A/N: sorry I didn't update… my little friend came to visit. LOL I hope you guys got that. Anyway, here is the newest chappie for the week (maybe!). I need your opinion my peeps! The next chappie there will be a snippet of a song! Should Edward a) hear it on the radio or b) should it be a little intro. You pick! Enjoy!

BELLA POV

You should have seen the Cullen's faces. They barged in, all ready to fight. Here I am, calmly snuggling with a werewolf (my boyfriend, but they don't know that…). Alice marched over, pulled me off his lap and flung me behind her. I ended up being thrown into Esme, who smiled at me, but it didn't reach her furiously black eyes.

Alice was screaming profanities down to a sitting Jacob's face, and then up to his chest as he stood. Alice growled between every few words, and the rest of the Cullens strode up to stand defensively behind her.

"Guys!" I cried, throwing myself in between Alice and Jacob. "Calm yourself! Esme, Carlisle, Jasper, Emmett, Rosalie, and Alice, you were gone awhile. Edward knows already, but we all need to talk." Everyone stared at me in shock. I had my hands on my hips, and I knew I had a furious expression on my face.

"I mean really! Technically, everyone in here is older then me! Even Jacob! He has grown not physically, but everything else has grown!" (A/N: NOT IN A GROSS WAY!) "Sit!" I cried. Emmett pulled Rose into his lap, and so did Jasper to Alice. Esme and Carlisle stood, until I motioned to the chair. I plopped on top of Jacob.

"Look, all of you. A lot has changed since you guys left. I started dating Jacob and-" Emmett cut me off.

"Do you love him?" I knew I had to tell him. I turned to face Jacob.

"Yes… I love him so much..." I whispered with intense feeling. The joy in his eyes was unmasked. He leaned forward to kiss me, but I turned back to the table. He kissed my hair.

"Now, as I was saying, I started dating Jacob. I knew it was going to be ok because I heard a voice. Edward's voice saying 'Be Happy' and… I knew I had heard it somewhere but…" Edward spoke his eyes pained.

"When you became unconscious, you were so deep in the woods… I carried you a little bit back, but I heard the search party. That was the last thing I said to you before I left." A lump rose in my throat. This was when I realized something… 2/3 of me loved Jake… but the other 1/3… Edward…

I needed to breathe to think. I needed reassurance… but the Cullens needed the truth.

"So basically when you left I was 'dead'. I had no purpose… Jake saved me… I love him, and then when I was busy picking up the pieces of what was left of my heart and my life… a knock on my window made all the pieces disappear. Maybe I can find them again… Who knows…?" I said regret filling my tone. If they stayed away, then…

"He was in your room." Jacob… He had stiffened behind me. He had made a statement, not a question.

"You let him in." This wasn't a question either. I spoke, my voice weak and trembling.

"We fought. I called Charlie in. Charlie almost shot Edward… but…. Nothing happened! I swear!" I couldn't lose Jacob, not now, no no no! He chuckled darkly, not really laughing.

"I'm going to kill you!" he cried, flying up. I fell down towards the floor. Esme, sitting closest to me, was already out of her seat. I made contact with her hard arms. Jake and Edward's eyes were locked.

"Wait no!" I cried. They ignored me. I watched as Jake phased, and Edward snarled. Jake roared as he leapt towards Edward. I gasped.

"Stop! Guys! Please!" I cried, tears threatening to overflow. Esme placed me on the floor, sensing I didn't want to be touched. It seemed Emmett was standing up to go towards the fight.

"No!!! You guys will kill him!" My silent tears fell harder as Jasper and Carlisle strode towards the fight. It was a blur. A strangled sob escaped my mouth, and the fighting ceased. Edward and Jake, both with concern and sorrow in their eyes walked towards me.

"Go away!" I said, and walked defeated towards the stairs. "I'll miss you all. Esme, Carlisle, Jasper, Alice, Emmett, Rose..." I froze when Rose spoke.

"Remember Bella, we love you." That somehow made me sadder. I knew I was going to hurt all of the Cullen's with my choice but… I loved Jacob. Nothing could change that. Nothing.

"Thanks." My voice cracked, and I turned and gave them all hugs goodbye. Minus Edward and Jacob. I was too mad at them. I watched them file out the door, and suddenly Edward turned. He spoke with a passion. He honestly believed I might come back!

"I love you, Isabella Marie Swan. I always will. I am not leaving Forks until I give up on you." I was afraid to know the answer.

"When is that?"

"Never." He spoke with an honest face and tone. I couldn't believe that he thought that.

"It's a waste of time." I said sadly. He shook his head, the fire of determination blazing.

"No, Bella. You are worth everything." I shook my head, and when I looked up, I saw Edward was gone.

A/N: Hello my peeps! If anyone will be my beta or if anyone knows someone to be my beta, will you please please PLEASE let me know!