Hello:D lol. Okay well, it is majorly snowing outside!! and im so happy!!! lol. Well, i hope that u guys like this chapter. Everything is going crazy!! I started writing my second novel (not that iv finished my first) lol. But u know how it is, all u crazy authors for these freaking awesome fanfictions! Well, enjoy the story. REVIEW!!! if u don't, i will get sad :"( lol. Just do it and make me happy so i can continue to make all u happy for writing this completely pointless fanfiction XD lol.

Goldilox07

nothing belongs to me...

Chapter 16

Lily's POV

"What?" I asked. Jacob had me in his arms and he kept on kissing me. On my face, my chest, my arms, my head, my hands, and mostly on my stomach. I finally had just about had it, so I pulled his face up and held it in my hands. He had tears in his eyes, tears! I stroked his face with my hand and he smiled, a tear slid down his cheek.

"Your pregnant sweet." he said quietly. I shook my head at him, wiping away his tears.

"No. That's not possibly Jacob." I looked up at Bella and she had a confused look on her face.

"But Alice saw you in a vision. You were pregnant and-"

"How is it impossible?" Jacob interrupted her. Now he looked hurt and bewildered at my response.

"It's a long story actually..." I said trying not to get into it.

"I would really like to hear about it." Jacob said and he looked at Bella. She sat down but I didn't want to say this in front of her. I mean, Bella was like a sister to me. But this, I had no idea what Jacob's reaction would be. He thought that I had been a virgin when I met him. Maybe I could skip the part about Tyler. But then how would it follow up with the story. Oh god. I thought. He's going to hate me! I'm such a whore!! Ugh!

"Lily." Jacob pulled me into a hug. "Your hyperventilating. Is everything alright?"

I shook my head and whispered into his ear. "I don't want Bella to hear." he looked at me and then looked at Bella. Something in his gaze must have told her all, for she got up and left the house. Then he looked back at me and kissed me softly.

"What is it?" he asked softly.

I sat there for a few moments, gathering my thoughts. "Jacob, deep breath. Eyes closing. I can't have children. It just isn't possible for me."

He looked hurt. "Why?"

"When I was a kid, or a teen. Whatever. I...was...with...a boy named Tyler." I said swallowing.

"What do you mean by with?" he asked.

"We...had sex." I said very quietly. I heard his intake of breath but I didn't let that stop me. "We loved each other, and one day when he was over at my house, we were...and then my father caught us and he was...well, abusive. He beat up Tyler, and then he...I just can't have kids. The doctor's said what my father did to me made my ovaries...dead." I said.

He now looked freaking pissed off! "What did you father do to you?" he asked.

I swallowed. "Jacob, it doesn't mat-"

"What did he do!?"

"...he kicked me in the stomach. Alright? He knocked me out. He slapped me across the face. And one time he actually stabbed me with a knife in my leg. He abused me from when I was ten to when I was sixteen. Cause thats when the son of a bitch went to jail." I said. Tears were cascading down my face.

Jacob pulled me into a bone crushing hug. I would have pulled away from him, but frankly, I was just too weak. So I just excepted the comfort. I cried into his shoulder and he pulled me in closer kissing me on my neck and whispering comforts into my ear.

"I love you." he said. I pulled back a little and kissed him hard on the lips, he kissed me face, but not like I wanted him too. I wanted him to kiss me. A real kiss, not the soft ones. I pushed my tongue through his lips and when he tried to draw back I pulled his head to mine. He pulled back anyways.

"Kiss me damn it!" I yelled at him through tears.

"You not being coherent." he said. I pulled him to me anyways, and he complied. Probably realizing that I would cry even more without something to take away the pain. Him. Jacob was my drug, to take away any kind of pain. All the pain that came from six years of torture and abuse from my father.

He kissed me until my stomach growled from not eating anything all day. He looked at me and I laughed. He wiped my face with the back of his hand and kissed me softly. I smiled as he picked me up and walked to the kitchen.

"What would you like to eat my fair lady?" he asked with a bit of an accent. I laughed at that and he laughed with me. I was glad the depressing conversation was finally over. I was glad that the only thing Jacob was remotely angry about was the fact that my father almost killed me growing up. That made the nerves in me settle down, a bit.

