AN: Yes, I am aware that Logan and Dana are out of character right now. I'll get them back into the right spot's as the story progresses. I'm taking my time for this story. I'm trying to make it perfect. Be patient; good things come to those who wait;
After about an hour or two of surfing, we all got out. It was actually kind of late in the day. We had a lot to do tonight, to get ready for the annual bonfire on the end of every week in the summer. I definitely couldn't wait for this one in particular. You see, Kent always managed to bring a new girl to each one, I definitely wanted to see what this skank was going to look like. I was a major bitch to all of them, he could do so much better then half the girls he's gone after. All the really good girls stay as far away from him as possible.
I rushed home to get my supplies and to put on a new outfit for it. It actually gets really cold down here. This bonfire I didn't have a boyfriend to cuddle up with, sadly. Normally I've always had a boyfriend or someone who wouldn't mind warming me up, but there's a rumor going around that Julian's bringing a date for tonight. Not that I'm jealous, I'm just worried about freezing my ass off during the party.
I stood in the middle of my room with my hand on my chin, trying to figure out what to wear. I didn't want to match anyone else so I knew I had to wear my new close my Mom got me from her job. She's an executive at a Modeling agency in Toronto, Canada. She has a lot of surfers close for some reason. It really doesn't make much sense, selling this stuff in The Great White North. Makes no sense what so freaking ever.
After about five more minutes of looking at the random mess of clothes I had scattered around my bed, I ended up choosing a blue tank top, with a white long sleeved shirt to go under it, it kinda acted as under armor I use to play softball in during the hot and cold days. I put on a pair of white skinny jean's and a baby blue jacket on, tied around my waist. I had my favorite van's on, that didn't match anything I might add. They we're purple and had little ducks all over them. Ducks are amazing in my opinion. I have a giant stuffed duck named Herbert that I sleep with, I've had him since I was three. I love that duck.
After I started to do my hair, my cell phone started to go off on my dresser. My hair was being very annoying right now. I had one hand up in my hair trying to get it all to stay in my hand so I could put it in a pony tail, but pieces of it kept falling out. I dropped it all trying to pick up my phone.
"Yes?" I asked taking the hair tie out of my mouth.
"What time are you going to the bonfire?" Lexi asked me.
"Uh... I'm almost ready to head down now. Why? In a hurry for me to get there?" I asked with a smirk pulling at my lips.
"As if. Nikki doesn't want to go without you. She's afraid that she's not going to be able to handle seeing Kent with one of his dates. She want's you to be there to beat her face in if she needs to." Lexi said with a slight huff at the end.
I rolled my eyes at her, "Can't she just do it. She's the one who took karate for four years."
"In the 4th grade!" I heard behind Lexi's voice.
"Still counts you retard." Lexi said. "Just hurry, we're leaving my house now. Later."
"Yeah, later. Much." I said and hung up. I groaned in frustration at my hair and it's stubbornness. I had to look perfect, if Julian did have a girl with him, I had to out do whatever she had to offer. He's mine. Okay, not really, but she can't have him. I like him so much, I don't want to see him with another girl. I don't know what I would do if he got into a serious relationship. I loved having him around whenever I needed him, whenever I wanted to hook up with someone, he was always there. Who am I supposed to fall back on now?
I so didn't mean to sound possessive right there but . . . I just got so used to having him as a back up, ya knows? It just seems weird not to have him to fall back on. I guess if he did, I had to get over him. It's just going to be seriously hard to get over him. He's the only guy who's got me so close to loving him, it's a shame if he's going to ruin what we have. Or is it had? I guess it depends on if there's another girl.
What is I talking about!? I can't be acting like this. He isn't my property, he's just someone I like. He's not mine at all. He was at one point, but I broke it off for a reason. His jealousness was getting out of hand. Pretty annoying to top it off. I'm just going to have to get over it.
I sighed and put my iPod head phones in my ears. I pressed the shuffle button and it came to one of my favorite song's at this moment, A Day To Remember singing Your Way With Words Is Through Silence. This song is amazing. It always has the power to make me think about all of my relationships in the past, and the relationships I have with friends too. I started to mouth the words without singing them aloud.
If actions spoke louder than words, you'd have made me deaf by now
You make it seem so easy to love me for who I really am
It'd break my heart, if we fell apart.
It'd be so hard to let you go
It'd break my heart, if we fell apart.
