Putting my feelings into words -

Impossible.

For my feelings for you are

Incomprehensible.

If I could let you see the effect you have on me,

You would be blinded.

For if you did the darkness would fade,

Shadows were no longer.

For I am in love,

More in love then I have been for a long time.

I love you is all I can say,

But my heart says more,

There is much more to my love,

Dreams, Hopes, Fantasies,

That all can become realities.

For with you I am a new me,

A me that shouldn't leave.

In these few words I hope you see,

How much you mean to me.

In Life, Love and Spirit,

I want you to hear it,

I Love You!

- By Tera Nickell

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Kagome yawned as her eyes followed Sesshomaru as he practiced his swordsmaship, boredom thick in her voice, "You brought me out here so that you could practice working with a sword?"

He said nothing, instead opting for slicing straight through the tree she was sitting in. Watching her every graceful movements, he approved of the way she'd leapt out of the tree and landing behind him. "Your landing was a tad off," he critiqued without turning around, "Try to be more silent next time."

"Next time?!" Snorted, "Like hell there will even be a next time!"

Sesshomaru gave her a thoughtful look. "You seem bored."

"As interesting as it is to watch you move so fluidly with a sword, I wanna do something. I want to run. I mean, we're in this big forest. Let's have fun with it."

"You wish to run, do you?" Fangs shimmered in an open mouthed smirk. "Very well, then. Run, you shall." he plled his shirt over his head. "I suggest you begin."

Kagome looked at him, uncertain. 'Hm. This is what I wanted.' Sparing him a glance, she hightailed (no pun intended) it away from him. She sprinted as fast as she could, nearly falling when the ground shook. "What the-" Her eyes grew five sizes wider as she took in the sight of Sesshomaru. "By the gods, you're huge."

He tilted his large, canine head to teh size as he eyed her. Bending his front paws to punce, he lowered his snout to the ground and growled softly.

Kagome took a step back. "Oh. Em. Gee." She whipped around and ran for her life. 'Stupid. Stupid. Stupid. Sesshomaru! This wasn't what I meant!' Swiveling in and out of the trees, she paused near a brook to breathe. "Baka male." She could sense him, only a few tens of yards away. 'If he can transform, then perhaps...so can I."

Sesshomaru lifted his nose and scented the air. 'She is not flare.' He felt the flare of energy and froze. 'Is she in danger?' He darted off in her direction and stopped, his paws rooted in place. *Oh my.*

*Indeed.* Mentally smirking, Kagome strolled toward him seductively, brushing her tail angainst hsnose. *I'm tall, dark, and beautiful.* She giggled as best a dog could. Licking his nose, she bounded off with a cackle.

*Hm? The miko wishes to play, then.* He rushed after her, nearly pounding the ground in with the force of his running.

Kagome stepped out of the forest and stared ahead of her. 'A cliff eh? And we ran as far as the ocean?'

Sesshomaru crept up behind her, peering over ehr shoulder. He nearly grinned as a horribly wicked thought crossed his mind. Edging closer slowly, he snuck up on Kagome and pushed her directly over the cliff.

Kagome howled in shock, latching onto his ear with her mouth and dragging him into the water with her.

Drenched, he swam to shore with her on his tail (once again, no pun intended). As he climbed back, he noticed Kagome grudgingly doing the same. *You are ethereally beautiful, Kagome. Even while you are soaked to the bone.*

*Shut up before I purify your evil butt.* She snarled back, shaking her fur dry as Sesshomaru circled her. *What?*

*I've never seen you in this form before. It is quite-* Positioning his noce near her butt, her inhaled deeply. *Enticing.*

Kagome jumped and backed away from him. *What did you just do?!*

He nuzzled her neck. *I AM a dog demon. I am simply getting acquainted with your inuyoukai form.* His tail swished happily when she sniffed him back.

*Hm.* She smiled at Sesshomaru. Rubbing her body against his, she snuggled under him, tilting her head back to look him in the eyes. *I'm a little over half your size.* 'I can't help but think I forgot something.'

