Bpov
I still couldn't believe I talked myself into going back up to that house. I kept telling myself that I didn't want to know what he thought about my story or anything like that. I do know that Alice didn't break her promise, and for that I am grateful to her. I know that she will want a shopping expedition as payback. And I am willing to oblige her.
I ran to the window where I heard the music. I knew instantly that it was Edward and he was playing my lullaby. It hurt to know that I missed him playing it for me. And I know that I missed him playing anything for me. But that was not why I was there.
I was there to see if I could get into Edward's head without him knowing I was doing it. I could do it to everyone else in the Cullen family but I wasn't sure about him.
Why didn't she want to stay and let me explain myself to her. I completely regret now not changing her. I never dreamed that I would leave her again. She was and still is my whole world. If she moved on, I will try and be happy for her. I promise myself that I will not go to her no matter how it pains me to do it. I will respect her decision not to see me because I did what I told her I would never do again. I broke her heart once and was forgiven. I know that since I broke it again I will never be forgiven for what I did.
I tried so hard not to make my presence known while listening to him. But I soon realized that Jasper, Emmett and Alice knew I was there. I got stared for a long time. I stared back but never spoke or thought a word to any of them. Just waved and ran as fast as I could home.
I got as far as the meadow and stopped. I couldn't run anymore.
"EDWARD" I screamed
"Edward I am sorry that I didn't have the courage to stay and face you. I truly am. But I know that it is for the best. I am only trying to protect someone more dear to me. Someone dear to us both. And that is the secret I will keep with me forever." I sobbed
I got control of myself and muttered "that's it I'm done with all of this pain. I going home to pack us both up say goodbye to everyone and leave. I'm not going to cry anymore over it. what's done is done and cannot be undone. I have someone I need to worry about more then myself."
I stood up and turned around to leave and stopped. I couldn't move, it felt like I was glued to the ground.
I was staring into the eyes of the person I didn't want to see again. I was looking straight at Edward.
"Bella..??"
Epov
"Bella??" I whispered.
I did not know if she was real or just my imagination playing tricks on me. There she was, my lost angel, my other half, my soul. I just wanted to see if she was real or my imagination. I couldn't move to go find out.
"hello Edward" she whispered back
"oh, Bella, please tell me I am not dreaming. Tell me that you are real."
I took a step forward, and she took one back just as quickly.
"I'm real alright. Believe me." She said angrily "how much did you hear anyway?"
"what do you want me to say I heard?" I asked carefully
she just gave me a look that used to make me smile when she was angry with me. Now I just stared at her in disbelief.
"Edward how much did you hear?" she said through clenched teeth
"I arrived when you were talking about leaving Forks." I muttered
she looked a little relieved but still panicked and angry. It was like she was tying to make sure I didn't know something.
I tried to read her mind wondering if she would let me read her mind, butt I didn't have any luck, I just ended up with a slight headache.
Did you really think I would let you read my mind??
"I can try cant I" I smirked rubbing my temples
"yes you could but your head might hurt more." She replied. "now if you don't mind I have some packing to do remember."
She started to walk passed me, but I caught her arms. When she raised her head I touched mine to her and just stood there. I don't know what I was waiting for but I knew that I was going to wait here forever if I had to.
Bpov
When he grabbed my arms and put is forehead to mine I didn't know what I was going to do. I was stunned because that was all that he did. He just stood there waiting.
The feelings that I started to feel were like long ago whenever he held me in his arms
Flashback
"Bella you will be the death of me"
"get back here I'm not done kissing you yet"
Edward kissed me again his stone arms around me he pulled away for a second and said
"Bella……..breathe"
I don't know what to do now. I did the only thing that I could think of. I looked into his eyes and said something I know I might regret later.
"Edward, I don't love you anymore. Please let me go."
The next thing I knew he dropped his hands from mine and took a few steps backwards.
Epov
I steppe backwards until you could fit two people between us. I didn't know what to say or what to do. I knew that this might happen, that she would say what she said. I just didn't realize that it would hurt as much as it does.
I slowly walked back to her until I was right in front of her. I didn't touch her at all even though I wanted to crush her to me. I did what I could only think of doing. I asked a question.
"you don't love me anymore?"
she took a deep breath and said "no I don't"
it felt like my heart was being ripped out of my chest. I fell to my knees on the ground and looked up at her.
Bpov
When he was on his knees, and looking at me with such anguish and pain. I almost lost it and took it back. I almost said that I was sorry and that I loved him. I just couldn't do that. I couldn't tell him that I was lying. I was trying hard to protect my son from is father and I am being torn in two. But my son is my first priority.
"I am sorry Edward, but you will find someone else to love." I said as flatly as I could.
He just looked at me with sad eyes. I know he wanted to say something but I wouldn't let him because I knew him and what he would say.
"I do not want you anymore." I told him.
I turned and started to walk away but I hit something with a BANG! I knew who it was before I even looked up.
Emmett let me go
No way Jose, not until you tell him your true feelings.
Emmett you do not understand just let me pass. If not you'll just get a bigger bruise.
Bella, just tell him
NO! I need to do this to protect someone
Bella, you know you love him. Let us help you
NO! NO! you can't help. What I just did he will get over. But I know that he will never forgive me for what I am doing to him and to…………….
I turned and ran into another direction before any more of the Cullen's' tried to stop me. I ran as fast and as hard as I could before I started sobbing. I was still sobbing when Jake found me.