Once again, I can not take total credit for this story, all the credit goes to the wonderful RPG New Clans! Which any of you readers are welcome to join. I only own Shadowpaw, Ravenheart, Amberheart, Falcon, Spike, and Stealthpaw. I would like to give credit to: Greensally whose cat is Healingfeather and the-11th-blackcat, Kittensgonecrazy392, and Redthroat. So how did you like the last chappy? Pretty interesting...? Well enjoy and R&R, or not I don't really care...Ow And I give a extra speciel thinks to The11thblackcat, shes a Awsome Beta, and she rules all
Shadowpaw looked at Healingfeather. "You were knocked into a tree so I pulled you under here," he explained. Healingfeather looked at him once more before slipping into unconsciousness again. Shadowpaw watched Healingfeather, he was growing sleepy but he knew he must not sleep, for if he slept he might never wake. Slowly, he crept out of the bush and found the clearing empty, except for two dead foxes. Where did every one go? Shadowpaw thought, going back into the bush.
A short time later, Raincloud appeared with a pile of herbs. She looked at Healingfeather. "Too much blood loss. Over-exhaustion. I never trained her to fight foxes!" she whispered to herself under her breath. Shadowpaw looked worried, no matter how much blood he too, had lost.
"Can I help?" Shadowpaw asked.
"I'm... not... sure..." Raincloud said as she tried to cover the worst injuries with cobwebs.
Healingfeather could hear voices around her, she moved slightly trying to open her eyes a second time, which proved to be quite difficult. When she finally did it, she saw that she was still under the bush, Raincloud was now there.
"Rain...cloud," she murmured trying to sit up. Shadowpaw brightened up a little bit, his green eyes still held concern, but they also held anger, and something else as well...
"Oh, thank StarClan!" Raincloud cried as she heard Healingfeather speak. "Don't get up. Stay down, you don't need to move."
Shadowpaw sighed. "Do you need me to get anything? Water? Something...?" Shadowpaw asked again. Even though he was exhausted, he still wanted to make sure Healingfeather was alright and well. Healingfeather obeyed her mentor and layed back down.
"Is everyone... alright?" Shadowpaw heard Healingfeather ask. Shadowpaw nodded.
"Every one is fine," he meowed gently, Healingfeather was about to reply when Shadowpaw suddenly grew angry at her. "What were you thinking, coming back?! Did you want to die!?" he snarled.
"What was I thinking!? What were you thinking, trying to take on two full grown foxes by yourself, you could've died!" Healingfeather snarled right back standing on her feet, ignoring her protesting limbs.
"But I didn't! I saved your life, and Sparklekit's!" Shadowpaw meowed eyes blazing.
"I'm really grateful for that," Healingfeather meowed.
"Trying to kill yourself is a pretty stupid way of showing it," Shadowpaw countered.
Raincloud stood up. "If you two are done and okay, we should get back to camp..."
Shadowpaw glared at Healingfeather one more time before limping away to camp. Why do I feel this way? I shouldn't be caring for her that way, she's a medicine cat. I can't love her, I just can't. It won't turn out, just like it won't turn out for Greystorm...but what if it does? Then is there hope for me and Healingfeather? Shadowpaw thought, shaking his head. He looked over his shoulder to see Healingfeather falling slowly behind him.
Shadowpaw stopped and let her keep up.
It's no use, worrying about this now. She probably doesn't feel the same way. I should be padding after Mudpaw, not a medicine cat. All three cats finally arrived at the camp.
Healingfeather kept her head down as she followed Shadowpaw and Raincloud back. Why did Shadowpaw just burst out at her like that? She didn't want him to get hurt, she didn't want him to die, she would be heartbroken if...Wait! Did she like Shadowpaw more than a clan mate? She couldn't, she had made a promise to Starclan... She couldn't, but why was she having feelings for him? It didn't matter though, he probably didn't feel that way about her...Healingfeather was thinking as she followed her clan mates, she looked up for a brief second to see that Shadowpaw was waiting for her to catch up, she sped up to walk with him back to camp.
