Debate
"Bella?" he called, but I didn't answer. I wouldn't let myself look back; he obviously didn't want me anymore. His footsteps fell softly behind me as I ran; they grew softer as he lagged behind, beaten by my newborn speed.
I fought an internal battle, whether to go back to him or not. Edward, he told me he didn't want me, that he didn't love me. But why would he have followed if he didn't love me, if he didn't want to see me. He told me he didn't want to pretend to hold back. He wasn't human, but now, neither was I! He could want me, but how could he? Edward is so, so everything! Perfect in every way, sure he was over protective at times but it always turned out for the best. And me? I was, well, nothing. Just a typical vampire girl in a typical world, nothing special, he deserved better.
As I thought this through, I was still running the pine forest ran on as endlessly as my love for him. Completely alive, his love for me was dead, the charred forests blackened by forest fires. Nothing was left; he couldn't love me, not anymore. I had to let him go, he deserves so much better, someone at least half as wonderful as he was. I was the monster that he could never be, I pictured myself with Victoria's crimson irises, and his topaz eyes shouldn't have to look at something so monstrous. Not only was I a monster, I was a freak in the world a vampires! Disgusted by blood? Unheard of!
What would he think when he saw me like this? A monster in the eyes of an angel, I had to hide myself, I couldn't take it. The disgusted look on is face when he would look on me. I was nothing compared to him. I didn't stand a chance; I deserved to die for causing him such incontinence. I honestly want to die; there was still no point in living. I climbed another tree and waited for the answer to come.
I felt no inspiration, my questions were still unanswered. I thought back to the clearing, when he saw me, the look on his face, was that love? Was it pity? Or shock? Awe? It looked like love, but who knows, he might have thought me someone else. Then again he did call my name, after all it wouldn't hurt to see him once more. I had to see him once more to calm the buzzing in my brain, to answer the questions. I couldn't live without the answers.
On the ground I couldn't smell him near so I found my way back to the clearing to see if he had returned there, but it was deserted. I sat down at wept the best I could without tears and hoped that he would come. Even just to break my heart once more.
AUTHOR'S NOTE: PARTY TIME CAUSE I'M GOING TO BE A BETA READER!! YAY! SORRY, I'M EXICITED, IF YOU NEED ONE, TELL ME! PLEASE REVIEW IT MAKES ME HAPPY! Sorry it's short it just felt like a good stopping place!