"Fang, I need to talk to you," I said once we got home

"La, la, la, la!" I said putting my fingers in my ears. I know, childish, but who cares? We were at home now.

"Damn it Max! Why won't you listen to me?" Fang asked angrily. I turned and looked at him.

"I don't want to hear your stupid excuses, or lame lies!" I screamed before running in our room. I slammed the door and locked it.

Someone knocked on the door.

"Go away you bastard!" I shouted.

"Oh, I'm hurt Max," Iggy teased. I opened the door and pulled him in.

"Sorry, I thought you were—"

"Fang," he finished. "Look, I know him. Maybe you should listen to him. He always hated Lucy because she had a crush on him. This really doesn't sound like something he would do. He really does love—"

"If I had known you were going to say this, I wouldn't have opened the door," I mumbled. He sighed and hugged me.

"Just think about this before you make a mistake," he said gently. I nodded, and he walked out. Ella walked in.

"What are you going to do?" she asked with her hand on her stomach.

"I have no clue," I answered honestly. "I love him. I will admit that, but I can't just pretend this never happened. Pretend I didn't see them holding hands. Pretend I didn't see him kissing her back. I can't. If I ever do get back with him, how would I ever forget? I have to think." She nodded and walked out.

I didn't want my baby to grow up with parents who weren't together, but how was I supposed to stay with him? I can't.

Listening to music usually helps me think. I put in one of my CDs. Breakdown by Daughtry was one of the songs on there.

Verse 1 Open up the book you beat me with again

Read it off one sentence at a time

I'm tired of all the lines, convictions, and lies

So true you lying, cheating bastard!

What right do you have to point at me?

Well I'm sitting alone thinking about it all

Over coffee

And still crowding my space are the things you still

Hold against me

You cannot save me

Chorus

Well it's not the time to breakdown

It's not the time to breakdown

It's not the time to break up this love

I need you now the most, and you choose to break my heart now? Me being seven months pregnant with your child!

Keep it together now

Well it's not the time to break

Verse 2

Read it all, no need for separating it

You see what you want and try to justify

All your little lines, convictions, and lies

What right do you have to point at me?

Well I'm sitting alone thinking about it all

Over coffee

And still crowding my space are the things

You still hold against me

You cannot save me

Chorus

Well it's not the time to breakdown

It's not the time to breakdown

It's not the time to break up this love

Keep it together now

Well it's not the time to break

Bridge

Open up the book you beat me with again

Read it off one sentence at a time.

Chorus

Well it's not the time to breakdown

It's not the time to breakdown

It's not the time to break up this love

Keep it together now

Well it's not the time to

Breakdown, breakdown

I was in tears all over again. Fang had cheated on me. What the hell am I supposed to do?

'Listen to what happened,' Angel told me mentally.

'Stay out of my head Angel and no! I don't want to hear his stupid lies!' I blocked my thoughts from her after that. We had figured out how, but it took a lot of concentrating.

I laid on my bed, and I cried until I couldn't cry anymore. That was literally two hours. I stood up and walked into the living room once I had gone back to normal. You couldn't even tell I had been crying. I looked like I had woken up from a nap. I didn't even look at Fang.

"Max…" I tuned him out after that. I literally didn't hear another word he said, until, "So will you forgive me?" I blinked, and then stood up. I walked closer to him.

"Of course…not!" I stomped on his toe. I ran outside and flew up to the roof. No one saw me fly up there. They all ran off and flew off to find me, Fang being the first to go.

"Max!" he yelled. Like he cares!

"I'll stay here and wait for her to get back!" Ella called. They all nodded. Nudge walked out and flew beside me.

"Did you listen to a word he said?" she asked after we had sat in silence for a while.

"Nope," I said quickly and popping my p. "Why should I listen to his stupid lies anymore?"

"He's not lying," she said simply. I looked over at her.

"I saw them holding hands," I said quietly. She sighed and stood up.

"Maybe you should listen to what happened. You know Fang, and I know him. This is not like him. Max, he would never hurt you. You know that." She got off the roof and went back inside.

Obviously he would hurt me, because he did. And I thought I knew him. Turns out, I didn't. Emphasis on the thought. And if I listen to his lies, I might believe them, and then end up getting hurt again. And those are most definitely lies.

An hour later, everyone started flying back. I smiled at them. Iggy frowned.

"Where did you go?" he asked curiously. I patted beside me.

"I've been here the whole time." He narrowed his eyes at me, and then smiled. He flew inside.

Next was Angel. She saw me and pouted.

"I just wasted an hour looking for you, and you were right here!" she exclaimed. I grinned and nodded.

"I wanted to see how long it would take you guys to realize I was here," I said simply. She frowned and walked inside.

Then come Fang and Gazzy.

"Max!" Gazzy exclaimed. I nodded and looked away. I wasn't even going to look at him.

"Max," Fang said softly sitting beside me. I stood up and went inside. He ran after me.

"Why don't you just believe me? I love you!" he said poking my chest. "Only you. Why don't you just believe me?" I scoffed.

"It couldn't be the fact I saw you two holding hands! It couldn't be the fact I saw you kissing her, and you didn't even try to get away! It couldn't be either one of those reasons!" I shouted before ramming past him and into our room. Not for long. I grabbed his pillow and I handed it to him. He stared at me for a second.

"Max—"

"Don't waste your breath," I hissed venomously.

"Max, please just listen to me!" I slammed the door in his face. I slid down in front of it and burst into tears. Why does high school have to be so fucking hard?

"So, did anything exciting happen at school today?" Mom asked happily at dinner. I never said a word. Fang was silently staring at me. Ella looked at me.

