What is up my people? I am so sorry that this chapter took so long to put up!!! I can't exactly write with people around...and people have been around. Sorry! Wow today was hectic. I talked to this chick for like an hour about my ex. She was the most recent person to go out with him. It was great, and depressing at the same time. I got a mountain dew and I'm about to finish if off. Yeah...anyways, this chapter is going to be...hmm...well it has a lemon in it. So watch out. If you don't like that stuffs, get over it. I am typing it now as we speak. Anyways, enjoy the chapter and please REVIEW!! you know what happens if you don't. Alright...here we go!! lol.

Goldilox07

nothing belongs to me.

Chapter 15

Lily's POV

We were in the car and on our way to wherever Jacob was taking us. I felt a little bit awkward wearing fish net stockings with such a short dress on. Jacob wouldn't keep his eyes off of me. It was kinda starting to bug me. Just skimming my skin like a nervous mouse to a vicious cat about to pounce.

Not only was he staring at me, but he would frequently make weird noises in the back of his throat. Like a predatory noise. It was sort of turning me on.

He pulled up to a narrow road that had trees lined in perfect lines next to it. You could see nothing for miles but trees and the little road. It was so beautiful, birds were chirping and the sun was out today. So the forest was lit a little. I smiled, it was going to be a good day.

"I love you." Jacob suddenly broke into the silence. I looked at him and he was looking at me, his a deep haven of brown. I leaned over the seat and kissed the corner of his mouth lightly.

"I love you too." I said.

He blew out a gusty sigh just as we approached a dead end. I looked to him, confused and my eye brows were furrowed. He reached into the back and pulled out a picnic basket and a large blanket. He got out and I sat in the car confused. He rounded around the car and opened my door. I sat in there looking up at him and he offered his hand.

I starred at it for a moment and then he dropped the basket and pulled me out of the car. He crushed his lips to mine and I was shocked at first. He held me in his arms and I wrapped my arms around his neck, pulling him closer. He kicked the door closed and, without breaking the kiss, picked up the basket and blanket and ran into the forest.

Even while running he didn't cease kissing me. His lips moved, slowly, agonizingly slowly. I was dying from not getting what I wanted, what I needed. I needed his tongue in my mouth. I needed the soft caress of his mouth on my skin. I needed him inside of me, and every moment we were waisting was another moment filled with pure agony, the purest.

He ran until we reached a small pasture, trees surrounded it, but the grass was tall and green. To the touch, it was cool and buttery soft. And the tree tops were so thick with leaves and brush that you could not see the sky. But just the faintest rays of light came through, giving the pasture a darkly romantic look.

He spread out the blanket and set me on it. He then grabbed the basket. I moaned and shuffled away from him, getting up and pacing a few feet away then turning back towards him. He was looking at me with a confused expression on his face. A bowl of grapes in his hands. I shook my head at him.

"Food later." I said. "Pleasure, now." I demanded. He put the bowl back into the basket and tossed it aside. He splayed his legs out on the blanket and leaned back on his arms waiting for me to come to him. He motioned his hand for me to come. I shook my head. I was going to have my way. Or the highway.

I looked to my left shoulder and slid the strap down, it hung off my shoulder. I heard him take a tight intake of breath and shakily exhaled. I looked at him from under my eye lashes and rose one side of my lips into a half smile. I loved the way I had an impact on him.

I looked to the other shoulder and moved it off as well. Then I reached behind me, ever so slowly and undid the zipper. Slowly, I slid it down until the dress was so loose, it just tumbled to the forest floor. I stepped out of it and picked it up throwing it at him. His face was so stunned that he didn't even notice that I had thrown it at him. I laughed when it hit his face.

I stood before him, legs spread a little farther than shoulder length and put my hands on my hips. His mouth was ajar and his eyes blinked, once. I smiled, my lips together, and started circling him. I walked smoothly, trying not to trip in the four inch heels.