*Somewhere on a downtown sidestreet*

Tsubasa groaned and scratched the back of his head as he came to. "Ugh. Where am I?"

A smiling man popped into his line of vision. Triangular markings hung from his eyes, upside downs. "Oh, Renkotsu, look at this little number!"

A bald man appeared beside him, blinking slowly. "Eh, he's alright, Jakotsu."

"What the-" His eyes lowered to his clothes. 'That lowsy fuck!' On his form was a black and pink women's kimono and a pair of geta. Touching his long, brown hair, he found that ir was in a high ponytail, clips strewn anywhere. 'I can only imagine my face.' Snarling, he yelled, "Sessh-o-ma-ru!!!!"

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"Howwwwl!" Kagome howled the instant she felt Sesshomaru's member pressed against her opened. *Wh-what the hell do you think you're doing?!!*

*Seducing you.* He caressed her back with his snout. *and succeeding.*

Kagome cursed herself for her body's moist reaction. *This isn't seduction! It's frikkin' foreplay!* She shuddered as Sesshomaru's nose trailed up her spine to her collar bone. Suddenly, she felt herself forced to the ground, Sesshomaru's entire weight crushing her. *Ow, Sesshomaru! What is your problem?!*

*Silence.* He snarled at her, sniffing her shoulder blade harder. *You sport his mark! Why do you sport that bastard's mark?!*

She whimpered in pain. *I-*

Furious, Sesshomaru tried to push himself harder upon her, his paws slipping on the wet grass and his sex pushing into her. Her yell of surprise and slight pain only egged him on. *I want no excuses.*

*W-we were...you know, and he lost control. But it's only a courting mark. Calm down, Shomaru.* Though she didn't know what had possessed her, she pushed back against Sesshomaru's member, pulled away, then repeated the action again.

*It's been so long.* He growled softly in her ear, pushing further into her.

*Don't. Don't mention her.* Kagome looked back at him. *Right now. It's jsut me and you, you and I.*

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"I got it!" Takara announced, walking to answer the door. "Grandpa Tai. Uncle Inu. Hi."

"Wassup, squirt?" Inuyasha petted her head and moved past her, yelling out as he got tackled by Takehiko. "What the-"

Takehiko grinned. "Hi, Uncle Inu! Papa said he'd teach me hand to hand combat tonight, so I can practice on you!"

Inuyasha groaned. "Fantastic."

Inutaishoshook his head in amusement and hugged his granddaughter. "We need to speak with your father."

Takara popped out of her room. "Dad left about... 7 or 8 ours ago with mom."

"With Kagome?" He and Inuyasha asked.

"Yep! Isn't that wonderful?!" Takehiko inquired. "They're going to be together again! And I'm going to have more brothers and sisters and-"

"Dont' get your hopes up, kid. I mean, Kagome' s engaged."

"But deep down she loves daddy. I know it!"

Inutaisho sighed. "We won't know how things are between them until they get back. So let's just sit here and wait."

The pups plopped onto the couch with their grandfather and uncle. Everything was quiet until Inuyasha spoke, "So, uh, what do you think they're doing?"

It took no more than a second for everyone to answer, "Arguing."

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Kagome stretched as she woke and looked at Sesshomaru. 'Oh, he looks so peaceful when he sleeps. I l- Whoa! What am I thinking?! I'm engaged to Tsubasa. And I just, I cheated on him.'

She rose carefully and trekked into the woods, searching for the brook she'd undressed at. Converting to her human form, she dressed, then sat, her legs wading in the water as she contemplated. 'I didn't. It was merely a dream. I did no wrong. And I don't l- I don't l-...I don't care about that, that-' Her eyes snapped to the hand on her waist, then to the other, then to the legs that sat on each side of her. "Don't touch me." She looked at her watched. 'Hm, we slept for about 4 hours.'

"I do not understand." He admitted, sitting behind her.