It'd be so hard to watch you go
So let's not dwell on all those things we should of said
As piece by piece I can pick you up off of my floor (off my floor)
It's so crazy how it'd make my week just to hear them mention your name
Is it so hard to understand how you've got me right in the palm of your hand?
It'd break my heart, if we fell apart.
It'd be so hard to let you go
It'd break my heart, if we fell apart.
It'd be so hard to watch you go
So let's not dwell on all those things we should of said
As piece by piece I can pick you up off of my floor (off my floor)
You're first and foremost, you're always on my mind
Through the songs that I'll sing I'll give you my heart
So let's not dwell on all those things we should of said
It'd be so hard to watch you go...
As soon as the song ended, I saw a bunch of people crowding around a fire. I walked up to them and said my normal 'hi's to everyone. I finally got to the other side of the fire where I saw Lexi and Nikki freaking out. Well, Nikki was freaking out, and Lexi was trying not to kill her.
"Never fear, Dana's here." I said with a slight smile as I walked up next to Lexi pulling the headphone out of my ear, carfuls not to get the rubber piece of it stuck in my ear again. Those skull candy headphones never stay together if you keep pulling them out. The rubber comes off and sticks in your ear, not fun trying to get it out. A true story.
"Thank gods, someone who's not freaking out." Lexi said with a sigh of relief.
"Not for long..." Nikki said looking past Lexi and me. I turned around following her gaze. I knew it. Julian was walking up with Logan, and another girl. It felt like someone just ripped my heart out of my chest.
I saw her holding his hand. She was giggling, smiling, blushing so much that her cheeks were a bright red. I just noticed how he was holding her. She held his right hand, when she was on his left side. His left hand was behind her, probably in her back pocket. He had a thing for that. I couldn't look at it anymore. I turned around, crossing my arms to face Nikki. Lexi took the cue from me and turned around by herself.
"Who is that?" Lexi asked the question that I was dying to know.
"From my resources, that's Stephanie LaShells. Her parent's just moved here from Georgia. She's been here for about a month, also to be known that she's right down the street from Kent. I heard that she's been eyeing Julian for quite some time now." Nikki explained in a hushed tone.
Obviously. Kent and Julian are best friends. That's how she knew about Julian, because I defiantly didn't see her at my school during the end. I can't believe that no one told me this sooner. I still thought that Julian liked me. Kent should have told me. I'm tight with Kent, unlike all the other people around here. I've gotten into more trouble then I can count with him. Not a lot of people think much of it now, he's gotten worse, I've gotten some what better. I still get into trouble now and then though.
I shook my head, "It's cool. No biggie."
"Hey Dana, Lexi, Nikki. How's it?" Logan asked coming up behind me.
"How's what?" Nikki asked with a blank expression on her face.
"It's like what's up, you idiot." Lexi said. I loved how they were always at each other's throats. It got annoying after a while, but my mind needed to be released into happier things. Not that my friends fighting makes' me happy. It's really confusing, doesn't think about it to hard.
"Hey Dana." Julian said walking up with his girl. I decided on playing the nice card.
"Hey J.J." I said. I hope he didn't notice the hint of... well.. Jealousy in my voice.
"This is Stephanie. She just moved here."
"Nice to meet you." I said politely, I stuck my hand out for her to shake, but she rolled her eyes at me.
"Juli-bear, I'm cold. Can we get closer to the fire?" She asked. I rolled my eyes and glared at her. I saw Lexi mouths 'Juli-bear?' to Nikki who fake gaged at the word. Logan just stuffed his hands in his pockets. I stole a quick glance at him. He was staring into the fire. The ways the light reflected off of his face, made him glow. Not like a glow stick, but like... a God or something. He was defiantly growing on me.
"Dana, what's wrong?" Julian asked waving a hand in front of my face. I snapped out of whatever I was doing. Oh God. Was I just staring at him!? Fuck. Oh God. Oh fuck. Oh God. Oh fuck.
"Nothing, why do you ask?" Way to play it cool Dana.
"You were just like in a trance or something... Looking at the fire." Lexi stated.
"Oh, sorry. I was just uh... thinking.. Yeah that's all. No worries." I said with a reassuring smile. Thank God. I really didn't want to be caught staring at Logan. What, have I known the guy for like five hours. He was just a really chill dude, but I had no objections to the fact that he was sexy. "Um, I'm gonna go for a walk. I'll be back later."
