A/N: aahhhhhh I have good news! Since my parents got a new computer, the old one came into the basement. Believe me, I will update more now. Its annoying when someone is leaning over your shoulder. Annnywaaay, enjoy, and REVIEW.

Bella Pov:

I stood there, arms crossed, eyes narrowed.

"I do not have anywhere else to go." I spoke through clenched teeth to Billy and Jacob. Jacob spoke, his eyes full of pain.

"Strict orders, Bella. The pack hates you." He was upset, and I saw his pain grow as his eyes flickered down to my hand. The amethyst ring caught the light.

"It wasn't my fault." I whispered. Both looked a little shocked.

"Did you think I planned this? So you think I wanted this. That vampire was not my friend. I wanted youJake, no one else. I love you. I will always love you. Please." I said, and Jake and Billy locked eyes for a moment.

"That changes it." Said Billy as Jake stepped outside, most likely to communicate with the pack. I gave Billy a small smile.

"I'm still Bella, Billy. Maybe a monster changed me, but I am not one. I have done nothing wrong. I had fed on a deer before I came her. I do not want to eat you." He still sat silent in his chair. "Look Billy," I continued, now talking softer. "How's Charlie? I know he got back… what did you tell him?" Billy looked at me, his eyes full of pain. All he ever wanted was to keep me safe.

"I told him…" he started slowly, "That you and Jake went camping. He said to tell you he loves you and he questioned about the note. I told him you ate a bad taco. He laughed." He said that bitterly, then continued, "And I didn't go fishing, because I had a cold. He went with the new man, Tom Jacobs. He lives alone, so Charlie figured he would invite him." I felt pain well in my heart.

"How are you going to break my death? What lie will you feed him?" I said, my voice low, trying to restrain from an endless dry sobbing. He sighed, and his old hands shook. His eyes were wet with silent tears.

"Bella, it is going to break him. I… think… how about a bear mauling?" My mouth fell open. It was so cruel, yet… probable.

"No remains." I whispered. Billy nodded, and the front door swung open, Jacob storming in

"Bella. You are stinking up the place. One night. That is all Sam is giving you. In the morning, you leave." He said, not looking at me. I nodded; resisting the urge to fall to the ground, dry sobbing. But then I remembered something.

"I don't sleep." I whispered.

"Watch TV." Jacob answered, "Or leave. I don't give a cp." I nodded, and sat on the couch. Billy handed me the remote, and wheeled off to his bedroom. I glanced at the clock, realizing it was 11:30. I flicked on the TV, and pretended not to notice Jacob's lingering. After a minute, he left, and I was free to let go. I dry sobbed until about 4:00 am, when a creaking of a door alerted me. I looked up. Jacob.

"Yes Jacob?" I asked, trying to pretend I hadn't just lost my composure. He stepped a little closer.

"Bella, I just… can't." The blank look was gone, replaced by pain. I looked away.

"I'm sorry." He whispered and fled. After a second, I stood up and left.

Into the cool air of the night, all my pain and fears rolled back to me. Fell, like the rain that hit my face. I wanted to scream out, but couldn't speak. The dew clung to my shoes.

Edward. The name called to me, and I so desperately wanted him. But I remembered the scene of the bathroom. I erased Edward.

Jacob. Always has been my savior. Now this. He couldn't stand it. He couldn't be near me; just to allow himself to love me for a second would have killed him.

Two men I had loved. Two men I love. The two men I would only love. A drop of rain rolled down my face. It was like a tear.

I was done walking. I wanted to feel the speed beneath my feet. Phoenix. My bank account, accessed by a code. All you had to do was find your box, put in the code and you would be able to get your money.

I took a small step and began running. Leaving behind Edward. Goodbye. My feet moved faster as I imagined kissing him goodbye. Bittersweet. Goodbye Jake. I ground my feet into the ground harder.

Good bye everyone.

I love you.

A/N: not crazy about this chapter. Review