"I.... think I have a tiny, ency wincy little... crush."
The words suddenly echoed in my brain. It was odd that I thought nothing of it beforehand.
I mean, who knew what the Warden did outside of work? Who he talked to, who he hung out with; and I really never gave it much thought. My mind is going full blast. I guess it's because I now have a reason to justify my curiousity.
Cause, who would he have a crush on here, at Superjail, with what the inmates, Alice, and me. The only plausible and known crush is in fact Alice. I have no reason to believe that the Warden is gay, but maybe it's possible he's bi---
Stop it Jared! You're over thinking things!
I guess I should just come clean and admit I'm bisexual. I'm not ashamed to admit that, but if I said anything in the workplace, there could be--- complications. I have no social life, really anymore, and only have fallen in love twice.
Whose to say if what I thought was love--- was really just some damn puppy love or something. I'll just say my first love was fleeting, a minor setback--- I made the HUGE mistake of falling for my best friend. He made the mistake of thinking he felt the same, only to tell me two weeks into our awkward relationship that he was just confused. It killed me, it really did.
That's when I got into drugs. Really bad. I lost my job, all connections with my family, except my sister, and my home, eventually.
The Warden saved me---literally. He gave me a good paying job, got me clean, and helped me in ways I can't begin to explain. I think it was all unintentional, though. The Warden is quite an oblivious guy when he wants to be. Other times, you just know his brain is on fire, his eyes are not at all innocent or kind---just pure insanity---which, in his case, works for him. He's a brilliant man.
Really, very brilliant. He just uses it in odd, misguided, and often very funny ways. Scary ways.
I can't laugh when I'm around him, really. I shake too much. I'm just a nervous person, all around.
Anyway, my second love was even more fleeting. Her name was Cherise or something. Ah, well, I don't really think about her anymore anyway.
I can't imagine who he's crushing on.
I mean, I know I'm digressing, but the kind of women that the Warden is attracted to---are very manly.
I'm not sure if Alice is really a woman. In fact---I KNOW she/he/it isn't. I don't really have a problem with it---I'm pretty screwed up too, but the only issue I foresee is when he finally sees Alice for who HE is. Or something. It might just break his ego maniacal heart.
Maybe he is a polymorphic perverse.
I think its better I not think of the Warden that way. Its not healthy to think of your boss this much.
Right?
Oh, god...
I might just be falling for this mad man.
I'm just that brilliant.