"Mmm...what do you have my lord?" I replied with the same stupid accent. He smiled a warm smile that made me think Thats Jacob right there. His smiled told you everything about him. How much he felt that he was loved and how much he loved. It made me all warm and toasty inside.

"Well lets see here." he said digging through the fridge. "We have...waffles?" he said holding up the box. I was hungry for anything so I said 'yes'. While he was cooking me my dinner I was lost in my thoughts. Was I really pregnant? If so, then how could I be? The doctor's said that I was unable to have children. If Alice really did see me pregnant, then I would need to talk to her right away.

"Jacob?" I asked.

"Mm?" He asked while spreading butter and maple surip all over my waffles. He slid me the plate and I took a bite. It was warm and the butter literally melted on my tongue. It tasted amazing!

"Well, swallowing, I was thinking...if I really am pregnant, I should talk to Alice. And perhaps get a pregnancy test. Just to make sure." I said. He nodded.

"I'm sure thats the best thing for you to do." he said. I took another bite and contemplated what I would do if I were really pregnant. I mean, how could I be? The doctors told me that my ovaries were so damaged that they couldn't produce any more eggs. And now finally having a reason to question that fact just made me literally want to jump out of my seat and dance. Not that I would ever do that...

After breakfast, Jacob called Alice and told her to pick me up at the line in an hour. I went to take a shower in the mean time and Jacob went off doing whatever he does. Why did I get this? Did I deserve to have such a man? Jacob was everything a man could be. I used to think that way about Tyler, but now seeing Jacob...nothing could compare. He was my everything. I smiled to myself as I smeared conditioner in my hair and massaged it into my hair. I quickly rinsed off and pulled a towel around myself.

I jumped out the shower, well not literally, and dried myself off. I put on my clothes, it was cold out today so I wore jeans and a black sweater. I dried my hair and put curling gel that the Cullens had bought me at the mall and let my hair air dry. Then I put on a light coat of mascara and headed out the bathroom.

When I got out Jacob was standing outside the door. I jumped and let out a screech when I saw him. He had scared me being only two inches away from my face! He smiled but something in his face bothered me. I couldn't decipher what it was though.

"Jacob!" I put my hand on my chest. "You scared me." He shushed my further words with a finger to my lips. "What?" I asked through his finger. He pulled my arms up and put them over my head, then he bent his head down and kissed me. I breathed into the kiss and his hands went to my waist. He gently picked me up and I wrapped my legs around his waist. He pushed me up against the wall and rubbed his hands down my arms to my waist and grabbed my butt.

I pushed my tongue through his lips and caressed his tongue. He groaned from it and his hips involuntarily bucked up into my hips. I pulled my arms around his neck and grabbed his head and pushed it harder against mine. I couldn't get enough of his lips! The taste to have him all was unbearable. I wondered if maybe we could sneak a moment of passion before I left, but I knew we couldn't. Why?

-Well, if we managed to go any farther than we already were I wouldn't be leaving this house for days. At a minimum.

-Alice would be wondering were I was.

-I wouldn't be able to get the answers that I need. Desperately need.

"Jacob." I said when he kissed under my jaw. He moved his lips down...and down to my throat and my collar bone followed by my breasts. "Uh...breathing fast...Jacob?" He grumbled deep in his throat, but didn't cease kissing me. "I need to go." He stopped then, and I heard him groan in disappointment. "I'm sorry." I said as I put his face in my hands. I made him look at me. "Look, I need to go. If I don't do this, I wont ever do it." He closed his eyes.

"I want you." he said.

"And you'll have me. When I get back, I wont be expecting anything short from at least three days in that bed." I pointed to the bedroom. He smiled and laughed a little.

"As you wish love." he said quietly. I kissed his lips softly and he let me down onto the floor. He grabbed his keys off the rack and motioned me out the front door. The wind rustled around and it blew with a fierceness that frightened me. I looked up a Jacob and we ran to the car. I flung open the door and Jacob got in and started the car.

"Man!" I wailed. "What is up with the weather?" I said out loud. I didn't really expect an answer. Jacob just shrugged and pulled out of the driveway. We drove and the wind bellowed up against the car. I shivered and Jacob turned on the heat.