"Uh…not really," she muttered. "The usual." Mom looked at me, and then Fang.

"Something's up," she observed. "You are both always eager to sit beside each other." I shook my head.

"Nothing's up," I lied. I did not want to talk about it right now. Maybe even ever. Everyone stared at me. I shot them a look that shut them up before they said anything. I slid my chair out and stood up. Fang followed me.

"Leave. Me. Alone," I said through gritted teeth. I was glaring at him.

"Nope," he said simply, glaring right back at me. "Not until you listen to me." Mom stared at me.

"What's going on?" she asked the flock. They sighed.

"Nothing!" I shrieked before storming into my room. Who cares where he sleeps? Not me.

"Max!" Fang said slamming the door open.

"What the hell do you want?"
"Why don't you talk to me?" he asked angrily. I rolled my eyes.

"I'm not going to get my heart broken, again!! You kissed a girl before. Now I know you weren't dating me then, but it still hurt. You left me when I needed you, and now you cheat on me when I need you the most! Well my heart has too many scars as it is!" I burst into tears.

"Max…I'm still here," he said with his voice breaking.

"You—get—away from me," I said icily. He hugged me.

"Never. I made a promise to never leave again, and I'm not going to. I would never cheat on you Max. Why can't you just…I only want and need you! I love you!"
"You have a really weird way of showing it," I snarled. He took a deep breath. Ten seconds went by. He must have been really mad, or aggravated. Good.

"Max—"

"I'm tired," I interrupted. "Now go!" He opened his mouth to protest, but I shoved him out and locked the door.

He was going to be so pissed when he finds out I have a date Monday. I know. Weird day for a date, but we were going to study and then go grab something to eat. Me and Shane. I had to show him I could live without him, even though I couldn't, and I could move on. That I can do…I think.

I laid down and quickly went to sleep. I had had an eventful day.

"Max!" Nudge said banging on my door. I sighed and got up. Man! My stomach hurt.

"What?" I asked sleepily once I unlocked the door and opened it.

"We've been trying to get you up for like thirty minutes. We were about to break the door down!" she exclaimed.

"Well, I'm up," I said before yawning. "What time is it?"

"Almost noon," she said in an I-can't-believe-you-did-that tone. I…slept till almost noon.

"Oops," I muttered. She nodded.
"Are you ready to listen?" she asked quietly.

"I'll listen, but doesn't mean I'll believe it," I snapped. Wait! Don't get mad at her. "Sorry." She shrugged.

"It's okay. But you should. It's the truth." She walked off after that. How the hell did she know that? None of them were there!

"Max," Ella said pulling on my arm. "I'm your sister. I love you. I'm going to back you up on everything. Except this. You need to just listen!"

"Okay! But I'm not going to believe him, so he might as well just save his breath!" I yelled. Fang was standing right there.

"Max, I'm not lying. I really just need you to trust me!" he pleaded.

"Well, I hate to break it to you, but I can't! I can't trust anything you say anymore!" I yelled.

"Why? What did I ever do to make you not trust me?" he asked raising his eyebrows.

"You made out with someone who is supposed to be my friend," I spat. "That's what."
"Besides that," he said narrowing his eyes.

"You…you…"

"Exactly." His voice was harsh. Meaning he had a point to prove. "So, why can't you trust me when I say I was not kissing her?"

"You were holding hands!!" I screamed as loud as I could. "That's why! Fang, I want to believe you, I honestly do, but I can't!" He shook his head.

"No! Max, we weren't. She had a hold of my wrist. There's a difference," he said, emphasizing difference.

"No there isn't," I said coldly.

"What?" he asked dumbfounded.

"There isn't a difference! The fact remains, you were kissing her back!" I pointed out. He took another deep breath.
"Max," he said through clenched teeth. Then, he unclenched them. "I was not. It only had just started when you showed up! I froze when I heard your voice. I was seriously about to push her off. Literally. Max—"

"Like I said, save it for someone who will actually believe your lies," I said venomously. He froze.

"Max, you have known me forever. You know I would never do this. Max, you know, and I know you do, that I love you—"

"No," I interrupted. "I thought I knew you loved me. Now, how am I supposed to be sure?" He kissed me. I shoved him off.

"Max, I love you, no matter what you say! I love you! I would never intentionally hurt you!" he screamed.

"Well, then maybe you shouldn't have made out with Lucy!" I said in a nah-duh tone.

"I wasn't! She was kissing me! She had a hold of my wrist, and I was just about to push her off when you showed up!"
"Fang, I want to believe you. Honestly. But I just have one question," I said quietly.

"What?" he asked unsurely.

"Why can't you want just me?" I asked.

"I do want only you. Why can't you just believe that?" he asked sadly.

"Like I said…I can't take anymore pain. I can't live with you, and I can't live without you Fang! I need you, but I can't take any more pain. I just can't!" He pulled me close to him and hugged me.

"I'm not going to hurt you," he insisted.

"Stay away from me!" I stormed off into my room and burst into tears. That made me want to believe him even more. That made me think he really did care. But I know, I know, he doesn't. I know he cheated on me, and he did not love me. I couldn't go with my heart. I had to believe my head.

My heart wanted him. Wanted him more than anything in the world. Only my head knew all the damage done to my heart. Knew how much I could take. This was just too much.

This made me feel worthless inside. I wasn't good enough for him. I had always known that. He was like an angel from heaven, and I was me. Now, this just proved it. I was worthless. This made me feel empty inside. He couldn't settle for just me. He couldn't want only me. That's why my head was triumphant over my heart. It knew what was best for me…or did it really? Life is a bitch.