What up? Lol. Okay well not to freak anyone out or anything but this chapter is in Bella's point of view. I think I need to split it now. Just to see what she's going through with the wedding plans and what is happening to her and Jacob. Do not worry, nothing horrific is going to happen. :

well just read and enjoy. And please, please, REVIEW!!! AHHH!!!! lol.

Goldilox07

p.s. All characters and books belong to Stephenie Meyer.

Chapter 8

Bella's POV

Everything was just going to hell. In my mind at least. What was going on with everyone? Jacob comes back, I'm all stressed out it the wedding and he is making it worse! Not to mention the Cullens. Alice is bothering me again with wanting to go shopping and I just can't take any of this anymore!

"Ugh!" I screamed hitting the side of the door while Edward was driving me home late one night.

"What's the matter!?" he asked startled. He looked at me, his brows furrowed with concern.

"Nothing." I mumbled. He immediately knew I was lying and pulled the car over to the side of the road.

He unbuckled my seat belt and pulled me onto his lap. He put his hand on my cheek and caressed my skin gently. His touch made me always calm down. Even in my murderous crazes. Now in this point of my life was when I need him most. The hectic part of one's life when they get married, and from what I've heard, some people's lives go to hell, completely. I just hope that mine doesn't. But with Edward here, I don't think thats a possibility

I snuggled more into his chest. His sent was filling my nostrils and I breathed him in deeply. He just smelled amazing! And it wasn't even cologne or anything. It was a natural scent. Not of the woods like Jacob. But of something else. Something more potent and delicious. Just then, an absurd thought went into my mind and I let my head drift to the base of his throat. I pressed my lips to his neck and he breathed in very abruptly. Then I slowly grazed my tongue along his cold stone like skin. Just as I had thought, he tasted exactly how he smelled. I smiled to myself.

I began to stroke my tongue along his neck tracing it up to his ear and along his jaw line but before I got to his mouth he pushed me back. I looked at him quizzically, but his eyes were closed.

"Bella." he said so softly I could barely hear him. "I thought you wanted to wait?" he still had his eyes closed.

I reached up and put my palm to his face. He leaned into it and he opened his eyes, breathing in the scent of my hand. "I do. But sometimes, I..." I couldn't finish the thought, because frankly, I didn't even have a thought that would justify to what I wanted.

"You want to wait because of the traditional sense. But you can barely stand the thought of it when we are together. So you feel like ripping our clothes off, but know that it is better to wait." he said for me. My mouth fell open as I stared at him. Then I lifted my head up and down just a little bit because something seemed to be stuck in my throat and I couldn't say 'yes'.

He turned his face and kissed my palm. I closed my eyes and my breathing was very shallow.

"How about we make a deal?" he said. My eyes flung open.

"What kind of deal?" I asked.

"We both want it. Tormentingly so. I propose that we make a deal to not go farther than kissing until the wedding night. I know for a fact that if we wait, our frustrations will get the better of us both. For this I am certain. Wouldn't you like to see what a sexually frustrated vampire looks like?" he asked me.

I smiled. "So what your saying, is that if we wait, we will both fall more deeply in love and it will be cherished more if we do wait?" I asked.

"More or so, yes." he said. I smiled at the thought. It is going to be funny torture him. I could walk up to him and grab his butt and then look at him sexily from across the room. Oh! I can just see his face now.

I must have been in my own little dream world for a bit because he was shaking me to get me back to reality.

"Bella?" he said. "What are you thinking about that has got you so transfixed?" he asked.

"Nothing..." I said with a sly smile. He grabbed my neck and pulled me to him and kissed me not quite as hard as I would have liked but not nearly as careful as usual. I moaned quietly as he traced my teeth with his tongue. I put my hands on his shoulders and ran them down his chest. Then across his pants feeling the bulge that was oh so noticeable.

He broke the kiss at once. "Bella. I thought we just discussed no-" I silenced him with another kiss.

"And we did promise no sex. But we never said anything about touching out side of our clothes. Let the games and the torturous fun begin Mr. Cullen." I smiled and moved off of his lap into the passenger seat.

He blinked at me and then smiled his beautiful crooked smile at me.