"I'm fine." I said.

"You are cold. I don't want you getting sick. And if you really are pregnant, I don't want this stupid weather to harm you or the baby." He said flicking the lever to high. But I couldn't protest. The heat was exquisite against my cold clammy skin. I rubbed my hands together and put them in front of the heat.

Jacob drove to the line and sure enough, Alice's car was sitting right there. Her Porsche, with it's sleek yellow paint job. My mouth flung open and and I mouthed a wow.

"Does she have to drive that?" Jacob grumbled in annoyance.

"Be nice." I said. "Your just jealous because you don't have one."

"Oh I'm perfectly happy with this hunk of junk." he said meaning the Camaro.

"Hey! I love this car. It was my uncle's. And plus you have a freaking Shelby Mustang!! Hypocrite. And I would rather have a mustang than a porsche any day." I said.

He parked the car on the side of the road and shut off the engine. He turned over and hugged me. I breathed in his scent and he let go, too soon. I kissed his lips. "I love you." I said. "I'll be back soon." I opened up the door and the wind caught it. Alice came running up but stopped at the line, waiting for me. I scrambled out of the car and closed the door. I waved bye to Jacob who looked unbelievably sad, then I ran for my life up to Alice.

"What took you so long?" she asked.

"That." I said gesturing back to Jacob who was already gone. I bit my lip and got into her car. The heater was already going and a soft background of music was playing. I had never heard the band before. Alice got in and peeled away. She looked as great as ever.

"So, how are you?" she asked trying to make conversation.

"I don't know. How would you be if you just found out that you could possibly be pregnant after you'd always thought you couldn't be. And having that thought scrape at your emotions ten fold?" I asked.

"I see your point." she said dryly. "I would give anything if me and Jasper could have children. But believe me Lily. My vision was very clear. You were pregnant and standing by Jacob. It was real. I can guarantee that you are most definitely pregnant."

"I still have a hard time believing it." I grumbled crossing my arms across my chest.

She blew out a gust of air. "Well, there is only one way to find out." she reached behind the seat and flung a brown sack on my lap. It had something in it. I pulled out a small box that said "First Response pregnancy test."

"When we get back to the house, you are checking it. Immediately." she said. "The whole freaking house, even Jasper are excited to finally know the outcome of this situation."

I moaned. Why does everyone have to know everything about my personal life? Jeez...I looked out the window and the trees were buzzing by. But the clouds were growing more fierce and it was getting darker, fast.

Alice flowed up their driveway and she pulled into the garage at the house. I got out as she turned off the car and ran into the house. The door was already open and I barreled through it like a raging bull. I hated the wind, especially when it was cold wind.

No one was in the living room, probably in their rooms. Alice was right behind me, pushing me up the stairs. I tripped when she was pushing to fast and she apologized. I got up the stairs, with difficulty, and went into the bathroom. She even followed me.

"Alice!" I said.

"What?"

"A little privacy would be nice." I said.

"Oh, sorry." she said getting out and closing the door behind her. I read the directions and followed them one by one. It took a few minutes but finally I had gotten my answer.

I opened the door and walked out. I walked down stairs and flung open the front door and went out into the cold wind. I stood in the middle of it. Trees were nearly falling over from the strength of the storm that was brewing. My hair was blowing all around my face. Leaves and twigs were getting stuck into it. I reached my arms up into the sky and screamed so loud the whole town could have heard me.

I fell to my knees on the rocky ground and tears fell down my cheeks. Lightning shot around me and the rain started to fall. It soaked into my clothes and I laid down onto the ground and pressed my cheek to it. All this time...I had thought it wasn't possible. Was it possible that the doctors had lied, but why would they have?

Pregnant. The tester had said. It had proven Alice's vision correct. I was pregnant, a child was growing, as we speak, inside me. Oh god, I'm not ready for this.

Bella's POV

Sort of a flashback. Right before Alice goes to pick up Lily at the line.

