DISCLAIMER: DON'T OWN TWILIGHT

DISCLAIMER: DON'T OWN TWILIGHT. Never will….rub it in, why don't ya? Sobs

A/N: as you can tell…second chapter, yay! Just how will Bella go about finding Victoria? Hmm, well read on and find out. Got a bit of a death wish there, don't ya Bella? Let's hope all works out. Live…or die for Bella? We might have to wish she just gets unlucky and never finds Victoria. But I'm not doing that. Well, I'm going to have this one have an EPOV, VPOV and BPOV. In that order!

Oh yeah, I don't own LINKIN PARK or the song NUMB. Just thought I'd mention it, in case I haven't already.

CHAPTER TWO

FINDING VICTORIA

EPOV

I can't believe she thought my lies to be true. She had accepted it. It took all my will not to go back and take her in my arm and kiss the daylights out of her telling her that I do want her, that she means everything to me, and I was never going to leave her, because it'd kill me. That she was everything I wanted, everything I valued and I was never going to let go of her.

But I know that danger was coming. She would be in danger, because of me and because of my family. I don't blame Jasper entirely; he merely made me see the light, that she would never be safe with me. As a human she was a danger magnet and I couldn't,--wouldn't even attempt to picture her as one of us.

Part of me tells me maybe I should change her because we love each other and this is what she wants and that this way I could have her all to myself and we'd be together for all eternity but the other part, the sane part says that I'm being selfish, that she has too much to offer the world and she actually had a life there. Family that depended on her for stability. She was too precious for me, a monster that feeds off of animal blood, when in reality I should be killing humans like the vile, vicious, disgusting creature I am.

How Bella, my sweet Bella came to love me I don't know. She says she does, that me feeding on animals doesn't mean I'm a monster, that I didn't choose it so it's not my fault. How she loved me as what I am now, I'll never know…

She loved me even after she knew everything about me and yet I go and betray our hearts by ripping myself from her. Don't go back. Don't go back, I repeat in my head. I had to do this for both of us. It was the only way to keep her safe. I knew that she could move on from this, from me because she was strong enough. She would eventually forget me, graduate school and get married to someone else who deserved her. She would be able to conceive the children that she would never be able to have with me.

That thought alone made my heart break and sink so low. It wrenched as the possibility of Bella being in the arms of another man broke through the surface of my mind. Even as a human she would be able to forget me, when I would become a mere memory to her, I would never forget her. She would haunt my every thought and would constantly be present in my mind.

To keep her safe I had to shred everything that was us, including my heart. The only way I knew Bella was safe was to protect her from what I exposed her to. I had clean up the mess left over after James. A growl erupted from my chest as I thought of that foul, wretched monster. Now I had to find Victoria. Laurent-I wasn't so worried about. He seemed to express manners first rather than be ruthless. He didn't even seem want to attack Bella.

Victoria, on the other hand, she was a threat. A danger. She's possible searching for Bella. Especially after we killed her James. I can't take that chance. If she's out for revenge then she'll be looking for Bella, and I won't let her kill her. That's also why I should start tracking her. But she's so dodgy.

I saw a glimpse of red hair, and I ran as fast as I could. I had to get to her before she could get my Bella. If anything happened to her, I couldn't forgive myself. I, a monster, would be the cause of the death of an angel. I tried to keep up with Victoria but her scent was disappearing as fast as I had caught a glimpse of her.

Right now she seemed to be heading south, for what I didn't know, and I didn't care. I needed to take care of her before anything happened. CRAP. She keeps disappearing right when I get within 15 yards of her. I'm doing my best to track her but her scent is all over the place and it really isn't sending me in any direction. It's like she's TRYING to confuse me, but all its doing is irritating me.

I saw her once again and I pushed my legs to their maximum. I was getting near her when- Shit! Damn it, she got away again. AND her scent is fading already. This tracking thing is tough but I'm willing to do it—for Bella.

VPOV (Victoria)

I let out a laugh. That moron of a boy actually thinks he can catch me?! I've 'lived' longer than he has. And have been in situations that he could not even imagine in a million years. Dodging him was easier than I thought.

He seemed to be too distracted by his thoughts to even realize that I was confusing him by making my scent radiate off of everywhere so he couldn't track me. And when he did catch a whiff, he'd be gone before he could trace it any further.

That human girl is the reason my James is dead. She just had to involve that coven, didn't she?! It wasn't James' fault the girl smelled too irresistible for her own good. The human, however, did. She tempted my James to his death. What was so wrong in tasting a little human blood?

It's our 'birthright as vampires to feast on the poor, on the weak! We do them a favor by putting them out of their misery. They should be grateful we end their pathetic existence!

Because of her, that worthless human, my James was taken away from me. That male killed my mate. Well, it's time for me to return the favor. I'll take my revenge by taking his mate. The spilling her blood by my hands will be oh so sweet. Tasting her blood, sucking her dry and hearing her scream her last scream, will be absolutely…fantastic.

The mere thought sends chills down my spine as I burst with excitement just wanting to see the look on that male when he realizes that his mate, the human girl, has been sucked bone dry of her blood, her life and her soul. All consumed by me. Wanting to right James' death in such a way sends me in an emotion of overwhelming anticipation.

A mate for a mate.

