I think I like this chapter. Yes, I must say I do.

Warnings: bad grammar, bad spelling...

Disclaimer: Right... I own this... hahaha! Yeah, right!

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Searching for Shines

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Kuma didn't speak on the drive to the hospital; he simply stared.

He stared at Ryuichi with the dead look in his eyes.

He stared at Noriko with the dead look in his eyes.

He stared at Tohma with the dead look in his eyes.

He stared at Mika with the dead look in his eyes... until she picked him up and gave him a rough shake to have the dead look disappear.

"What the hell is wrong with this thing?" Mika gave the stuffed bunny another shake. "This thing is not normal."

Ryuichi reached over and plucked Kuma away from her, "He understands." Slipping one of Kuma's long ears in his mouth, Ryuichi started nibbling.

Tohma ruffled the singer's hair, "Kumagoro has always been able to tell how we're feeling. Especially Ryuichi... and Tatsuha."

"So my idiot brother can talk to a stuffed rabbit? Great."

"Why are you acting like this?" Noriko raised her gaze from her shoes and looked at her bandmate's wife. "Your brother is on his death bed and all you can do is complain about a damn bunny?"

Mika opened her mouth before closing it, "Like I need to explain myself to you."

"No, you're right, you don't have to. But think of Tatsuha. What will he be like when he sees you like this?"

"Happy." Mika refused to flinch from the angry stares that locked on her. "He wants to be treated normally, not like some priceless vase. That's how Mother was when she told us. Tatsuha, he make look like our Father but he has our Mother's personality; right down to the flirtacious manner. So, yes, he would be happy that I'm not showing my emotions because I know he'll know how I feel."

"Shiny." Ryuichi let Kuma's ear slip from his mouth, "He wants to be shiny."

Mika felt the smile come to her face, "Yes, that's right, Ryuichi."

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Eiri continued to puff away on his seventh cigarette, aware of the glare he was recieving from his angry... lover. He understood that two of the members of Bad Luck didn't realize why he wasn't crying or screaming out of the unfairness of life. But the one that did understand, he acted normal as well.

Fujisaki Suguru was known for his cold exterior with not a hint of sun in him. He liked it that way; it was easier to hide the pain he felt. He shared this theory with the man across from him. He and Eiri weren't too different someone stopped and thought about it. Yes, the circumstances of how they became this way was different, but the ending result came out the same: cold, aloof, and hatred at anything in their path.

But two people made them stop and smell the roses. Shuichi gave Eiri a reason to continue living, while Hiro gave him a reason why he should be loved.

Suguru realized with abruptness that Hiro had been glaring at him for the past twenty minutes and he knew that Shuichi was included also. "Stop that," he told them with a parent's harsh tone. "You both are acting like children."

Shuichi huffed, "Excuse us for not understanding why you're acting like this?" He thought for a second before jabbing his boyfriend in his side, "You too, Yuki!"

A puff of smoke surrounded Shuichi's head, causing the young man to cough and sputter, "Yuki, you meany!"

"Hm."

"Tell me, please."

Suguru turned his head to the side to face his boyfriend, "What?"

"Answer Shuichi's question," Hiro repeated, changing the words from before.

The keyboardist sighed, "Think about it, Hiro. If you were in Tatsuha's position, would you want people to cry over you or have them act like everything was normal?"

"But, Suguru!" Shuichi whined. "Everything isn't normal! Tatsuha's... he's..."

A hand made its way to the depressed singer's hair and combed through the strands carefully. Shuichi looked at his boyfriend as Eiri spoke, "He wants us to act normal. That's probably the main reason why he never told us in the first place. Us going in there and crying, that will make him upset. So we should act normal, like he's only in there for a flu or something." Eiri pulled out another cigarette after dumping the last one out the window, "That's how Tatsuha is. He doesn't like for other people to be worried."

"That's right." Suguru happily agreed, resting his head on Hiro's shoulder, "I remember when we were younger and he fell off his bike. He had scraped his knee really bad, but I didn't know until the next day when he came over with his knee bandaged."

"He's still a pervert," Shuichi muttered.

"Yes, but he cares... deep, deep down."

The pink-haired singer sighed, "At least I know why he broke up with Ryuichi." Shuichi paused before covering his mouth to hide the screech trying to come out, "Ah! I've been so worried about Tatsuha and my own feelings, that I completely forgot about Ryu!"

"I wonder," Hiro started, thinking about the older singer, "how he's taking this?"

"Hard."

Shuichi looked at his lover, "Yuki?"

Eiri sighed, puffing away on his ninth cigarette, "Trust me, I know."

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"They should all be here soon, Tatsuha."

"I know."

His Father sighed, "Tatsuha, do you want to talk?"

Tatsuha shook his head, staying silent.

"Alright then."

After a few moments, Tatsuha spoke, "Father?"

"Yes?"

"How do you feel? About this, I mean?"

His Father's eyes glazed over in thought and remembrance. "Your Mother asked me the same thing."

"And what did you tell her?"

"The truth."

Tatsuha waited for a few seconds before asking, "And that is?"

His Father stood from the chair he had been in and sat next to Tatsuha on the bed, "I'll miss you, that much I know. I'll have Eiri and Mika with me in case I'll need someone to hold onto. You, though, you'll have your Mother with you. She'll take you in her arms and tell you everything she always wanted to. She'll explain that she's been watching you since her death and let you know what she thought of the way you lived." His Father paused, blinking back the tears gathering in his eyes, "Knowing that you'll have her, Tatsuha, it makes me feel better. But part of me can't help but wish that you could stay here... just for a little longer."

Tatsuha nodded, his stomach tightening, "I'll miss you, too." He curled into his Father's warm embrace, realizing that it had been too long since he had.

A muffled cough reached them and they both looked up to face Tohma. The older singer smiled slightly, "We're here."

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Mwhahah... cliffie? I think so!

Hm, I just noticed that Uesugi-san is OOC... Oh well.