The trio got to back to camp, Shadowpaw waited for Healingfeather to go in first. He noticed that she looked back at him. There was something in her eyes that made Shadowpaw's heart beat faster, Shadowpaw shook his black head. Pull your self together she doesn't like you...I think...No, if she liked you she wouldn't've chosen to be a medicine cat...She was already a medicine cat before she knew you...Stop this right now, the only way you can stop this agony is telling her how you feel...Shadowpaw argued with himself.
"Thank Starclan you're alright!" Greystorm came rushing over to the apprentices.
Greystorm! That's it! He alone should know how it feels to love someone that is against the warrior code! Shadowpaw looked up at his mentor. Greystorm's eyes were filled with relief. "You were so brave, but also very mouse brained," his mentor scowled. Shadowpaw shook his head not bothering to explain why he'd left without Greystorm.
"I need to talk to you about something later," Shadowpaw meowed. Healingfeather crept past Shadowpaw and his mentor. Her own mentor was following her.
Raincloud stopped, "Shadowpaw you need to go to our den so Healingfeather can check out your wounds." Shadowpaw nodded, giving a final look to his mentor, who had a curious look about his face, before padding to the Medicine cat den.
Healingfeather was already in the medicine cat den. Raincloud had told her she had to help her check out everyone who was in the fight with the foxes...
That would mean she had to check Shadowpaw. Although, she didn't wanted to, she needed time by herself to think. She couldn't understand why she was having these feelings. In the back of her mind she knew it was wrong. She had promised Starclan she would put her clan first, but she couldn't stop feeling this way. She had been like this for a long time, it was only now that she was releasing it.
Healingfeather looked up when she heard Shadowpaw come in. She gulped and walked over.
"Here let me have a look at you," she murmured, checking for any major injuries. The only wound being the deep cut that ran along his back. "Lay down I'm going to get some cobweb," she said. Shadowpaw obeyed and lay down on the bed of moss, she went to the back of the hollow, picking up a large portion of cobweb she walked back out.
Carefully she applied the cobweb along Shadowpaw's deep cut not saying anything. Minutes later, she stepped back. "There you go. You're welcome," she said walking out of the hollow before he could say anything. She needed to be alone. Healingfeather ran out of the camp, right past Raincloud's and Greystorm's confused look. She ran all the way to the high rock that sat just near the edge of their territory. Then she layed down and looked up at the sky. It was pink with faint, orange streaks due to the setting sun. She sighed deeply.
"Staclan please tell me why I feel this way about Shadowpaw..." she whispered into the sky hoping for some type of answer from her ancestors.
Shadowpaw sighed with relief. He was glad Healingfeather didn't want to talk, he wasn't sure if he could handle that right now. Shadowpaw heaved himself to his paws and walked slowly out of the medicine cat den. Stopped at the entrance because he wanted to savour Healingfeather's sweet scent. After he realized what he was doing he shook his head.
She's a medicine cat, I'm not allowed to have feeling for her ...So? Greystorm is a LeopardClan warrior that's in love with a TigerClan cat. Why aren't you allowed to be in love with a she-cat in your own clan?...She's a medicine cat ,not a warrior. It doesn't matter if anyone else besides me and her and Greystorm find out about my feelings. I can be kicked out right?...Is it so wrong? Shadowpaw thought about it all as he made his way to his mentor.
"Greystorm I really need to talk to you," the apprentice murmured to his mentor.
Greystorm looked confused. "What's wrong?" he asked.
Shadowpaw shook his head. "Can we go somewhere else to talk?" he meowed glancing from side to side, he felt like every cat in the clan was staring at him.
Healingfeather looked down at her paws, it was getting late. Above all things she didn't want to get in trouble for being missing from camp. With her head and tail low she slowly made her way down from the rock, Starclan must be angry at her...