The temptation is already too irresistible. I sent a fake trail going south to lead the boy of my tail and make my way back to that old small town of Forks. With an evil grin, I make my way into Fork waiting the moment that I get to greet that pathetic human girl—for the last time.

BPOV

As I walked out the cabin I made my way further into the woods. I had no idea where was walking and I didn't care. I could feel nothing and I could care less.

I walked and walked, seeing only trees and moss. Green everywhere, a little too green if you ask me. But the colors were dulling in my eyes. I roamed aimlessly around until I fell down of exhaustion and sat on a log nearby. I closed my eyes and tried to will my body to continue going. I gather the rest of my strength and pulled my body up on my feet.

My eyes still closed, I take in the sounds of peacefulness. I grow jealous knowing I could never be that peaceful, not as the nature surrounding me right now. But it dims as satisfaction closes in knowing that if I could not have that peace alive on Earth, I will soon have it in death, in the afterlife.

I couldn't wait any longer for it and so I take out the pocket knife. I flip the blade out holding it in my right hand while it hovers over my left arm. I lightly press it into my upper arm digging deeper and deeper dragging it downward towards my forearm. I could faintly smell the scent of my own blood, but it doesn't make me sick. My senses are far gone. They left when he did. The pain is no longer there. The only indication of my actions is the cut down my arm and the blood flowing out.

The blood trickled down my upper arm to my forearm and to my fingertips. The blood fell to the ground in single drops. My arm now covered in my own blood.

I heard a sound behind me and I turned around hoping to catch what it was. No one was there. Perhaps it was a deer, but what I was hoping for was Victoria.

"Ahh, Isabella. Isn't it?" a voice from behind me said. I whirled around to face them and came face-to-face with Victoria.

"Victoria," I breathed out her name.

An evil grin appeared on her face as she took a step towards me. "You remember me…?" I gave her a weak nod. "You know human, the woods is a dangerous place to be, all alone. You wouldn't want to get killed out here." She said as she flashed me her razor-sharp teeth.

"I don't care anymore. Death is a better sentence than this life." I responded weakly as a twinge of pain shock through my chest. I couldn't handle being here. Not anymore.

Everything in the woods would have a constant reminder of Edward. No matter how foolish it was I could always find something to relate it to. I kneed over clutching to my abdomen as memories of our year together reached the surface of my mind.

She got closer, right in front of me, pulled me by the hair to tilt my head to the side and sniffed my neck. "Ahh, the scent of your blood is…oh so sweet…And why do you beg for death?" she asked her voice so low it was hard to hear her even when she was a couple of centimeters away from me.

"Because I have nothing else to live for." I whispered monotone. And it was true. Without Ed—him, life was nothing, it had no meaning.

"What about your precious mate? Edward, was it?" she spated his name and spoke with such venom. Another pain shot through me as his name was mentioned. Tears starting to build up in my eyes, but I restrained them from falling.

"He's not my mate, nor am I his. He…h-he didn't want me anymore…he doesn't love me." Tears threatened to spill as the memory of him leaving me replayed in my mind. His words kept repeating in my head. The rejection from someone I gave my heart to and trusted to protect me and never hurt me was greater than I ever could've imagined. "H…hh-he left me…" my voice was weak and scratchy. That's when my tears started to fall and my body was shaking in sobs.

I couldn't stop crying. The pain returned to my chest and I was breaking into a million little pieces. Scattered in the wind, being carried all over never to be put back together again. It felt like a blow to the chest, everything I had ever lived for, was now insignificant to me. The only thing that ever mattered to me was him. With him gone I couldn't go back to my old life, to a soulless meaningless existence.

Living on without him would rip me apart. I would just be dragging myself from place to place without a meaning, without a heart.

Victoria released my hair but grabbed the back of my head and pushed it against her shoulder. With her other hand she wrapped it around my waist and pulled me closer to her. She held me as I wept but as soon as I stopped she pulled away slightly. "So, you want me to end it now, don't you?" she asked with an evil smirk on her face.

I nodded against her shoulder and let a single tear slip. "No more. I want no more pain- no more of this life. He left me and he hurt me. This way I find peace and you get what, I assume, you want." I whispered but she still heard me loud and clear with her vampire hearing.

I could see that she was pondering about it. She was probably thinking about how to do it, painful and messy or clean and swift. "Very well. I'll release you of the life you have, and the pain." she snarled as she turned my head to the side and exposed my neck and the jugular vein as well.

This is it. I can finally be put to rest, I thought. I could feel Victoria inching towards my neck. My body was telling me to run away, like it was instinct but I couldn't. This was my chance to end the pain.

The next thing I felt was Victoria sinking her teeth into my neck. The pain was absolutely unbearable and instant. I bit my lip from screaming out in pain but it got the best of me in the end. I could feel the fire I felt when James had bit me on the hand last year except this time it was stronger. She released my neck but bit me again on the left arm and right thigh.

I was withering in pain until the venom coursing through my veins got too strong and I got near unconsciousness.

The last thing I heard before I blacked out was, "Unfortunately I've got different plans for you."

A/N : Just what has Victoria planned for Bella? and what'll happen to Bella? Well... you'll have to wait for the next update to find out... i'll probably have it up next week.

-- Elizabeth --