Hey, today has been pretty good. I'm going to watch Tristan and Isolde tonight. That should be fun. I went to my dad's last night, and watched The Brave one. It was awesome. Jodie Foster kicked ass!!! lol.

Well, just to let you know, this chapter is mostly going to be in Edward's and Bella's POV. Sorry if u were wanting to see what happens to Lily and Jacob because of the last chapter. But it is time to see what Edward and Bella are up to. Well, here it goes. REVIEW! If you don't, i will get vedy angry!!! :o. lol. You know the drill. If i don't get reviews...ill assume that no one likes this story. I know im being a bit of a butthole. But deal with it people.

Goldilox07

nothing belongs to me.

Chapter 14

Bella's POV

After Jacob and Lily left, Edward and I went up to our room. He and I layed on our huge bed in the middle of the room. I looked over to the frame and noticed the missing metal flower where he had broken it off. I smiled, that seemed like such a long time ago. A frightful time, where nothing and no one was safe. But now, Victoria is dead, all thanks to Edward. Now, life is as it should be, almost.

I looked up at Edward and he was already staring at me. He smiled and his teeth gleamed in the light. They were so perfect. Perfectly straight, and as white as anybody could hope to have their teeth. Not even a million dollar actress could have whiter teeth. I hope I turn out like that.

I could just about smell it, well not literally. But my chance at becoming a vampire is just around the corner. A few inches away from my grasp. And when my fingers touch it, it will be mine forever. And Edward will be mine forever!

I closed my eyes and envisioned what it will be like as a vampire. Me and Edward will be the perfect couple. With my transformation, I will be as beautiful as him, hopefully. And I'll be completely indestructible, which is one of the many important reasons why I want to be a vampire. Along with the whole immortal part. But being indestructible, Edward can't hurt me. He can throw me through a wall and it won't hurt me. And we can finally be together like I've been dreaming of.

Being a vampire will be the second greatest thing for me than being in heaven, with Edward of course. The only bad thing about it is, that blood lust. I don't want to be a monster, I would prefer if I didn't have to drink blood at all. Just thinking about it is revolting to me. I scrunched my nose at the memory.

"What are you thinking about to make you make that face?" Edward said chuckling. I smiled and he bent his head down to kiss my hair.

"I'm just thinking about what it will be like when I'm finally like you. And about the...blood. I was thinking how revolting it is and it triggered a memory of Mike Newton and me telling him to keep his hand in his pocket. You remember?"

"Yes. I remember." He said. "It is weird that you think blood is revolting."

"Yeah. Because I'm not the one a vampire, you are." I said. He laughed.

"Don't worry love. I'll keep you safe when you are turned." he said.

"I hope so." I breathed out a sigh and then remembered something. "Hey, didn't you say we were going to the meadow today? You promised me." I wined, just a little.

"Yes I did promise. When do you want to leave?" He asked.

"Can I get ready and then we leave?" I asked. He nodded and I hopped up. He watched me as I went to the bathroom grabbing clean clothes with me. I washed my face, I wasn't really dirty, just a little blah. If that even makes sense.

I brushed my hair, brushed my teeth, and pulled on my clothes making sure to wear tennis shoes. I looked at myself in the mirror. So this is who I am. A vulnerable little human. Who at any moment be dead by my soul mate. Why do I have to be so damn breakable!?

Would it really hurt if I just said to Edward, "I can't wait anymore." And tear off my shirt right in front of him? Would he do it? Would he take me if I asked him? Should I bring some extra things to the meadow or wait?

"Ugh!" I yelled slamming my fist down unto the counter top. Why can't I ever make a damn decision?

"What's wrong?" Edward said at the door. Not even bothering to open the door. Did he think I was naked or something? I pushed open the door and looked at him fuming. He stepped back wide-eyed.

"Did I do something?" he asked innocently.

"No! It's me!" I screamed. "Edward?" I asked, curiosity bursting from my pores. "Why didn't you open the door to see if I was alright? You always just hide behind the door. I want to know why." I said.

"What has gotten in to you?" he asked.

"Just answer the damn question." I said closing my eyes. I heard him exhale quietly.

"Can I not answer?" he offered. I grumbled. "Alright." he said. I still had my eyes closed. "Would you at least look at me while I say this?" he asked. My eyes shot open and he was right there. Standing not a foot away from me.

"Now tell me." I demanded walking back just a little so I could look at him without feeling claustrophobic.

