I woke up the next morning. Events from last night flooding my mind. I knew Axel was a bad choice. He didn't understand Sora like I did. He didn't know how he felt.

I sat up with a small groan. My back hurt, I hadn't slept on the couch in years. I just hope Sora was feeling better. But I knew he'd have a horrible hangover.

I stood up, rubbing my eyes. I walked in to the kitchen and filled a glass of water. I made my way back in to my room where Sora was. I knocked on the door quietly; if he was sleeping I didn't want to wake him up.

When I didn't hear an answer I opened the door softly. "Sora? Are you awake?" I whispered.

I heard him groan from the bed. Yep he was awake, and regretting it. I walked in to the room and closed the door behind me. He was currently on my stomach with his head buried in to the pillow.

"Good afternoon, Sora." I smiled at him. He was cute even with a hangover.

He groaned again. "Uhhh… Why do you have to be so loud?" I couldn't help but chuckle.

"Well maybe you'll remember that next time you go to a bar." I sat down on the edge of the bed.

"Bar? I don't remember go to a bar. What did you do?" He lifted his head from the pillow to look at me. He looked even worse than last night. The bags under his eyes were deeper. He could barely keep his eyes open and there was a blush across his cheeks, I assumed from a small fever.

I handed him the glass of water in my hand. "Why don't you go ask your boyfriend." I had to look away. I felt my face tighten with anger, but I couldn't let Sora see that.

"Axel?" I nodded and turned my head back to see him drinking the water. He pulled the glass away from his lips and set it down on the nightstand. "Riku, I'm sorry." Gods my name from his lips still made me shiver. "I would of told you sooner it's just…"

"No it's fine." I stood up and walked to the other side of the room. I picked up his pants and boxers and tossed it to him. "You might want to put these on."

I scrunched his eyebrows at me. He peeked under the blankets and his eyes widened in embarrassment. The blush across his face deepened. He grabbed his clothes, his eyes refusing to look at me.

"Nothing… happened did it?" I wished something did. Last night was probably the only chance for me to sleep with Sora. He wasn't even mad at Axel for getting him drunk. Maybe he loved him so much that he forgave him.

I felt my features drop in sadness. I wanted so badly to have Sora forgive me like that. I now regret everything I did to him. The help for tying the rope, pulling him closer, and the kiss. If I knew this was how things would turn out then I would have never done any of it. I'd just love him from afar like I had so many years.

"No." I answered, turning away and walking to the door.

"Riku… I—" He stopped himself. I turned around to face him. His gaze looked down. "Thanks."

I closed my eyes for a moment and took a deep breath. He always made it so hard to not jump him. "Anytime Sora. Anytime."

I turned away from him and walked out of the room.

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It was three o'clock when Sora came out of my bedroom. I was sitting on the couch trying to watch TV. I assumed that his hangover had gotten better and his head didn't hurt as much.

He walked over to me. His eyes looked red and… puffy. I immediately sat up. "What's wrong?" I asked.

He jumped on me, sending me back in to a laying position. His arms wrapped around my sides in a kind of hug. His head buried in my chest. I heard him whimper. He was… crying.

"I'm so sorry, Riku." He said over and over again.

I closed my eyes; my hand came up and stroked his disheveled hair. He felt bad. But I couldn't stay mad at him. He was too cute. I wasn't even mad at him in the first place. I was concerned.

"Shhh… It's ok Sora. Don't cry." I said soothingly in his ear. "There's nothing to be sorry about." I continued to stroke his soft hair. Just the feeling of him was making me lose control.

I heard him sniffle. At least he had stopped crying. I couldn't stand to hear him cry. When he cried I knew his heart had broke. Sora was supposed to be hyper. Crying didn't suit him.

"I'm sorry. He mumbled in to my shirt.

I sighed. "Sora… You don't need to apologize. I should be apologizing… I'm sorry Sora."

If felt him smile in to me. I closed my own eyes and smiled. Gods, Sora could make me cry, smile, and laugh all in the same day.

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I didn't even know I had fallen asleep. But when I opened my eyes I didn't see Sora lying on me like he was when I had dozed off. Maybe it was a dream?

I sat up on the couch with a groan. My back was killing me. That was definitely the last time I'd be sleeping on the couch. I stood up, searching the room for any sign of Sora.

Until I spotted a piece of paper on the kitchen counter. I walked over and picked it up, scanning over it:

Riku-

Sorry I had to leave so soon. Something came up. I hope we'll be able to watch the sunset together tonight. That is if you don't sleep too late. Thanks again for helping me. I can always count on you.

-Sora

I placed the note back on to the counter, quickly wiping the smile on my face. I'm so desperate sometimes.

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I smiled to myself. There he was, sitting on the tree like he did ever evening. He had waited for me. Maybe he was as desperate as me. But that still didn't explain why he had a boyfriend.

"Hey Sora." I smiled to him as I took my position against the tree. The sun was slowly setting, the sky turning different colors. It was truly gorgeous.

"It's beautiful isn't it… Riku?" It was the same line Kairi used on him. But it seemed so different. More gentle and loving. It didn't even sound like a pick up line the way he said it.

"Sure is, Sora." I crossed my arms over my chest. Lately things have been bothering me. Things related with Sora especially. Things just weren't going my way lately.

"Hey, Sora?" I decided to take a chance.

"Hmmm?" Even a simple hum from his lips made my giddy. I didn't even know that was possible.

"Can… I ask you a question?" I saw him turn towards me. But I refused to look at him.

"Of course, Riku. What is it?" Please… Stop saying my name through your perfect lips. I can't take much more of it.

"Why Axel?" I forced out. I'm lucky I didn't choke.

He frowned slightly at me. No, don't give me that face. Don't make me more depressed. I don't want to hurt you. I just care. There were so many things I wanted to tell him. But I knew I couldn't.

"What do you mean?" He finally asked.

"Why did you pick Axel?" Again I felt tears. Gods, I never remembered being this emotional over Sora. Well he never did have a boyfriend. There were way better people for him then Axel. Like me for example.

"Riku…" My name. "You wouldn't understand if I told you." I turned towards him. I couldn't believe what he was telling me.

"What? I wouldn't understand? How do you know! You could at least try!" I stopped myself before I went any further. I had started to yell. "Sorry." I mumbled turning away from him again.

"Riku…"

"I have to go." He needs to stop breathing my name like that. One word with such love shouldn't be my name. It should be Axel's, right? He loved him.

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I found myself at our Secret Place. The place everything started. That one kiss, I'll never forget. My first kiss. And with the love of my life. The feelings I felt… I didn't want to lose that sensation.

When did everything go wrong? When did Sora think being with me wasn't good enough? Had he always thought this? That he wouldn't be the happiest with me?

I wanted him so badly. I longed for him. Everything he made me feel. The jealously, depression, happiness… How could one person make me feel all those things in only a few days and not be the right one for me?

I had always thought the love of your life would love you the same way you do them. Then how come it was different with me and Sora. Sora loved Axel. I loved Sora.

Maybe we weren't meant to be. My dreams used to be about me and him loving each other and showing our love for each other. But recently, all my dreams are just one-sided.