"Do you want me?" I asked when he couldn't see me. I heard him rumble in his chest. A totally predatory, animal sound. He nodded his head forcefully.

"How much?" I asked. He looked at me then, when I came to stand before him again. His eyes told me exactly how much he wanted me. Not just in the physical ways, but in other ways. He not only wanted me in his bed, but outside of it too. He loved me, truly. And his gaze that was fixed, not on my body, but my eyes. It told me everything. How much he loved me, how much he wanted me, and how much he would sacrifice for me.

I reached for my heel's strap and undid it, stepping down four inches and throwing the shoe aside. Then I did the same with the other one. I pulled at the ribbon in the front of my corset and started undoing it. Not pulling it off, I kept it on and undid the clasps that connected my fish nets to my panties. I pulled off the stockings and through them aside.

Then I walked up to him. His body stiffened and I got down on my hands and knees and climbed up on him. I straddled his waist by putting one knee on each side of his hips. I pulled up his hands and helped him to undo the straps that were keeping my corset in place. He flung the straps and buckles loose and took the uncomfortable thing off. He through it over his head and starred down at my nakedness. He grasped me softly and I whimpered to his touch. He kissed me softly and I opened my mouth to his tongue. It slid into mine slowly and caressed my tongue. We kissed each other passionately for several minutes and then he slowly layed me down onto the blanket.

Goosebumps covered every inch of my skin as he pulled off his clothes and climbed on top of me. He pushed into me and I shook with the tension that gripped in my muscles. He shushed me with a kiss and he thrust into me. Slowly at first, then he began to pick up pace. More urgent kisses. He grabbed my breasts roughly, possessively. It made me moan loudly and he smiled. I pressed my fingers hard into his back as I came. He took a bit longer than I had to come but he did. But he kept going. A few more thrusts and I came again. This time, it was so forceful that I blacked out for a few seconds. I nearly shouted to the heavens.

He came a second time and through his head back. Then he collapsed beside me and I rolled on top of him, not yet ready for another round. I put my head on his chest and he was breathing very fast. I kissed his chest and he wrapped his arms around me. I shivered and he wrapped me tighter. Was it getting colder or was it just me.

Jacob sucked in a ragged breath and blew it out. He tilted up my chin and smiled at me. I smiled back and he kissed me. It was so soft, and sweet. His lips molded into mine perfectly. Every curve and crevice of our bodies meshed together perfectly. He was my soul mate. My other half. Then he exhaled abruptly and let the kiss go.

"We have to go. A storm is coming." he said.

"How do you know?" I asked him.

"I can smell it." I looked at him oddly but didn't push it further. I slowly got up. Still sore in places I didn't even know I had before, and got up to put back on my clothes. But he stopped me and handed me a new pair of clothes. Sweats and a t shirt.

"What's this?" I asked.

"I knew you wouldn't want to come back in high heels and a dress. So I brought you clothes. Your slippers are in the car." He said. I smiled as I put on the sweats. Then the t shirt.

"Thank you Jacob." I said. He grabbed me in his arms and smiled.

"You never have to thank me. It is my job to take care of you. You and I are as good as married." he said. My eyes widened. Did he actually just say that? Did he actually want to marry me?

"What?" I croaked. He then proved my suspicions right. He slid down on one knee and took my hands in one of his. Then he reached into his pocket, without taking his eyes off of me. And he pulled out a diamond ring. I gasped, it was huge! I have no idea how many karates but it must be a lot!

"Lily, you are the one I want, the one I love. You are the reason I live. I have a fire, and it burns deep down inside of me. It never burned until I found you. The fire in me, burns for you. Not for Bella, or anyone else. You. I love you more than anything else in the world. My love, my passion, my fire, I give to you. Will you marry me?" he asked. God, that was a great speech.