"Bella, the reason I didn't just burst open the door was because, in case you haven't noticed, I was brought up to be a gentleman. And if you were, naked, or something...it just wouldn't have been gentlemanly." he said.

I put my hands on my hips and glared at him. "So if I just tore my shirt off right now, in front of you, what would you do?" I asked.

He took a step forward. "I would have to restrain you." he whispered. "Because I know that this is not what your heart wants. Not now at least. Remember our conversation in the car? You said that you want to make it memorable. That we should wait until the wedding. But to have me take you when your still human. Did you, or did you not say that?" he countered.

Shivers rocked down my spine when he talked about taking me. I can just taste it. I thought. "Yes I did say that. But, what if I changed my mind? What if I threw myself at you right now, stripping as I went? What would you do?" I asked.

He smiled, it wasn't a friendly smile, but a smile that promised pleasure, and pain. A smile that could chill anyone right down the the center of their bones. He was looking at me from under his eye lashes, obviously trying to dazzle me. And god...his smile. It was my favorite crooked one.

"If you had jumped on me, stripping as you go, I wouldn't be able to do anything but oblige." he said darkly. It was barely above a whisper but he put everything that was a vampire voice into it. Dark, and sexy, and...orgasmic.

He laughed at my reaction and I lightly hit him. "You know it isn't exactly fair when you dazzle me like that." I said instantly moving on to other things. I would save more of the conversation for a later time. "Can we go now?" I asked.

He pulled me to him and kissed me passionately. Not as hard as I want him to kiss me, but it was close. I touched my tongue to his but the only response I got was him stiffening and pulling away.

He looked at me and clacked his tongue at me. "Your cheating love." he said.

"Was not! I was just making it harder for you." I said. Then I pushed past him and walked out the door. I could here him following me and we walked down the stairs.

"We're going." Edward called.

"Okay." Esme said from the couch. Her, Rosalie, and Emmett were watching the news. Jasper and Alice were nowhere to be seen and Carlisle was most likely in his study. I walked out the door and the sun made Edward's skin sparkle like a diamond sending rays of rainbows every which way. He walked up to me and laced his fingers in with mine.

We hopped in the Volvo and made our way to the trail line. Everything was as it should be and I was very thankful for that. No more visiting vampires, or at least none that Alice could see. No more fights between the wolves and the vamps. That was the main reason I am glad. Bloodthirsty vampires I can deal with. But my two family's fighting? Never.

Jacob was so happy. He finally has found his imprint and I'm so glad for him. For one, he doesn't feel compelled to love me anymore than just friends. And he can now love someone that loves him back. And for all the right reasons! I love Jacob, more than I should. But it will never be the same as it is for Edward. Not even close. And I'm outstandingly grateful that he can love someone the way someone is supposed to love someone else. The everlasting feeling that they love you as much or even more as you love them. The undying bond. I hope he has that with Lily.

Edward and I, well, we have one of the most unique bonds. Of course he is a predator and I'm supposed to be his pray. That is what makes us so special. That he has the will power and the strength to give all that up for me. To give up his pleasures and what he is initially supposed to eat or drink. Humans.

The thought made me shiver. How could he think that blood tastes good? Ugh! All that salty, nasty, rusty, metallic smell! I shook my head in an absolutely pessimistic way. Edward looked at me just as I shook my head and he got a really obtuse look on his face.

"What?" he asked.

"Nothing." I said. "Are we almost there yet?" I asked.

His eyes narrowed. "I thought you didn't want me excelling the speed limit?"

"Not when we don't have much time left until the sun sets. I don't want to go back home right away. I haven't spent much time alone with you for a long time. I want to savor it." I complained.

He nodded. His eyebrows furrowed and it looked like he was concentrating on something really hard. I didn't ask, for it would just bring up another set of conversations that I didn't want to get into. I didn't want to talk. Just wanted to get to our meadow, as fast as I can. I want to touch him, graze my fingers along his scalp and through his hair. To his his luscious lips. To taste his sweet taste in my mouth.

I smirked. Thats when he pulled the car over to the side of the road. He turned off the car and got out, I followed. He came up to me and without a word grabbed me hard and pushed me up against the car. He crushed his mouth to mine and ran his hands down my sides to my butt. He actually grabbed it! His squeeze didn't hurt but gave me exquisite pleasure. I moaned into his mouth and he slid his tongue into my mouth. He did it! Perplexed with our now broken boundary lines, I slid my tongue into his as well. I was fighting him in a battle that I knew he would win. But I wanted to try it anyways.

