AN: I should be working. I really should. But I've lost all my energy and enthusiasm, so I'm typing up my fanfics instead. ToryJessica asked, a while back, if I could write a longer Sora/Kairi/Riku fic. Well, this isn't longer, but it is Sora/Kairi/Riku. Enjoy. Prompt 90 - "Triangle".
The stares we get, every time we walk down the street together, don't bother me any more. I'm used to it now. It used to upset me, the fact that everybody judges us on sight, without bothering to find out the whole story, without actually knowing us. Now, I just don't care. I've grown up, I've got over it. I know what's right for me, Riku and Kairi.
We need each other, always have done. Even as kids, we were inseparable. The Kingdom Hearts Adventures, as we call them now, just pushed us closer together, taught us to lean on each other, comfort each other, pick up the pieces when we started to fall apart. Being separated was the hardest thing we've ever gone through. We swore, when we found each other again, that we'd never be apart. Ten years on, that still holds true.
It was at Kairi's twenty-first birthday party that we started to make the transition from friends to something more. Not lovers, not yet, but the thought was beginning to occur. Someone, I don't remember who, asked Kairi who she wanted a birthday kiss from - me or Riku. She laughed, saying she couldn't decide between us, and was she allowed to have us both? Nobody thought, back then, that it was strange, so we both kissed her on the cheek and hugged her, murmuring "happy birthday" in her ear. She hugged us back, told us she loved us both. I knew it was the truth, and I knew the feelings were reciprocated. I just didn't realise, at the time, precisely what she meant.
"I meant it, you know." Later that night, when everybody else had gone, Kairi's confession came as a surprise.
"I know you love me, Kai."
"Both of you."
Riku, by this time, had started listening. "As brothers, or..." He couldn't quite find the courage to complete the sentence.
Kairi shook her head. "When we were kids, yes, but..."
I couldn't find anything to say, either. The three of us have never been so tongue-tied before. We weren't quite meeting each other's eyes. I think we all knew what we wanted to say, what needed to be said, but it was so awkward. How do you, after all, tell your best friends that you're in love with them both, and what on earth do you do about it? There was really only one solution.
I reached out a hand to each of them, making the tremendous effort I needed to look them in the eyes. It shouldn't have been so difficult, but it was. Kairi's emotions were plain to see on her face - she knew, I think, what was going to happen. Riku has always been harder to read, less willing to express feelings in words. He finds it difficult, to talk about emotion - he'd much rather show them physically.
"Love you."
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We've always needed each other, even when we weren't prepared to admit it. Without Kairi and Riku, I'm nothing. I could never have wielded the keyblade if I hadn't been so close to them, because it's all about hearts, and love, and light. They have my heart, and I wouldn't have it any other way.
Someone once said we were caught in a messy love triangle, and it would all end in disaster. We're not, and it won't. There's nothing messy about it, not in the way they meant. I want them, I love them and I need them. Both of them. Alone, my life would be meaningless - I can't live without my heart, which belongs to Kairi and Riku. Without them, I'm nothing at all.
AN: Yes, that last sentence is a (modified) song title - Placebo's "Without you I'm nothing", which is also the title of this piece and my inspiration.