I DONT OWN ANY OF THE CHARACTERS, THEY ALL BELONG TO STEPHENIE MEYER.
BPOV
I didn't want to cry, I wanted to look strong in front of Edward. He sat in front of me on the ground and looked into m eyes. I tired to avoid his look, but he didn't let me. He stared me for a very long moment and I managed to stare back. I wonder what he was thinking. Maybe he was thinking about Victoria and how would he kill her. Or, maybe he was thinking how he could get rid of me once again. I didn't want him to think that. It was a very long moment that we just stared each other.
And for some reason, I started laughing. I laughed till my stomach hurt. I looked at Edward. He was still staring at me, but now he was smiling a little and looked at me like I was crazy or something. I looked back.
I loved him. I could never be mad at him, no matter how many times he left me. Of course, there would fall pieces of my heart, but I would still loved him. And I hope that he knew that. Oh, how perfect he looked. I took his hands in mine. He looked a little surprised, but I just smiled at him.
"Hey", I said quietly.
"Hi, Bella", Edward whispered.
I leaned forward and kissed him on the cheek. He took hi hands away from mine and somehow managed to lift me in his lap.
I was nervous. I hadn't been in Edward's lap for ages. He nodes it too, and kissed me lightly on my neck.
"I'm sorry, Bella," he said.
"You are?"
"You sound surprised, Isabella. Of course I'm sorry. I never wanted to leave you."
"Then why did you leave me, Edward?"
"I wanted to keep you safe."
"So you left me. Do you have any idea, what I had to go through?"
"Yes, I have, and I am so sorry. I love you, Isabella Swan. You do know that, don't you?"
I didn't answer that. His body tensed a little.
"And I completely understand, if you don't feel the same way about me," he continued quietly.
Of course I loved him. How could he ever doubt that? I just didn't want to say it aloud, I wasn't ready. Not yet, but maybe soon.
We both were silent for a long moment. Then I had to ask something. I got off of his lap and sat in front of him again. He looked into my eyes. His eyes were a little sad. They were golden, though, so he had been hunting. Good.
"Today, when you and Victoria came", I started. "There were no clouds in the sky and the sun was shining. Why weren't you and Victoria and Alice sparkling?"
he looked very surprised. I guess he had expected some other question.
"Oh, well, honestly, I don't actually know. It hasn't happened ever before. I was surprised of it myself as well. I'm guessing that it had something to do with fear and anxiety. Today I feared about loosing you. But I don't know why Victoria didn't sparkle, I doubt that she was scared. Maybe it had something to do with the sun."
"Oh. Something to do with the sun." I laughed at the thought that there would be something wrong with the sun.
"You moved back to your mom", Edward said.
"Yes. I couldn't take it anymore in Forks. Too much memories."
"Yeah, I understand you. In a way."
"You do?" I asked.
How could he understand? He wasn't there. A wave of anger went through me.
I stoop up and started walking back to the shelter, where everyone else were. The shelter was just a roof with three walls and it was made of wood. In the middle there was pile of fire woods, but there was no fire. I sat on a bench which was in a corner. Edward came soon after me, sitting to the other corner.
Esme stood up, walked to me and hugged me tightly. I felt uncomfortable.
"Bella. How are you?" she asked.
"Fine, thanks", I murmured. She walked away and sat next to Carlisle.
Everyone was staring at me. I didn't look back, I was just looking at the ground.
I couldn't take the silence anymore.
"So, what now?" I asked, smiling. It wasn't a real smile, just a fake smile. The Cullens nodes that.
"Well, Alice says that Victoria is coming back sooner or later", Carlisle said. Edward growled. "…but, Victoria hasn't decided when she will come. Bella, our family and me are going back to Forks, and we thought if you wanted to move back with Charlie. We understand, if you don't want to, but it would be much easier for us to keep an eye on you and Victoria."
Well that came out as a real surprise. First they leave and then they want to go back.
"Oh, I guess I could try, but I would have to talk to Renee… And what about my school?"
"Don't worry about that, I'll take care of you school. You go and talk to Renee and if she lets you go, I'll call to your school. Only if you want to go back to Forks, of course."
Maybe I did want to go back there. Maybe it would be nice to move back with Charlie. It would be nice to see him again.
"Well, if I go and talk to Renee… How do I get there? I dot know where we are so I cant go by myself."
"I'll drive you there", Emmett said. The first time he talked. Rosalie looked at him, and she looked angry.
"I'll come with you two", Alice chirped. "So, lets go!" she continued.
Emmett, Alice and me stood up and walked through the forest.
Carlisle's car was waiting for us.
Emmett sat into the driver's side, Alice to the passenger side and I opened the door to the backseat.
"Bella, he really is sorry. And we're so sorry that we left you", Alice said, her voice sad. I stayed quiet.
"You will forgive him, wont you?" she continued. "He really, really loves you."
"Yeah, I guess so. But not yet, I'm not ready…" my voice lowered to a whisper.
"Of course, Bella", Alice said. She sounded like Esme in a way.
Emmett started the engine and we drove in silent. When we stopped, we were under a shadow.
"Sorry, Bella, but we can't come any further. The sun, you know", Emmett said.
"Yeah. And I'll find my way home from here. Thanks for the ride."
"Anytime. You just stay there as long as you need, we'll wait here."
"Okay", I said and got out of the car.
I walked to Renee's house. What would I say to her? 'Hey Mom, I'd like to move back with Charlie'? She wouldn't like that.
I opened the front door and walked in. On the kitchen table was a note.
'I had some things to do, I'll be back at 7 p.m. Love, Mom', it said.
Great. Should I go and say to Emmett and Alice that I would stay a little longer?
No. They said that I could stay as long as I needed.
It was half past five. I put some music on and sat on the sofa.
Edward had come back. Why? To save me from Victoria. How did Victoria know where I was? And she'll come back. I was sure of that. She wanted to kill me for some reason. Why does everyone want to kill me? Edward had once said that my blood smelled very good, but I guess that Victoria wouldn't kill me for my blood. Did it have something to do with James' death? Maybe Victoria wanted to avenge James' death…
I didn't have anymore tome to think about Victoria. Someone knocked on the door. I went to open it, but I couldn't see who it was, because I felt a strange napkin thing on my face and then… nothing.
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