I really needed to clear my head. Before anyone could ask to come with me, I walked away in a fast pace. It wasn't really that late, so I didn't need a flash light or anything. Plus, it was supposed to be a full moon tonight. Didn't really see the point in bringing one. I walked until I couldn't hear the music, which I forgot to mention was BLARING through one of Conner's speakers.
I sighed and sat down. I took off my Van's and my socks and stuck my toes into the sand. I was about to lean back to look up at the slowly changing night sky, but I heard someone come up next to me.
"Mind if I sit?" Logan asked me. I was kind of surprised to see him of all people.
"No, go ahead."
After about a minute of silence Logan broke it, "What's up with you and Julian?"
"Nothing, obviously. We used to have a thing, but it's nothing now."I said. I didn't know who I was trying to convince, Logan, or myself.
"Sure doesn't sound like you're too sure of that fact." Logan commented.
"Because I'm not." What. The. Hell. Why am I opening up to him like this? I've never opened up to someone like this before.
"Want to share? I'm all ears." Logan said.
"Julian and I have been dating off and on for the past couple of years. We really haven't been dating anyone else, and It's just a shock to find out that he's got a new girl. It's hard to think of him with someone else after everything we've gone through. He's also the person I've come closest to ever actually falling in love with. I don't want him to get another girl... but I also want him to be happy." I tried to explain. Why the hell was I telling him this.
"Well it seems to me, you're afraid to lose him. Am I right?" I nodded in agreement.
"But your not in love with him?" Logan said trying to sort out the mess of words I just gave him.
"No, I'm definitely not. It's just a strong liking. I've never been in love." I told him. Maybe he could help with this.
"Well, you just might be jealous- "
"No. Dana Cruz dose NOT get jealous." I spat out that word like poison on my tongue.
"Well, I don't know what to tell you. You need to move on, because from what I've seen. This is getting serious." He said talking about Julian's new relationship.
"Awesome." I said glaring at the ocean. "Why did you follow me?"
"You looked like you needed someone to talk to. I figured it was either me or someone else. I chose to follow you instead of Julian. I'm pretty sure that would have been a bad person to have followed you." Logan said with a slight laugh. I laughed back.
"Yeah, I would have had to kick his ass." I said looking over at Logan. I had my knee's pulled up to my chest and my arms were around them, my head was now laying on my knees. Logan sat cris crossed next to me.
"Want my opinion? ," I nodded in approval. "You deserve better then him."
"What? Where is this coming from?" I asked in shock. How could he say that? He doesn't know me.
"I know we just met, but I don't think you want him like you think you do. Seriously Dana, I think that he's way less then what you could get." Logan said. His eye's were set on the waves breaking on the shoreline in front of us.
"Well, Logan, That's flattering but...I can't chose the person I like. Believe me, I've tried." I said. "I'll get over him, it's not going to be that hard. I just need a new person to like..."
Then this amazing idea popped into my head, I should get Julian jealous! But how...how could I ever manage that? I've been out with almost all the guys around here. I need someone else... someone new...
"Logan... would you go out with me?"
His eye's got wide. This defiantly caught him by surprise.
"Why me?"
"Because, your really nice and cute. I have to get over him, you could help me. What do ya say?" I asked with hopes.
"Uh... sure I guess... why not?" Logan hesitated. I don't think I knew what I was getting him into. "How are we going to do this?"
"We're going to be an actual couple. Going on actual dates. You have to help me get over Julian." I explained.
"Wait... if we're going out... dose that mean that I can kiss you when ever I want?" Logan asked raising an eyebrow at me.
"Uh..." was all I could get out before his lip's were on mine. Damn he was an excellent kisser. He knew just how much pressure to apply, and just how to use his hands at the beginning. My eyes slowly fluttered shut in the process of him making me lean back into the sand. I thought that he would of made it last longer, and made it go deeper, but it stopped after a couple of minutes.
"We should probably be getting back." Logan said with a smirk as he pulled me up.
Maybe getting over Julian wouldn't be as hard as I thought. I knew my cheeks were on fire when Logan grasped my hand. I don't know what's going on. All of the sudden, I don't care that Julian has a girl with him tonight. This plan is also a plus, I know Julian's the jealous type. It's going to defiantly show how much he cares about me... and how much I want to be with him. I do want to be with him instead of 'being' with Logan right?... right...
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