Hey everyone. Sorry if this chapter is kinda blah...i really don't know what im doing. I'm just going on with it. Truth is, im making it up as i go along. But thats how i always write. Well hope u guys like it. And please, please review. I have no idea if u guys like it or not. Give me something to go on. Thanks.

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Chapter 6

When I was walking down the road towards the forest edge, I heard someone behind me. I quickly turned around and accidentally knocked down Bella. She had been following me, and I just now had realized it.

"What are you doing following me?" I asked her. She looked hurt for a second but regained her usual composure.

"What is going on Jacob?" I was going to lie to her, but I knew that since she had heard everything I had told Carlisle that it wouldn't work.

"Didn't you hear everything I said to Carlisle back there?" I said pointing towards their house.

She looked down for a moment. "Not really, I just sort of froze when you said that you had an imprint named Lily." She said quietly.

"I thought you wanted me to have an imprint." I said.

"I did. But it just shocked me."She lifted her head to glare at me. "Now tell me whats going on!"

I blew out a deep breath. "I'm going to sum it up for you okay? Bella, I left, and when I did I met my imprint. I fell in love with her at first sight, but when we came back, I realized that I still love you. I know for a fact that this is not normal for a werewolf to do, so I decided to talk to Carlisle. But unfortunately he couldn't give me any freaking answers anyway!" I bellowed.

"Your still in love with me? Why?" She asked.

"Thats what I want to know." I said. "I love Lily, but I love you more. And it scares the shit out of me. Literally." I groaned.

"Is it such a bad thing?" she asked.

"No. It isn't. But it isn't fair to Lily. And I should get back." I turned around and she yelled back at me.

"You really have changed."

I turned fast on my feet and grabbed her shoulders. "What the hell is that supposed to mean?" I asked. She didn't say a word. "You really are a hyprocrate Bella. The reason I left was because of you! Don't you understand that?! Now your going to beat me up because I grew up? Because I realized that I needed to get out of this life? That from the first moment I hurt you, I damn myself everyday for what I am?

"You have no idea what I have been through ever since I fell in love with you. How dare you contradict what you did." I yelled. My anger pulsed through me and my hands began to shake.

Her face made my heart sink into my stomach. She was frowning and her eyes glistened like she was about to cry. But I couldn't lose it now. I was getting her back, and I needed this. I needed her to feel as much hurt as I have had the last couple of years. But as I was glowering, Edward came up and wrapped her arms around Bella. Then he pushed her behind him and he stood in front of me.

"What are you doing Jacob?" He said quietly, but I could feel the rage coming off of him with every unnecessary breath he took.

"I don't know what the hell you mean Edward. Me and Bella were just having a discussion. What's it to you?" My eyes narrowed.

"You hurting Bella is my business. And can't you see your hurting her?" He pointed to her and she had her face in her hands, weeping silently.

My face fell and I immediately felt like a total asshole. Who was I to make such treacherous accusations when Bella has always been in the same pain I have been. Perhaps worse. I had forgotten what she was like when Edward first left her. The way she looked the first time she came looking for me at my house, needing a safe harbor. I was always hers, her own personal sun.

But not today. Today, I was her own personal jackass and it made me want to throw up. I felt a whole drill itself in my stomach and I turned and ran into the forest and gagged. The acid from my stomach came up and I poured it out.

A small hand touched my shoulder blade and I looked up wiping of my mouth. Bella stood there and she had a worried expression on her face. Her brows were furrowed and her eyes held deep concern. I could not believe that she held concern for me when I had treated her like this. I had to get away. I straightened up and looked at her. Edward was by the road and he was watching us intently.

"I have to go." I told her.

"Wait!" she called. But I didn't turn back. I kept on walking. Then out of nowhere, thin arms wrapped around my waist from behind. It was Bella's familiar arms. I would know her touch anywhere. I froze mid-step and felt her arms tighten. I turned around in her arms and she peeked up at me just before she buried her face in my chest. I wrapped my arms tightly around her as well and she whispered into my skin. "I love you Jake." My heart broke inside. I loved her more than life itself. But I could not have her. And my conscience knew that I would pay dearly for this when I returned to Lily later tonight.

"I love you too Bella. More than you will ever realize." I pressed my lips to the top of her head and breathed in her scent. Then I looked up and Edward was still there, watching us. It bothered me in a way. But I was great full for him being so flexible about Bella's and my relationship. It was an odd one, and no one but Edward could understand it.

"I have to go no Bella."I muttered. Cursing in my head. Screaming at myself not to let her go. That I needed her. She was my safe harbor. And I needed her protection. But I knew I had to. I loosened my grip on her and she slipped from my arms.

"I'll see you around?" she sounded hopeful.

"I really don't know." I said sadly. I turned and ran away. I wouldn't have survived another moment being next to her. I was very close to hyperventilating and it was terrifying.

By the time I got back to La push, the sun was setting and twilight was breaking through the trees of the forests. None of the lights in the house were on and that surprised me. Usually Billy would be up and watching some type of game on the tv. I walked through the door and saw Lily laying on the couch asleep.

A feeling that I did not understand took me and I ran to her. She was breathing softly and her chest lifted with every breath she took and descended with every exhale. I watched her, and she murmured in her sleep.

Mmmm...Jacob. She said.

I smiled. She was dreaming about me. Well, that was comforting. She actually likes me.

I touched her arm lightly and her eyes slid open. She looked at me and smiled.

"Mmmm..Jacob." She said. "I've been waiting for you all day. How did the erunds go?" she asked.

"As well as to be expected." I began. "Do you know where my father is?" I asked.