"Alright then the future Mrs. Cullen. Indeed, let the games begin." he said.

"You forgot the torturous fun." I reminded him. He laughed and started the Volvo and prosed ed to take me back to Charlie's.

When we arrived back at my dad's house, Charlie was in the kitchen talking to someone on the phone. Edward and I walked in and sat down at the table with him. He waved at us but didn't break his conversation with the person he was talking to.

"Alright. Sounds good." he stopped for a second. "Okay well Bella is here now so I got to go. Yeah you too Billy. See you later." he hung up the phone and cleared his throat.

"What's going on dad?" I asked. He usually didn't act his way. Especially not after talking to Billy.

"Oh not much. Billy and I were just talking about the game thats coming up on Thursday." I knew he was leaving something out. I looked at Edward but he wasn't looking at me. He was staring at the table and his eyes were shut. Charlie walked over to the living room and turned on the tv.

I stared at Edward and my eyes narrowed.

"Don't ask me." He suddenly said. "You don't want to think about what happened. Believe me Bella. It would mentally and probably physically torment you for the a long time."

My eyes widened at this. "What?!" I whispered so Charlie wouldn't hear me. "What the hell happened that I can't know about? Is it about Jacob?" Edward nodded his head, yet he still wouldn't look at me.

"Edward, you know me. I will jump to conclusions. You know I always do. Tell me. Now." I demanded.

He looked at me then. "You really want me to tell you? Even though it will tear you to pieces?" He asked. I nodded, just wanting him to tell me.

He exhaled and then began. "When Charlie took Billy back late last night they found Jacob...naked in his bed." he said.

I snorted. "So?" I laughed.

"Bella, he...he, was...with someone." He said even quieter.

"What?"

"Charlie and Billy found Jacob and Lily together..." He drifted off knowing that I knew exactly what he meant. My mouth dropped and I suddenly felt my stomach turn. I stood up abruptly and walked away from the table. No! No! No! Why did he do this? Why did he sleep with Lily when...when. But suddenly I stopped and sank down onto the floor. Edward came and picked me up. Why was I even jealous. Or why did I even care about what Jacob did with his imprint. It wasn't like I had the same feelings for him that I have for Edward. But Jacob was my best friend. Why didn't he tell me about it...well, not the sex in general. But that he was at the point with Lily that he would do that?

I needed to know, and even after he still confessed that he loves me! I don't want to keep him as my Jacob. But just the thought of him once sort of being 'my Jacob' and him moving on, just tears at my heart. The piece of my heart the longs for Jacob as more than a friend. I will always love Jacob. And I knew from the moment that I heard from Charlie that he had left that he would eventually find his imprint. I thought I had excepted it. Thought I had let him go. I thought I had given the girl who would be his imprint my permission. I always felt that since Jacob was my closed friend that the girl who would be taking him away from me would damn right need my permission. And now I can't give it. I can't even scope out the girl. Not that I need to. She must be his match. His complete match in every single way that I am not.

Which thats the way for me and Edward. Two peas in a pod. Sort of speak. But this...I will defiantly have to have a talk to him about. Grumbling I leaned in to Edward. He put his arms around me as my final tears sank into his shirt. I sniffed them away and looked at him.

"You need to see him?" he asked.

"Yes. And I'm going to have a long talk with that boy." I grumbled. He chuckled and hugged me again and let me go so I could go tell Charlie.

"Uh, Dad? I'm going to go down to La push and see Jacob." He turned off the tv and stood quite fast. Almost losing his balance.

"Wait just a darn moment." he said. His tone surprised me. "Now you weren't invited young lady. I suggest you go right back in that kitchen and call him to make sure it's okay that your coming." he said pointing to the kitchen phone.

Lie. "Yeah I already did dad. He said it was fine. Can I go now?"

He pulled his shirt out from his beer belly (not really) and burped. "Yeah I suppose. As long as he said it was fine."

"Okay. I don't know when I'll be back. Probably late." I grabbed my jacket and my keys. Me and Edward headed out the door. When I got to the Volvo he finally asked.

"Lying?" he clucked his tongue at me. "I am surprised at you." he teased.