He pulled me closer and slid his tongue deeper still. I couldn't breath around it. He plunged it in, and out. It felt like he was literally making love to my mouth. I didn't know he knew so much about kissing! This was even new for me! I ran my hands down his shoulders onto his chest and farther still. Until I got to the bulge in his pants. It was growing exceedingly large in his jeans. I ran my fingertips over it and he groaned loudly making a rumbling sound deep in his throat. The kind of sound I would expect to come from Jacob. But Edward made it louder, and more sexy.

I smiled under his kiss and he moved his mouth from mine to kiss my neck and to let me breath. I whimpered with pleasure and he grazed his tongue along my skin from behind my ear down to my collar bone. I ran my fingers through his hair just like I had wanted to and pulled him to me.

He stopped kissing me and just hugged me for awhile. We both were short of breath and puffing in air fast. Not that he needed to. But I think he wanted to make it more realistic, for me. I squeezed him to me as tight as my arms could hold him. He buried his face into my shoulder and kissed me again. Then all of the sudden he was gone. I looked around hurt for a second and then he was in front of me again and pulling me on his back.

I wrapped my legs around his waist and he took off into a sprint in the forest. The trees were passing us so fast they were just a blur. He was breathing slowly and shallowly. I bent my head down and kissed his shoulder and then his neck and then his cheek. I could see him smile and so did I.

"You are mine Edward. Mine." I whispered into his ear. "The moment we kiss on the alter I am dragging you out of there and keeping you in our bed, for days. Do you hear me?"

I heard a rumble of laughter build up inside him but he didn't let it out. Just smiled. I knew it and he knew it as well. I was being completely and one hundred percent serious.

Suddenly he broke through the trees and into the meadow. I jumped off of his back and stood back to look at his profile. He stood there and looked down at the ground. I thought he had closed his eyes and was praying for a second. Then all of the sudden he pulled off his shirt by reaching behind his neck and pulling it over his head.

His muscles rippled as he did it then and then he turned to me. My eyes were wide and he smiled. Then he stood to me and started unbuckling his belt. A knot rose in my throat and a screech came out. He threw his head back and laughed. Then his pants sank to the ground. He walked to me in nothing but boxers and played at the hem of my shirt.

"I thought we were waiting." I said nervously.

"We are." he said. "I just thought you'd like to go swimming with me." he said pointing to the stream that had gained water the last time I had seen it. I had never noticed that you could swim in it before now.

"Alright." I said. I pulled my shirt above my head and was in my thirty dollar bra from Victoria's secret. I didn't really care if I ruined it. Alice would buy me a million bras before she was half way satisfied. Then I zipped down the zipper of my jeans and tugged them off with my shoes and socks. Edward had already gotten his socks and shoes off.

I stood in front of him with nothing on but my black bra and black boy shorts to match. On the butt of them there was an apple with a bite mark taken out of it that said "Bite me" on it. Edward laughed and squeezed it. I yelped out. He was getting more comfortable all the time.

He picked me up and threw me over his shoulder and carried me to the stream and gently he walked into it and placed me down. The water wasn't too cold. But I would have preferred it a little warmer. I ran through the stream, it was waist deep, until I hit an uneven spot and fell. I couldn't touch the bottom. Edward smiled and joined me.

I swam away from him trying to play tag. But he was faster, he caught me in his arms and I screamed lightly when he grabbed me. Then I started laughing uncontrollably. He shushed me with a kiss and I kissed him back. He wrapped his arms around me and deepened the kiss. He rubbed my arm with his hand slowly and traced my skin with the pad of his thumb. Then my bra strap slipped off my shoulder and he froze.

I looked at him and he had closed his eyes. He reached for my strap and tried pulling it back up onto my shoulder but I stopped him. "No Edward. Let it go. It's alright." But he still tried to pull it back up. I pushed his hands away and pulled the other one down.

"Bella." he warned. I shushed him with a kiss. This was going to happen. We don't have to have sex. But this was going to happen. I pulled his hands behind my back and helped him unclasp my bra. He hesitated at first but then complied. My bra came off and Edward grabbed it to throw it onto the bank of the river. Then he closed his eyes. Not wanting to look. It hurt me for a while but then I understood that this was hard for him.

"You can look Edward." I soothed. He slowly opened his eyes and looked at me. He exhaled deeply and dragged in a ragged breath. Slowly, agonizingly slowly, he pulled his hands up to lightly caress my breasts. I closed my eyes as I felt him feel me. God. I thought. This was absolute heaven. He rubbed the pads of his thumbs lightly over my nipples and they instantly peaked hard from his touch.