"Yeah. Charlie called and he came to pick him up. It's game night supposable." she said.

I smiled. "When did he leave?" I asked. A game usually lasted a couple of hours. And the feeling the struck me was not going away. But growing with every breath of her skin.

"About ten minutes ago?" She said looking at the clock on the wall.

I smirked and she looked at me oddly. "What are you thinking?" she asked weary.

I bent forward and her breath got caught. I slowly brushed my lips with hers. Savoring the moment. Being very teasing. I was killing her with the temptation. And she was on it like a moth to a flame. She breathed out and kissed me back. She sat up and wrapped her arms around my neck pulling me closer.

I reached up and undid the buttons on her shirt very slowly. She opened her eyes and looked at me, breaking the kiss.

"Are you sure?" she asked. I nodded and captured her lips in mine before she could say anything else.

I pulled her up into my arms and carried her to my room. Laying her down unto it I slid off my sweats and got on top of her. I stripped her of her clothing and stretched my length on top of her. She looked at me and my eyes grazed over her hourglass figure. She blushed deep crimson and I smiled.

"Your beautiful." said. She laughed and my brow furrowed.

"And your cheesy." she said still laughing. But I shut her up with another kiss. I slid my tongue into her mouth possessing it. I plunged my tongue in and out with the intention of giving an idea to her of how I would take her. Slow thrusts, fast thrusts. One after the other. Claiming her as mine and only mine. She whimpered around my tongue and I drew back.

I reached down and slid a finger into her very slowly, she was wet. Oh so wet. And I smiled. I positioned myself at her base and looked at her. She nodded and I slowly, inch by inch went into her. She shuddered at the feeling and the pain that came with my large shaft. I couldn't help that I was eight inches of pure man.

Once I broke her barrier, I began to thrust in and out very slowly. She was pushing back wildly and we began to pick up pace. She moaned and I groaned. Making passion that I had never felt before. At least, not by a woman.

Her body became coated with sweat, as did mine. I pulled her closer to me as we both became dangerously close to loosing ourselves. Thrust. By agonizing thrust. And then, we fell. Both of us at the same time fell into a Bolivian of extacy.

She shook in my arms and I groaned loudly as I came. She pulled herself up and kissed me hard on the lips. I kissed her back and I pulled myself out of her collapsing beside her. I didn't want to crush her with my full weight.

She looked at me and smiled. I smiled back and brushed her curls out of her face. That was the very first time I had ever made love. It was hers too, by how I had to break her border to enter. But that was okay. We both now are together, and we just shared a part of ourselves with each other.

It seemed peculiar to me. Whenever I was with Lily, it seemed Bella didn't exist, but with Bella, Lily didn't exist. Would this mean that if I wanted Bella out of my mind and heart I would have to banish her from my society? My life? Lily was all I needed, and with her, all I wanted. But when I was with Bella Lily was the inevitable.

I found the answer. I didn't know the specifics of why this was the way it was. But I would tell Carlisle and perhaps her would finish it. Give me the rest of my answers. Then I could hopefully go on and live the life that I have always dreamed of living.

"What are you thinking about?" she asked me, brushing her finger tips over my lips, across my chest, over my sculpted abs and arms.

"You." And it wasn't even a lie. I was thinking about her. Just not all I was thinking was about her. But she didn't need to know that.

"I love you." she breathed before closing her eyes. She was fast asleep before I uttered, "I love you too." She fell asleep that night in my arms. I soon fell asleep after dreaming of her. Of the first time we met. She had been sitting by that tree reading that ridiculously large book. I had walked up and scared her practically to death.

The first time we went out. She had worn that skimpy little dress that showed off her long legs. And I had gotten a boner. That would be a story I would never forget.

When I woke up the next morning, It was too Billy and Charlie yelling. They were in the room and I was still laying on the bed naked. The blanket was gone and Lily was gone. I jumped up and out of bed and Charlie's eyes widened as he looked at me.

"Where is Lily!" I bellowed.

"She is in the shower. What the hell did you two do last night?" Billy yelled.

"None of your damn business!" I yelled right back.

"Watch your mouth Jacob." Charlie said.

"Why are you here?" I said aggravated.

"I came here to drop Billy off. And we found you two in your bed naked!"

I just stared at the floor. This was mildly embarrassing and I was naked. I walked over to my dresser and pulled on a pair of sweats. I opened the bedroom door and walked out.

"Where do you think your going?" Charlie said.

"Your not my father." I mocked.

"But I am Jacob. And you will do as I say. Just come back here and we can all work this out. Okay?" He said. I turned and looked at him.

He winked at me without Charlie noticing. It suddenly hit me that he was on my side. He knew how I felt about Lily but Charlie didn't. The only reason he was acting this way was for Charlie's sake. Because of the hole law enforcement thing. I ran my hand through my hair and said, "Fine."

"Alright. I'll take care of him Charlie. You can go home and give my love to Bella alright?" He said.

"Yeah sure. I've seen too much today already." He shuffled to the door and left. I looked at him and he smiled.

"Thats my boy." He said. I walked over to him and he patted me hard on the back. "So how did it go?" he asked. I couldn't believe he was asking about my private life!

"Dad, I don't really feel comfortable telling you this." I said.

"Okay." he grumbled. "But I was a kid once too, and man, me and or mom..."

"Dad! I yelled.

"Sorry. I forgot you don't like talking about personal stuff." he mocked.

Just as he finished his sentence, Lily came out of the bathroom. Her hair was wet and she smiled at me and Billy. I went over and hugged her. For now, she was mine, and I was hers, and nothing would ever change that.