"Shush." but he was still smiling.

We got in the car and Edward and I made our way towards La push.

When I arrived at the Blacks' residence, the car wasn't there, but that could mean little knowing Jacob. He doesn't drive.

Edward had dropped me off at the line. He had argued with me for forever about it not being safe. But I reassured him it was not that far from the Blacks'. He handed me his cell and told me to call me if anything weird happens, and when I would need to be picked up. I kissed him good bye and he waited in his car. I could feel his stare on my back. About a quarter of a mile down the road I could still barely see the car and I waved for him to go. And he slowly pulled away.

Edward can be such a pessimist sometimes. And a worry wart. Yeah I may be a 'danger magnet' as he so put it. But Victoria is now gone. The only thing remotely dangerous besides him are the werewolves, and they are sworn to protect humans. Not to kill them.

I looked up at the porch and sucked in a ragged breath. This was not going to be pretty. I could already tell. I walked up the steps and knocked softly on the door.

Jacob came to the door in nothing but his black sweats, as usual. He smiled a huge grin at finding me at the door. I smiled too, but it was hard to, I felt that it didn't reach my eyes the way I had wanted it too.

"Bella!" he said. When he came out to give me a huge hug, I saw Lily in the background. She had a small smile on her face. I didn't know if it was supposed to be a warning or a welcome sign. I hugged Jacob back and inhaled his musky scent.

"Jacob." I said when he let go of me.

"Come in please. There's someone-"

"I'm Lily" she said reaching out her hand to shake mine. I offered it and we did. But then she pulled me into a crushing hug. "I've heard so much about you." she said in my ear. I tried to smile but all I could muster was a smirk of embarrassment.

She let go of me and smiled. Then Jacob closed the door and led me to the living room. It was quite small, but what do you expect from a house the size of a 4 car garage. I sat down on a chair and Jacob sat on the couch with Lily by his side.

"Jacob, we need to talk." I blurted out. Then my eyes shifted to Lily. "Perhaps alone would be best." I said.

"Bella, you can say anything in front of her. She's my imprint. We hide nothing." Jacob said.

I looked down. "That may be true Jacob, but this is a private matter between you and I. I would really just like to talk to you alone. Perhaps we can take a walk?" I asked.

Jacob looked over to Lily. "Yeah." she said. "Jacob needs to get out anyways." He looked at her funny. "Don't give me that look!" she pushed him up off the couch. "Go on!" she said.

I smiled at her. She was letting me talk to him. I was beginning to like Lily. "Thanks." I told her.

"Awe. Don't mention it. I need some space myself." Then it looked like a peculiar thought registered into her mind. "Perhaps we could have a girls night out? I've been wanting to meet the other Cullen girls for forever. And we certainly need to catch up on things." she offered.

"Lily, I don't want-" Jacob started but I interrupted.

"That sounds great. We'll have to schedule a time." I looked at Jacob and he was scowling at me. I smiled, and winked. I looked over to Lily and smiled.

"I'll most certainly have to talk to Esme to have a girls night out over there. It won't be a problem. Unless Jacob...?" I asked.

"He doesn't." Lily offered. "I want this. He wants what I want right?" She asked him. He nodded.

I pulled her into a hug and whispered into her ear. "You have him whipped don't you?" I asked.

She laughed. "Yes. I do." We laughed together for a time and then a very aggravated Jacob pulled me towards the door and I waved my good bye's to Lily. I really am starting to like her.

A while later, and about a mile down First beach, Jacob and I were sitting on our tree. I had my hand in his and I savored the memory of us walking together just like this. Best friends, and we always will be. I remember when it could have looked as though we were a couple. Holding hands walking up and down the beach talking to each other. But thats not how it was for us. We were best friends. I hope that we still are. Despite his imprint.

"Jacob, what happened?" I asked. "Why did you come to me and confess yourself and then go to Lily and..." I trailed off.

He looked at me. "Bella. It's complicated. Or at least it was." He said.

"What do you mean, it was?" I asked.

He didn't speak.

"Jacob, do you still love me? I mean in...that...way?"

He looked into my eyes and I in his. "No, Bella. I don't."