(I don't do disclaimers... Disclaimer: I don't own any of the characters. sobs But, if you touch Jazzy (Jasper) YOU DIE!! K, done with the disclaimer... wait. I do own the baby currently growing in Bella's womb.)

Chapter 6-When will my life start?

I guess I wasn't completely alone. Alice was hugging my side, whispering something, but I didn't know what. My mind was cloudy, and I felt like I had when Edward left me after my eighteenth birthday. Like a zombie. I remember being told that the first week of those months I didn't eat. I hoped that I wouldn't do something like that, I needed the food more than anything now. She got up on that thought and walked over to the kitchen. She didn't know that Edward hadn't left the house and turned back around and left. But not before seeing him leave through the back door.

"Bella? Bella, are you alright?" Alice was in front of me and I slid to the floor.

"No... I need food... Edward was in the kitchen. I had to leave, but he left too." I knew that if I didn't stop myself soon I would start hyperventalating.

"I'll go get it. Go sit on the couch. I'll help you as long as you need it. I'll be right back." She left me sitting there, but I got back up and walked to the couch. By the end of the week. My life should start at the end of the week.

When will my life start? It's been two weeks since he left. I guess that since Alice was here, it was easier to stand it, but it wasn't something that I enjoyed.

"Anything?" I had asked that question too many times to count recently. The answer was always the same. Just as it was now.

"I'm sorry, Bella. Just give him some time." His name hadn't been spoken since I had seen him in the kitchen. I didn't understand why one day Alice said by the end of the month, and now we're still waiting for him. Two weeks later...

I sighed. When was he coming back? He would ask if something was alright, if I was sure when I told him to go hunting, asking if I would need him. And now I needed him more than ever. I wanted him to just walk through that door, or for Alice to see him coming. We had no idea where he was. He could be with Carlisle, or in Italy.

I listened to that first possibility. "Hey, Alice, can I use your phone?"

"Yeah, sure." She handed me the phone. Why hadn't she seen me calling Forks? I didn't focus on that and dialed the number. I knew that if I had used the home phone and if he was there, than he wouldn't have answered. If it was Alice, though... The phone started ringing.

"What do you want, Alice?" It was my angel. He sounded irritated still. "Alice? If you want to convince me to go back and see that..." He sighed angrily. "I can't even call her a name..." He whispered. "I want to see her so bad, but it's obvious that she doesn't love me..."

"Don't think that. Don't ever think that." I was afraid of what his reaction might be.

"Bella? Oh my god, Bella, I am so sorry. I shouldn't have yelled at you, it's just... you can't be pregnant by me." His voice was filled with regret, like he wanted to have children of his own. Though why he wouldn't believe me made sense, and yet it didn't all at the same time.

"Come back home..." I whispered.

"I can't now... just let the father take care of you and the child. I love you... I always have and always will." I heard the dial tone. I started crying and asked Alice to call him. I heard a quick beeping as I tried to calm myself, and I noticed that she had the phone on speaker.

"Yes?" Edward sounded like he had been dry sobbing, which made the tears flow faster, but I was silent.

"Edward, Bella needs you here. She has to force herself to eat when she thinks that you hate her." She went straight for the point.

"Oh, yeah, I need to eat again, don't I? What time is it?" I had forgotten to eat today.

"It's noon, sweetheart. Eat something, now." Alice said. I nodded and made some toast and eggs and came back into the living room with my plate.

"And where is the father, then?" Said Edward. I sobbed at that. "Alice, do you have me on speaker?"

"Maybe... and as far as we are aware of, the father is in Forks. I do believe that his name is Edward Anthony Ma-"

"Alice! I can't have children... But... I'll come back." He hung up again and I chewed my toast silently. I wondered if I had lost any weight. I decided to go look.

"Oh... you lost some weight, Bella. Edward isn't going to be too happy about that." Of course. She would have seen it as soon as I decided.

"Sorry..." I murmered. I ate the rest of my brunch and cleaned my dishes. Then I heard the door bell. Why didn't he just open the door? I raced to answer it, but Alice was there first. The door was opened, and there he was. I started crying at the sight of him.

"Bella..." He whispered.

"Two weeks is too long. Especially when you're mad at me." He walked over to me and hugged me, and I breathed in the smell that no one else could hold. I just cried into his shoulder after that.

(How did I do? It took me 3 hours to write this chapter because I was so distracted. And, I know, Edward came back soon. But I can't write something without him. It was hard to read New Moon because he isn't there most of the time... REVIEW!! The little button is your friend... smiles maniacally wait... is that a word?)