Secret Desires & Fears (G-5)
Timing: Just after the girls take in the power of the runes for the first time ('A Great and Terrible Beauty' pg. 317-320).
The runes, yes the runes, I've taken them in. We've taken them in. I can feel their power in my veins even now in my sleep.
Everything is dark, no nightmare or warning can seep into my mind now. I feel free. The utter darkness in my mind should be alarming to me, but it is quite the opposite.
I await the dawn, or whenever else I may awaken. I cannot wait to see the world with this new... energy. I almost imagine everything to be inverted when I do.
I remember the light, that searing brightness that confirmed that we had reached it. The feeling of it was wonderful, I wonder what it was like for Ann... and Fee and Pip. Could they have possibly seen the things I had? Felt the bliss of it all? I am almost sure I could turn Cecily into a frog if I set my mind to it.
But will I? Or was this all just another dream? Could it all possibly have been just my imagination? Will I wake to the morning of the assembly day once more? Or maybe even before that? I doubt it and dread it at the same time.
What's Kartik doing, I wonder? What would he do if he knew what we just did? What would he think? What would the Rakshana do? The questions were quickly deserted as other thoughts and questions began to bloom in my mind.
What would I do with the new magic when I woke? What would we do? What could we do? We couldn't perform anything too noticable with them, but a few pranks couldn't hurt anything. Cecily, yes we could teach her a lession for a few tricks of her own. Ideas sprouted of what exactly we could do to her, nothing too cruel of course, I don't think any of us were cruel enough to actually harm her.
My mind only lurked on these plans for a moment or two, though. I couldn't bear to keep my mind on one subject for more than a minute.
I was in my bed, I was certain of that. How I came to be there was more of a mystery. Had we magically materialized into our own rooms? Or could it have been that we had walked back ourselves, but were just too overcome with the high that the runes seemed to accompany us with to remember it? Could anyone have seen us? What would happen if they did? Is it now in our power to erase such dangerous memories?
How long had I been laying there? Days? Hours? Minutes? Were the others asleep as well or was I the only one? Was I even asleep? Could I possibly be dead? No, no, there was no way that I could be dead when I felt this... alive.
My thoughts were brought to a halt as I felt myself beginning to come back to conciousness. Let the games begin.