I burst out crying. Not of sadness, but of happiness. Though it probably looked like sadness, for his face fell. "Yes!" I screamed and I flung myself on him and crushed my mouth to his. His lips, face, chest, anywhere I could kiss him. He laughed and kissed me back.

"Yes, yes, yes!!" I screamed. He picked me up and twirled me around not breaking a kiss and I wrapped my arms tightly, as tightly as I could possibly, and breathed in his delicious scent.

He then placed me down on the ground and caressed my face gently. His smile was so big I thought he might be hurting his face. His eyes were so happy. I reached up and wiped away a single tear that had fallen from his eye. He took my hand and kissed it, twice, a dozen times. Then the thunder rumbled above us and Jacob looked up into the sky. His nostrils flared and he looked back down at me.

"We have to go. The storm is almost here." he said. I picked up the blanket and basket and Jacob picked me up and ran to the car. He pushed me in there and started the car and raced home. The wind was picking up and my guess was that he didn't want to get stuck out in the middle of a forest when a vicious storm hit. I wouldn't either.

"I love you." I whispered. He reached over and pulled me to his side and cradled me.

"I love you too." he said kissing my forehead. We arrived at his house then and he rushed me inside. Billy was in the kitchen fixing himself his dinner. When he saw us, he smiled.

"Hey you two. Have fun?" he asked.

"Yeah we did." I said. Then he looked at my hand and his face froze. His gaze shot up at me and he smiled bigger than I have ever seen him smile.

"Did he?" I nodded. "Jacob!" he screamed. Jacob came running in and went to his dad.

"Whats wrong!?" he asked. His father grabbed him and hugged him in a bear hug that made Jacob peep. Then patted him hard on the back. "That's my boy." he said proudly.

"Congratulations." he said. I nodded and smiled. Jacob came and kissed me lightly.

"Oh by the way, Bella called for Lily." Billy called as we made our way to Jacob's room. Jacob went and got the phone. He handed it to me and I dialed Bella's number just as I pushed open Jacob's door. Then I froze. Bella was sitting on Jacob's bed.

I dropped the phone and went still. Then I got a really funny feeling in the pit of my stomach. I couldn't have done anything different but bend over and thrown up right there in front of her. I threw up a great deal before my eyes went into the back of my head and I fell over onto the floor.

Jacob's POV

When Lily walked into my room, she gasped and I looked over her shoulder to see Bella sitting on our bed. Bella smiled and then Lily wobbled and bent over. She threw up and before I could catch her, she fell onto the floor passed out.

"Lily!" I screamed. Bella hopped off of the bed and rushed to her side.

"Lily?!" she yelled. "Can you hear me?"

I grabbed her and her eyes fluttered a little. I pulled her close to me until she awoke again. Bella rushed off and then came back with a glass of water and a towel. Billy appeared at the door and had a confused, worried look on his face.

Bella gave me the glass and I carefully placed it upon Lily's lips. Her eyes slowly slipped open and she drank the water slowly. I dabbed at her face with the towel and she slowly slid up into a seated position clutching her head.

"Bella. Do you have any Tylenol?" I asked. She reached for her purse and grabbed some. Lily took it and leaned up against me.

"Are you alright?" I asked her. She coughed a little.

"I don't know. I remember coming into the room and then I remember collapsing but thats it." she said with a rough voice.

Bella looked up at me and it looked like she had something to say. But refrained from saying it. I looked at her and she shook her head. Something was up. She would tell me sooner or later. If I had to tie her to a tree and toucher her. Not that Edward would approve.

"What is it?" Lily asked Bella. She was smart. She knew that something was up just like I had and she was nearly faint.

"It's nothing Lily. Are you sure your okay?" she asked.

"Yes, I just had a little spell thats all. I can get up now." Lily said. She slowly stood and I helped her up. She looked at the mess she made and groaned. "Oh! I'm so sorry!"

