I could never get used to this. Every time it seemed like something had changed. Even if the tiniest bit, I still memorized it. Every little thing. I couldn't help but love the sensation he gave me every time I saw him. It was almost like he poisoned me. Poisoned me with his charm. Poisoned me without even knowing it.

Did he have this effect on everyone he met? They would fall in to a deep trance like I had many years ago? His powers over me always seemed to surprise me. He could get me to do anything he wished.

And as I watched the sun set behind the line of the sea that kept us trapped on this island. I couldn't help but think of my future. Would it be any different than it was now? Would I actually end up with Sora in the end? Or would he slip from my fingers like everything else did?

And then I started to wonder… Would Sora be happy? Would being without me make him even happier then he was right now? Was there even a reason for me to be here right now?

I quickly pushed that thought out of my head. I was here with Sora. He had asked me to come. He had wanted me here. For comfort? Or was it something deeper than that?

I closed my eyes as a smile crossed my face. The thought of it being deeper than I thought made my spirits brighten up. There would always be that voice in my head saying I actually had a chance.

Those four weeks I have alone would surely help my chances also. But I did have a lot to plan. I know I didn't want him over every second. I'd give him enough time to miss me then invite him back.

I couldn't stop myself from yawning. I haven't gotten a good night sleep in awhile. Sora was clouding my dreams too much, turning them in to wet ones.

"You can't be tired already." I turned my head to see Sora smiling at me. Gods, and that smile. Another reason I can barely keep my hands off of him.

I returned the smile eagerly. "Afraid so. Too many things going on." Not that I was too busy to come here.

"Oh?" He gave me a puzzled look. "I don't remember you being busy."

I couldn't help but chuckle slightly at that. "And I don't remember you knowing my schedule."

"You don't tell me anything anymore." He pouted. I couldn't tell him anything that went through my head. I always involved him naked and begging for more.

"Since when have you been so obsessed with knowing things about me?" I cocked an eyebrow. Maybe he had more secrets than I knew.

I saw him blush and look away. "W-Well. I just thought… that maybe you had some secret you weren't telling me." His gaze still hid from me.

More than you know, Sora. More than you know. "Like what?" I had to ask. Seeing him get flustered like that always secretly aroused me.

"I don't know. Maybe you were dating someone?" It came out as more of a question. I never thought I would hear Sora ask me that. So I decided to tease him a little.

"I didn't tell you?" I said in a fake surprising tone. He wasn't always the best at picking out lies.

"No!" He turned his body towards me. "When did this happen!" I held back a laugh.

"Oh about a year ago. Yeah, we're really serious." I saw his eyes go wide.

"And you didn't tell me! I thought we were best friends!" His voice sounded so stunned. A little sad maybe.

"You weren't always the brightest Sora. You never could tell lies from the real thing. Remember you always lost at that one lie and two truths game."

He frowned. "You're a jerk." He mumbled. Damn, I always seemed to go too far.

"I'm sorry. I just couldn't resist." I saw him jump from the tree he was sitting on. No, don't leave.

He walked past me but I grabbed his wrist. I felt him tense at the touch. But as much as I wanted to let him go and not hurt him I pulled him backwards in to my chest.

My arms wrapped around his sides and held him securely. I'd be damned if I let him go so quickly. "Sora…" I breathed. I felt him shiver.

"R-Riku… Let go…" His voice was shaky. I probably wasn't helping with my lips so close to his ear.

"I'm sorry. I didn't mean to hurt you." I whispered lovingly in to his ear.

I finally felt him relax slightly to my touch. His body fit so perfectly with mine. If only I could feel that friction better. His skin on my skin. Moving together, creating more pleasure by the moment.

I felt myself getting hard, so I quickly let him go. What would he say if he knew I felt this way? That a single thought about him would make me crave him even more.

"Leave." I didn't mean it to be a command. I wanted it to sound more like 'You can leave now'.

But he took it the wrong way, I couldn't blame him. "But I don't want to." I heard him whisper then dart off before I could stop him again.

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I stumbled home. The throbbing took over my mind along with Sora. Gods I had been so mean to him. Without even thinking I made everything bad.

I closed the door behind me and dropped to the floor. My mom had left for the airport before I left the house to go meet Sora to watch the sunset. I was all along which is what I needed.

I quickly unbuttoned my pants and slipped out of them, kicking them away from me. My hands shook with anticipation as I yanked off my boxers and tossed them away like my pants.

I let a gasp escape my mouth as the cool air touched my heated skin. I was completely hard just from a thought about Sora. I was slowly getting used to what he was doing to me.

