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I woke up with a start as I snuggled against a human-shaped, cold, rock.
"What the hell?" I mumbled, groggily, and Edward gave me a small squeeze.
"You passed out." Edward smiled at me, and I couldn't help but smile back at him. What was wrong with me? "Nothing's wrong, Seth." Edward pulled his arms away from me and I scooted off of him. It was strange. For once, I hadn't woken up sweating.
"What time is it?" I looked around for a clock, and had no luck.
"It's about eight in the evening. Sam called earlier and said you could stay the night if you were having a good time." He clarified, looking me over. "Are you having a good time?"
I wondered for a few minutes why I liked Edward. I was honestly smart enough to know that the feeling was probably because I'd wanted a male in my life, but I was beginning to believe it was something else, too. Edward gazed at me the whole entire time I was thinking.
The problem here was that I think I felt something close to a romantic – I cringed – love for Edward.
How could I love a Vampire? He smelled! Why would I want that?
Why would he want me?
"I don't know." Edward quickly answered, his eyes now pools of bright topaz.
"You went hunting?" I noticed casually, trying my best to change the subject before it went any further. I wasn't exactly sure if Edward bought it.
"It was just locally." He stated, a little too quickly, "You weren't alone long." He reassured me. I just shook my head. Why was he worried about leaving me alone? I didn't need company twenty-four seven.
"This doesn't seem right." I sighed, pulling myself away from Edward. I couldn't get close to him now, not when we were whom we were. I was a guy, for Christ's sake.
So was he.
"Why don't you just pretend that there are no rules?" He asked quietly, and my heart sped up. Edward cast his eyes down, away from mine, like he was embarrassed.
"Because there are!" I exclaimed; he flinched.
"It could still work if you wanted it to." He whispered, and Edward looked like he would be tearing up if he could be. Fear and guilt swirled through my mind, fueling my soon-to-be outburst. I could feel it building up.
"You're acting like Bella!" I snapped, flinging myself off of the couch, away from Edward. "Whining to get things your way! Thinking everything can and will go the way you want it to! Guess what?! Life doesn't work that way, Edward."
He sat on the couch, just staring blankly at me, his eyes showing such a hurt emotion I wanted to cry. I turned away and shook my head to clear my thoughts. Edward needed to hear what I was going to say.
"Seth," Edward started, and I cut him off.
"No! I can't let this happen! Just. Shut. Up. Edward." I growled, the anger coming back in full force. How could he expect me to just fall into his arms? I didn't want to be some stupid replacement! I began to shake uncontrollably, I shut my eyes, and Edward began talking again.
"Seth, please don't be angry." He whispered, and I let out a growl and took in a deep breath. Finally, some silence.
I stood ragged for about ten minutes before I actually cleared my head. I stumbled over and sat next to Edward on the couch.
"I blew up at you." I wasn't about to apologize for that, either. I still didn't know what to think of this mess. I glanced at Edward and blinked in confusion and blushed as he leaned in closer to me. What was he doing...?
Then I felt Edward's lips on mine.
The kiss was awkward at first, his icy-cold lips pressing onto my sweltering hot mouth, but I pressed back against him, unsure of what to do with my hands. Edward placed his hand to the back of my head, pulling me closer to him. Edward's tongue flicked my lips, and I involuntarily opened my mouth to him to explore. My heart soared as I pushed my body closer to his, and he responded with a little 'murr' of pleasure. Obviously I was less breakable than Bella.
At my thought, Edward jumped away from me like I was a bomb. My breathing was ragged as I stared at him, completely shocked. Did I just do what I think I did?
"Sorry." I stated, blushing, I'm sure, enough for the both of us. I turned slowly away from him and bolted out of the house. My body literally exploded as I got out of the doorway.
What the heck? Was the only response from the few pack members that were running as wolves, and soon, the whole pack was pretty much in my mind. If you want to talk about embarrassing, I'm your guy. It was terrible.
And now the pack wasn't talking to me.
Gross!
Sick.
Why would you do that, Seth?
Then, I felt Jacob. He was, well, to say the very least, laughing at me. Hard.
...And then you kissed him? Oh my god, I knew that bloodsucker was gay. I just can't wait to see the look on Bella's face when I tell her!
I hung my head low and sighed. Well, I couldn't show my face around there anymore...
Leah would never let me into the house again.
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