"Don't worry about it" I reassured. Then I looked at Bella and glared at her. I pulled Lily into the living room and sat her on the couch. "You need to rest. I'll be right back. I love you." I gave her a blanket and kissed her forehead. Then I went over and grabbed Bella's arm and shuffled her outside. We walked to the work shop and I turned her around to face me.

"What the hell is going on?" I nearly shouted at her. "Why are you here in the first place?"

"Calm down Jacob, I came cause I wanted to see Lily. Am I not aloud to come here either. I just came about fifteen minutes ago and Billy said I should stay until the storm passes. Or that you take me home when you arrived. Sorry I invited myself." she said.

I huffed out a breath and rolled my eyes. "It's fine, but you need to tell me what it is that you know." I pressed. She shook her head and bit her lip.

"I'm not aloud." she said.

"Well, is it about Lily and me?" she nodded. "Then you have permission." I said.

"Your supposed to figure it out. Well, Lily is anyways."

"Bella! Just tell me damn it!" I yelled slamming my fist into the shed wall. Her eyes widened and she just blurted out, very quietly what she had been holding it.

"She's pregnant Jacob." she said so quietly I could barely hear her. I froze instantly and then tears came to my eyes. I clutched my head and sank to the floor. She's pregnant. Inside, my heart soared. I grabbed Bella and hugged her so tight she couldn't breath.

"She's pregnant." I said. Then I screamed it. "She's pregnant!!" I laughed and kissed Bella lightly on the cheek. She smiled and I ran back into the house. Bella followed.

I crashed through the door and pulled Lily into my arms. But I did so gently, she was pregnant and just had a fainting spell. She looked at me confused, her brows furrowed.

"What is it Jacob?" she asked. I dropped my head to her abdomen and kissed it. Multiple times. She was still confused. I kissed her anyways.

"Can I tell her?" Bella asked behind me. I turned and looked at her.

"I'll tell her. Thanks." I said.

"Tell me what?" Lily asked. I looked at her and she looked scarred.

"Lily, deep breath, your pregnant."

Lily's POV

FLASHBACK!!!

I stirred in his bed. His breath was so slow and even, it made me feel safe. I looked up and saw him smiling down at me. Tyler was everything a man could be. Even though we were only teens. I was pretty sure at this moment, we would be together forever. He wrapped his arms around me and kissed my hair. I kissed his chest and sighed in contentment. We were two young kids, in love.

"I love you." he said. I looked up at him and kissed his lips. But before I could say more, the door pushed open and there stood my father. I screeched and pulled the covers around me.

"Lily! What the hell are you doing!?" he screamed. Tyler sat up quickly as my father came up and dragged me out of the bed. Not even giving me time to cover myself. He stood me up and slapped me across my face.

"You stupid bitch!" he screamed at me.

"Hey!" Tyler yelled as he jumped up out of the bed and flung himself at my father and smashed him into the dresser lined up against the wall. I touched my hand to my cheek as I watched in horror as my father pinned Tyler to the floor, choking him.

"Dad! Stop it!" I cried as I jumped on his back and pounded him with my fists. He scrambled back and hit me hard and I flew back and hit the wall. Then he proceeded to beat Tyler, choking him. Tyler put up one hell of a fight though, he kicked and scratched and scrambled until he was on his feet again, his face dripping with blood.

I couldn't get up. I tried but I was just too weak. My father came up to me, ignoring Tyler, whom had picked up his metal baseball bat. My father came to me and kicked me with all his might into my abdomen. I clutched over on the floor and wrapped myself up into a ball, to protect myself.

Then all I could here were grunts and then a dinging sound as Tyler swung the bat at my father's head and cracked his scull. I opened my eyes to see my father sway and then crash onto the floor, a deep crimson crack in his forehead. Blood cascaded down and onto the wooden floor. I sat up slowly and buried my face into my hands, bawling.