He pulled me close and hugged. I kissed him and we started a battle of the tongues again. This was by far the best day of my life. Sharing this with Edward. It wasn't the full enchilada, but it was a sneak peak. And it would make it extremely harder now. For the both of us. If we could do this, it's no telling what we can or can't do now.

After about a couple of hours of swimming and exploring each other, well him exploring me more than me to him, we hopped out and got dressed again. It would be sun down soon and Edward wanted to get back home. It was sad to leave this place, our best moments have happened here. Our first time with each other, where he demonstrated what he was to me. And now. But if you forget the Laurent part, and the 'me coming back for an answer' part, everything is perfect.

We got back just as the sun was setting and when we came through the door. Alice rushed up to me and tugged at my arm so hard I thought it had dislocated. Edward growled at her and she shot him an apologetic glance.

"I have to talk to you! Now!" she said. I looked to Edward and he smiled. I kissed him gently and went off with Alice. She raced me up the stairs and into her room. Jasper wasn't there. She sat me on the bed and started pacing in the room.

"Alice. What is it?!" I asked. Her jumpiness was making me jumpy.

"I can't believe it happened!" she screamed.

"What happened?" I asked.

She came and sat down next to me. "Promise not to tell." she said.

"Promise." I said.

"Okay. You know that Lily and Jacob...?" she trailed off.

"Yeah I know." I said knowing exactly what she meant.

"Well, the thing is...Lily is pregnant." she said.

My eyes went wide. "What?!" I almost shouted.

"Yeah she's pregnant!" Alice yelled. Maybe a little to loud for my tastes.

"Did you see a vision?" I asked. She nodded.

"Yeah and that would explain why when she was so worked up about leaving Jacob that she just threw up for no reason." she said.

"You saw that?" I asked.

"Yeah. And I saw something else too. Jacob knows about it already." she said.

"Well, what is it?"

"When Lily hit the rock and Carlisle fixed her up. She immediately started healing. When Jacob went to see her and tried to fix the patch he noticed that she was completely healed." she said.

"How is that possible." I said.

"I don't know. I talked to Carlisle about it. He said that it is possible that because she is pregnant, there is a little...werewolf...growing inside of her which gives her the ability to heal faster."

I stared at her totally flabbergasted. Lily was pregnant. And the little baby werewolf made her have super natural powers.

"Is she aging?" I asked. Alice gave me an odd look. "Alice! Is she aging?" I asked again.

"What do you mean?" she asked.

"Don't you know that the werewolves don't age until the develop the control to stop changing?" I asked. She shook her head. "Yeah well, they don't. And I was wondering if Lily were aging."

Alice closed her eyes and went very still. A few minutes later she opened them up and shook her head. "Lily isn't aging. She won't start again until the baby is born." she said quietly. Alice knew me with my subject on time and aging.

I stood and started pacing. "This. Is. So. Not. Fair!!!" I screamed. Thats when Edward bust through the door. "Get out!" I screamed.

"What's going on?" he asked.

"Everyone isn't aging! I'm the only one who is getting old!!!" I screamed punching the wall in frustration.

"Calm down." he said quietly taking my hands in his and drawing circles with his thumbs in the back of my hand to calm me down.

"When did she get pregnant?" I asked. It wasn't any use hiding things from Edward. He would pick at Alice's brain anyways.

"The first time they made love." she said. That was over a week ago. She has been pregnant for...Oh!

"Alice!" I screamed. "She drank that whole bottle of Vodka when she was pregnant!" I said.

"Don't worry Bella." Edward said. "It won't hurt the baby. Because Lily now has intense body heat like Jacob, she burned it off so quickly that it didn't have time to hurt the baby."

"Well then why did she get so drunk?" I asked. He shrugged.

"She's still human." he said.

I shook my head. "Amazing. Do they know?" I asked.

"Not yet." Alice said.

What would happen when she did find out. Would she ever find out? "Alice? Shouldn't we tell her?" I asked.

"I don't think we should tell her. But perhaps make hints to take tests?" She offered.

"Alright." I said. Lily would be absolutely ecstatic. I can see it now. And Jacob, god, he will absolutely die with happiness. I looked up at Edward and he smiled at me. I kissed him lightly and then frowned just a little.

I wish I could have a baby. I thought.