I gripped my throbbing member harshly, holding back a cry of pain. I hurt Sora badly. I deserved to feel some of that pain back, even if it was the opposite kind of hurt.

I pumped myself a few times, letting the pleasure engulf my whole body. "A-Ah…" I couldn't help but let a few moans slip from my mouth to echo off the walls of my empty house.

"Nnngh…" My head fell back against the door as I picked up my pace, feeling my climax closing. I felt my lips form in to a frown. As much as should have been enjoying this I couldn't help but think of Sora. I had been such an idiot. He probably hated me.

I rubbed my thumb over the slit on the head of my member, moaning out at the sensation. I continually bucked up in to my hand, forcing my thumb to press in to the slit.

"Gods… Nnngh…" I scrapped my fingernails along the sensitive skin underneath my erection. "S-Sora!" I yelled out, bashing my head off the door.

As my hand pumped along my cock, my other hand found its way under my shirt. I moaned as my fingers twisted one of my nipples, forcing myself to buck up my hips again. The top of my finger rolled my nub, making it harden. My fingers trailed over to my other nipple, giving it the same treatment.

"Sora! Sora!" I moaned as I reached my climax, releasing over all over my hand and the floor. I breathed harshly as I hummed Sora's name to myself. I always did love his name.

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Why did people always like to know things before others did? Popularity wasn't so great. Just a burden to me. You never get left alone. All these snotty girls always around you.

I shivered at the memory. I was fairly popular at school. Well, popular with the girls. And don't forget, I hate them. Their always so perky and well, bitchy. But I suppose that's just my opinion. Some boys do fall in love with them. Poor guys.

But I couldn't help but be curious when I saw a group of kids on the beach. There were never that many people on the beach at the same time. Tidus, Selphie, Wakka were there. Some kids I remembered from school.

I walked closer to the group, tapping the back of Selphie's shoulder. "What's going on?" I asked as she turned around to face me.

"You didn't hear?!" What? What didn't I hear? If there was a party I was missing someone was going to get hurt. "I thought you would be the first to know." She shrugged.

I shook her a little too hard for her comfort. "Well I don't so tell me!" Wow, I think some of Sora's whining rubbed off on to me.

"Sora got a boyfriend! And he's so sexy!" She squealed, before turning back to the group.

I felt my body stiffen. Sora got a… boyfriend? And it's not me? When did this happen? And how did it happen? I was almost positive he had the same feelings as I did. He wouldn't spend so much time with me if he didn't.

I pushed my way through the crowd till I saw my little Angel standing there with a blush over his cheeks. Gods he so cute. I saw his body tense when we met eyes. "Riku…"

I quickly grabbed his wrist and dragged him out of the mob of people, telling people to back off. "What's going on here?" I wanted to hear it from his own lips.

"Umm… People found out that I… had a boyfriend." His body flinched. Whoa, I've never seen him flinch that bad. Was that because of last night?

"When did this happen?" I finally let go of his wrist, afraid to scare him more than he was.

"Not long ago." I felt tears start to gather in my eyes. I backed away from him; I couldn't let him see me so emotional like this. I never cried in front of everyone.

"Hey! Back away from my boyfriend!" I heard a voice say from behind me before I was pulled away. "He's mine, so keep your horny little hands off of him."

I blinked a few times. I must be dreaming because this guy had red spiky hair. And not natural red hair, it was blood red. And his eyes were the brightest green I've ever seen! Ok so I could see what Selphie had said. He was sexy.

His arm wrapped around Sora's waist and pulled him closer. My teeth clenched together. No one touched Sora like that, not even me.

"Axel… This is Riku. He's a friend of mine." It didn't seem like I was just a friend of yours when you were jacking off.

"Sorry man. I kinda get carried away some times. Sora's too cute to be left alone." The man smiled, flashing his white teeth.

"No, I understand." I said through my teeth. I don't ever remember seeing him at school. Whoever he was I didn't like him already. I had a bad feeling about him. He didn't seem like a good choice for my Angel.

"The name's Axel, got it memorized?" Excuse my language but, what the fuck? Did he have mental problems?

"Riku." I responded, my mind already thinking of a plan to bash him.

I turned and started to walk away. No need for me here anymore. I was just going to go home and maybe eat a few tubs of ice cream to take my mind off of this.

"Riku! Are you going to watch the sunset with me tonight?" Sora yelled after me.

I felt my eyes gather with tears again. If he wanted me so much why did he find someone else? Was this all just a game to him? "I'm busy tonight."

With that I left. Left Sora, Axel, and the beach to go home. Love was painful. Probably the most painful thing I've ever encountered. My heart was throbbing as it slowly and painfully ripped in two.