"Lily." Tyler said. He came to me and hugged me. I couldn't help but offer the comfort he now offered. I was glad that my father was dead. He had been beating me for years. Ever since my mother died when I was ten. He just couldn't get over it. And he blamed it on me. Tyler was the only one I could have gone to for comfort and now, he was the one who had now saved me from possibly dying.

I crushed him in a hug and cried my eyes out. He grabbed his cell out from his pocket and dialed 911.

"Yes officer? I would like to report an accident..." he said. He continued but all I could hear was gibberish. He hung up a while later and picked me up and shuffled me out of the bedroom. Tyler was a strong boy. He reached nearly six three in height and weighed over two hundred pounds. He had muscles like you wouldn't believe and he could bench over three hundred and fifty pounds. My dream guy. Not to mention he was smart, sexy, sweet, and kind. He always treated me with respect, a complete gentleman.

I smiled up at him as he set me on the couch, his face was still bleeding. I wiped it away with my hand but he caught it in his and kissed my palm. Then he closed his eyes and thats when the door bell rang. He pushed himself up pulling on shorts and rushed to the door. I covered myself up with the blanket that was laying beside me.

"Hello officer." Tyler said. "He's right in here." He motioned the officer into the bedroom to were my father lay.

When they came back the officer flipped out a cell phone and called his deputy to come and pull out the body. Then he came over to me and sat down beside me. Comfort and sorrow deep in his eyes.

"Ma'am. I'm going to ask you some questions. Please answer them truthfully alright?" he asked. I nodded.

"Was that man your father?" I nodded. "Alright, you can just tell me what happened. Start from the beginning." he said.

I took a deep breath and looked over a Tyler. He smiled at me and urged me on.

"Me and Tyler were, well we were, together. And my father came in and pulled me out of bed. He slapped me and then he started choking and beating Tyler. I tried to make my father stop but it was no use, he pushed me up against the wall and kicked me hard in the stomach. Thats when Tyler had a hold of his bat and he swung it at my father making his scull crack and he crashed to the floor. He we didn't mean to kill him! It was an accident! I swear!!." I burst into tears and the officer cooed me.

"Shh...It's alright. No one ever said it was your guy's fault. These terrible things happen. No one can say why though." He stood up and motioned Tyler to the door. He was whispering into his ear and then the deputy came in. The two officers went and carried out my father's body in a black bag. Then they came by and told me that they needed to take me to the hospital, both of us. For further examination.

I didn't know why, but everything seemed fishy. Like nothing was going the way it should be going. Everything was just wrong! This isn't right. This isn't how my life is supposed to go! Me and Tyler are supposed to get married and love each other. Not like this!

They took me into the E R and a doctor came to examine me. I didn't know why but they had to put me in a cat scan. Later they informed me that because my father had kicked me so hard, it had ruptured my ovaries and so I could never have kids.

I went into shock, all of this new information just bombarded me and I couldn't take it. Tyler didn't have more than a few cuts and bruises. And some throat damage, but he can still have kids. A strong sense of envy took me and I became angry. Not at Tyler or the doctors. But at myself. If I hadn't been having sex, this wouldn't have happened!

I spent the next week in the hospital, recovering from the attack. They let Tyler go, but he still came back often to make sure I was still alright. When my uncle Tom came to get me, I knew everything was going to hell right then.

I had to leave Forks, it was the only solution. My father was the only one I had lived with in Forks, and I couldn't just go live with Mike and his mom. That wouldn't have been fair. My uncle had come to take me away. And it crushed Tyler.

"I can't see you anymore." I had told him.

"But I love you. Please stay, you can live with me. We'll leave!" he said.

"Where will we go?" I had asked him. "We are only kids Tyler. We have no jobs, and we don't even have our high school degrees. This is how it has to be."

I left him, on his porch on January 23, at 3:03 in the afternoon. I could still remember the expression on his face as I left and drove off in my uncle's beat up old Camaro. I learned many years later that Tyler had moved away, no one knew where. And they lost touch with him. Thats when I became a waitress and I never saw him again.