the room. Sirius gasped and pulled Amanda down sliding a hand up her tight spaghetti strap muscle shirt. He quickly discarded it giving him access to her breast. He leaned up putting his mouth around her hardened left nipple sucking on it. Amanda moaned, her hand sliding down to his erection. "Amanda!" was all that Sirius could must, trying not to cum at that moment.
He flipped them over so he was on top, pulling her hands away. Holding her hands with his left hand, he reached his right hand down sliding it into her bottoms. Amanda arched her back trying to hold her scream of pleasure in as he slide two fingers into her tight opening. He gently rubbed his fingers against the sides of her opening, receiving small whimpers of pleasure from Amanda. He grinned as she whined, "Sirius… Please…" He leaned down kissing her and said, "Please… What?" She threw her head back and said, "I… I'm…." She broke off whimpering as she cam all over his hand. He smiled as he brought his hand filled with her juices up to his mouth licking it off. He looked at her smiling as she caught her breath. He waited a moment before placing his penis at her opening, slowly sliding in. He choked on his breath as her body clamped around his member. "Damn it, you're tight." She giggled and said, "Well you're not exactly five inches or smaller." He kissed her and said, "You wouldn't have come back after the first night if I was." She smiled, thrusting her hips into his. He moaned and began to thrust into her. It was long after that he felt her body tighten around him. Her breathing sped up with every thrust that he made, until she screamed his name as she cam. He trusted in twice more until he was on the verge of cuming, he was about to pull out when she grabbed on to his hips pulling herself closer she said, "No… don't. I want you to fill me... Please." He nodded thrusting in one last time before he cried out her name filling her up with his seed until it ran down her leg. He pulled himself out; he collapsed next to her on the bed wrapping his arms around her.
She turned in his arms so she was facing him she said, "You know; I really wish that this baby was yours." She put her hand down on her lower abdomen slightly rubbing it. He smiled and said, "So do I, but I promise if you decide to keep it, I will act as if it is." He placed his hand over hers and she said, "I can't wait until he moves." Sirius cocked an eyebrow and asked, "What makes you think that it's a boy?" She smiled and said, "Woman's intuition." He smiled and said, "I'm not even going to ask." She giggled and said, "Well… If anything happens to me after I have the baby… Will you promise me that you'll take care of him?" He looked at her and said, "What makes you think that something's going to happed to you?" She shook her hand and said, "Promise me… Please?" He looked at her and said, "Amanda, What's going on?" She again shook her head and said, "Please." As unshed tears formed in her eyes. He nodded and said, "Okay, okay… I promise." He kissed her on the head pulling her closer to him as she fell asleep.
(Okay I know that there are some confusing things, but they will be explained. But if you can't wait and find out later let me know and I'll try to explain it. That was also my first attempt at an actually lemon, so please don't hate me if it sucked."