Bpov
here goes nothing. I am going to tell him what has happened over the past five years. I hope that he isn't mad at me when I tried to protect Masen. It was for our son's own good.
"Ok Edward this is the story" I smiled a little "just don't get mad"
"Why would I get mad." He questioned. "I would never get mad at you." He then gave me that crocked smile that I feel in love with all of those years ago.
I took a deep breath and launched into the story.
As the night ended and the morning started, Bella finished telling him her story. Then it was like time did not keep them apart.
Edward was laying on the ground with Bella's head rested on his shoulder. They talked about anything and everything that came to their minds.
All of a sudden Edward too a breath and signed he then started to move away from Bella.
He sat up and pulled Bella into a sitting position in front of him keeping her hands in his. He picked up his head and stared into her golden topaz eyes just like his own.
"Bella, love" Edward said not looking at her "it is my time to tell you"
"Tell me what?" Bella gave such an inquisitive look that Edward almost laugh.
"It is time I tell you why I left you and hopefully you will forgive me yet again for everything I have done to make you hurt."
Bella straightened her back and sat up straight. She didn't want him to know how nervous she was about what he was going to tell her. In her mind he left and didn't want to marry or change her. Nothing could end that pain.
"Bella" Edward said quietly " these are my reasons for leaving you. When I am finished then you can say or do whatever you need to do. Just promise not to interrupt ok?"
Bella nodded her head and quietly said, "promise"
Epov
I had no idea why I was so nervous to tell her. I wanted her forgiveness more then everything. But I knew that when I was finished there was a possibility of her not wanting to talk or see me anymore.
I do know that it is her right to do it. It will hurt me but I will understand because it was me who left her and not the other way around.
I took a deep breath and said, "Remember you promised"
She just nodded and gave me a strange look. It was a look of half wanting not to know and half desperate to know.
" Ok here goes," I mumbled "first of all I was completely scared of what was going to happen .i was still getting use to having you be with me for ever. I guess you could have called it the human 'cold feet' before the wedding"
She smiled and was going to say something but I put my finger on her lips and said quietly "remember you did promise to say nothing'"
She just gave me a look that could have killed me if I could die.
"Second and third, " I mumbled again " I did not want you to regret being changed and I was scared that I was going to kill you. The reason why I was scared was because I never changed anyone before. And I wanted to make sure that I could do it both for me and for you.
"I know that you always told me that you would never regret being changed, but I was still not sure. There are times where I know that everyone in my family has regretted being changed even though it was not their choice. I guess that in a way I was scared that you would leave me eventually. That I was not the person that you believed I was when you were human."
She opened her mouth but decided to shut it before I said anything. She then just sat there with a smirk on her face.
"Lastly," I said with relief, "everyone knows how extremely overprotective I am when it comes to you and anyone causing your pain. I know that it is not a good excuse but it is all that I had. It was the excuse that made me leave again. I never wanted to see you in any pain, even if it was what you wanted. I don't think I would have been able to just sit there and watch you for three days in pain."
"Ok" I said, " now you can talk if you have anything to say."