She walked through the forest hearing a little mouse, she sighed and went into a crouching position leaping on the mouse ending its life quickly, at least she would have an excuse now...
Healingfeather made her way into camp again walking over to the fresh kill pile, leaving her mouse there and picking up a smaller one. She took one bite from it, twisting her nose. She didn't feel like eating, she looked up and saw Shadowpaw with Greystrom. She crouched down in the shadows that were now forming, hoping he wouldn't see her. He probably didn't have feelings for her, he was in love with Mudpaw... That's the way it should be, Healingfeather thought as she watched the apprentice and mentor. Unnoticed by any of the other cats she went into the medicine hollow lying on her bed of moss. She closed her eyes, hoping for a dream from Starclan to tell her what was right.
Shadowpaw waited for Greystorm to speak first, but when he didn't Shadowpaw blurted out, "I'm in love with Healingfeather." Shadowpaw lowered his head waiting for some kind of harsh words from Greystorm, but when they didn't come Shadowpaw looked up.
Greystorm looked shocked. "Well at least she's from the same clan," he purred trying to ease the tension.
Shadowpaw shook his head. "But she's a medicine cat, she's not allowed to love. I don't even know if she feels the same way. What should I do?" the apprentice wailed quietly. Greystorm thought for a moment
"Tell her how you feel," he meowed gently.
Shadowpaw shook his head. "What if... she... feels the same way? What will the clan think? Will they kick us out?" Shadowpaw shook his head again. "I don't want Healingfeather to get kicked out. That will hurt her so much," Shadowpaw meowed quietly.Shadowpaw shook his head again and looked in his mentor's soft face. "You know what? I don't care what the clan thinks. If Healingfeather feels the same way, then she should be allowed to love, even if it means being kicked out."
He walked away, not waiting to hear Greystorm's reply. Shadowpaw got all the way to the medicine cat den's entrance before he had second thoughts about telling her. Talking a deep breath, Shadowpaw shook all doubts out of his head, he took another deep breath and walked towards Healingfeather.
Healingfeather looked up when she heard someone coming, it was Shadowpaw. Healingfeather sat up giving herself a quick lick. Just tell him how you feel, it will make these feelings go away when he says he doesn't love you, she thought to herself as he stopped in front of her, she could feel his wonderful green eyes looking at her. She took a deep breath and looked up at Shadowpaw.
"Shadowpaw..." Healingfeather began before the black tom could. "There's been something I've been wanting to tell you for a while now..." she trailed off looking down at her paws.
Shadowpaw looked at Healingfeather, his heart felt like it was beating a million times faster.
"Am I interrupting something?" a voice cut in, making both apprentices jump.
"Um, I just wanted to talk to Shadowpaw," Healingfeather answered, Shadowpaw looked back down at the ground. Does she know...did she guess? Shadowpaw thought quickly.
"I think I'll just walk away now." Raincloud said, sending a knowing look in Healingfeather's direction. Raincloud shuffled out making a lot of noise as she did. Shadowpaw watched Raincloud go he waited until she was out off ear shot. Shadowpaw looked back at Healingfeather.
"Um, can I speak first, while I still have the confidence to?" he meowed quietly staring at Healingfeather.
Healingfeather looked surprised. "Um... sure," she meowed back.
Shadowpaw was silent for a little, then he suddenly blurted out, "I'm in love with you." Shadowpaw looked straight at Healingfeather waiting for some kind of reaction. Oh, I hope she loves me too... Shadowpaw waited for the answer.A look of disbelief crossed Healingfeather's face. That's it she doesn't love me...Shadowpaw thought sadly, but his ears pricked right up when he heard Healingfeather's response.
"I love you too" she gasped.
(Shadowpaw: You would belive how happy I was when I heard Healingfeather say that, I felt like I...wait...I can't even explain the emotion I felt.
Healingfeather: I would have to say the same...we both knew it was wrong but...could you blame us?)