I was walking down the stairs when I saw Edward standing in front of the fridge. What is he doing there? I walked up behind him, though I was pretty sure he already knew I was there. I passed him on my way to the laundry room and grabbed his butt. He turned and gave me the weirdest look. I smiled and laughed at him. Oh he got the message. I never said I would be fighting fair.

I went into the laundry room and picked up my clothes that I had washed earlier. When I came back out Edward was standing there this time, in nothing but his boxers.

"Huh." the air rushed from my lungs and I dropped the basket and all of my clothes came tumbling down and onto the kitchen floor. Edward smirked and came to stand in front of me as I picked up the clothes and put them back into the basket. As I stood up I gave him a good swipe with my gaze. But before I could get too carried away I shuffled passed him and ran up the stairs. I couldn't tell if he had followed me or not.

How dare he! I thought as I put away my clothes into the closet. Yeah, I grab his butt and he has to strip. Perfect. This is just flippin fantastic...I try to make things harder for him...and he ends up on making everything harder for me!

Then, a brilliant thought rushed through my head. I threw off my shirt and pulled down my pants...I slipped on a black thong and a push up bra and came out of the closet. The rest of the family was on a hunting trip and would be gone until tomorrow morning at the earliest. Edward and I were home alone, for one night.

I opened the bedroom door and exited it very quietly, making sure not to make any sudden noises that would blow my cover. Edward would be down stairs. I walked down the staircase and there stood Edward still looking at a paper that was stuck on the fridge door. I walked across the living room and turned on the radio. A band I hadn't heard before came blasting in and Edward turned around to look at me.

When he saw me standing there in nothing but my underwear, his mouth dropped. I smiled and ruffled my hair with my hands. Then I began to slowly dance and sway to the music. Edward walked up to me and touched my arm but I stepped back.

"No no." I said. "You cannot touch." Then I laughed and walked away turning the radio off on my way. When I got to the staircase, I looked over my shoulder at him and he looked bamboozled. I had done that. I snickered as I walked back up the stairs.

Edward's POV

What the hell was she trying to do to me? I watched as she slowly ascended the stairs. Her hips swayed with every step she took and, oh god, that butt. It was so full and she was wearing a thong! What kind of lunatic would make something so...tempting...to make a man's mind go completely insane!

She took the last step up the stairs and vanished into a bedroom. I looked around and noticed that I was still in my boxers. I guess I had deserved it. Bella was trying to make this as hard for me as possible. And I in turn was making it harder for her as well, but I think she just one that battle.

"Until tonight my love." I threatened to no one. "Just you wait."

Bella's POV

Ha ha. I thought wickedly. Did you see the look on his face! It was absolutely classic. Just wait, tonight he'll get the rest of his torment. I walked into the bathroom and started the shower. I undressed myself and got in. The hot spray came upon my skin and I sizzled in it's warmth. I loved the shower. It was a perfect place to just clear one's mine and think of good things.

What was becoming of Edward and I? We were so inept on calling each other's bluff that we had forgotten why we did it in the first place. We wanted each other, and it was because of me that we couldn't have it. Me and my stupid beliefs. It had once been turned around, but what had made my thoughts flip flop? Was it the fact that my mother would be angry that I had, not only married too soon, but lost my virginity too soon?

I shook my head and applied shampoo into my hair. I lathered it up and rinsed.

I mean...shouldn't I just tell all of my worries and beliefs to just go to hell? Thats what I'll do, I'll just tell anything and anyone to go to hell who is going to stop me tonight. Tonight is the night, and Edward is going to have me, one way or another.

I squirted body wash unto a poof and began to lather up my skin. I began to wash the soap off when I felt two strong cold arms wrap around my waist.

I screamed and dropped the poof. Edward was behind me, and oh, so naked. He bent his head down and kissed my shoulder. I leaned my head back and starred at him wide-eyed. He smiled and kissed me, hard.

"I couldn't wait any longer." he said. I smiled as he pushed me up against the wall. Neither could I. Was my last thought for a very, very long time...

So sorry to just quit right here. But you know how it is...you have to keep people guessing. And I will write what happens between Edward and Bella in the next chapter, so don't freak out!! lol. Well I hope you guys liked it and REVIEW!! All you crazy kids make me sooo happy:D

Sincerely,

Emily aka:Goldilox07