"Then allow me to spell it out for you. Hands. Off. The. Merchandise." Pushing his hands off, she stood. "We should get going anyway." She took off running.

Sesshomaru followed her closely. "We've made love. Why am I not to touch you, woman?" His jaw was set in anger.

"Because...you ruin everything." And after that, the fight was all downhill. The argument continued even as they got to his home. She snatched the keys from Sesshomaru and opened the door. "This is all your fault."

"My fault?! There is nothing to be at fault for!"

Kagome flashed her fangs at him. "You know just what you did, Mr. I-claim-to-be-seducing-when-its-really-foreplay!!!"

Sesshomaru hissed. "Do not blame this Sesshomaru for your wild lack of control!" He trailed her into the kitchen and leaned over her to open the fridge, snatching out two cokes and handing her one. "And you initiated it."

"You baka liar! Your anger forced me! I needed you to calm down!"

"So you opted for making love?" He asked with a cocked brow.

Kagome swallowed a gulp of coke. "It wasn't making love! This isn't love!"

"It is!"

"It isn't!"

"Then what is it?!"

She paused. "Don't try to try me! This is about your Kagome! Well, think again, bastard! Your idiot of a mate died! Ignorantly leaving behind her family even when they needed her! I am not her, nor will I ever be!" Tears sprang to her eyes. "Sesshomaru, if you love me...then love me for me, not for who I resemble. Get to know me."

"I do know you. And that is the very reason I love you."

"Good answer, Mr. Taisho. Very good." Kissing him softly, she pushed her forehead against his.

Sesshomaru's eyes darted to the mark on her shoulder. "And Tsubasa?"

Kagome shivered against him. "I'll tell him I find the right words. Don't worry. So, when taking me on my first date"

"Tomorrow." He gave her an Eskimo kiss, "after work. And as for where...I will surprise you."

"Humph." She glared. "And why should I wait?"

"Because you love me." He pressed his thin lips to her forehead.

"I knew it!"

Kagome and Sesshomaru turned at the pup's outburst. "Takehiko?"

He jumped up and down. "I knew you'd be together again!"

"Father, why are you hear?" Sesshomaru asked.

"It wasn't that important. What is, is my future daughter-in-law. Kagome!" His deep voice rang. He wrapped his arms around her torso when she turned to run away from him. "Why do you attempt to get away from me, dearest? I'm offended."

She whined, "Because you're holding me too tight!"

"Anything to feel that lovely frame of yours, dear."

"Ugh, you pervert! Sesshomaru!"

Inuyasha quickly took her in his arms when his father released her. "Oh, Kagome." He blushed and let go when Sesshomaru growled at him. "Nice to have you in the family. Heh heh."

"Thanks, Inuyasha. Kami, I need a shower."

"Sure do. Your usual scent is muddled with sweat, sex, and Sesshomaru." He yelped and grabbed his foot when Kagome stepped on it. "Jeez, Kag! It's the truth."

Kagome huffed at him, waved at the pups, then left for Sesshomaru bathroom. "Sesshy, ya joining me?"

Sesshomaru floated after her on the smallest of youki clouds, once again, head over heels in love. Stripping quickly, he stepped into the shower behind as she lathered her hair. His clawed hands reached out to take over, scratching her gently at her scalp.

Sighing contently, she hummed to herself and rubbed her body with soap. "Scratch harder."

"You'll bleed."

"I won't." She countered, then sighed, turning to face him and scrubbing his body and hair. 'I am not nearly as fragile as I may seem."

"You are." Sesshomaru inhaled the air around them, growling contently at theirmixed scents. He smirked at the musky scent that lay beneath. "And you wish for me again."

Kagome pouted. "Shut up." A yawn. "I'm too tired for that. I need to get home." She moved under the water to rinse off.

Sesshomaru worriedly cradled her to him. "No. You can not leave."

"Sesshomaru." She sighed and turned the faucet. "Got anything for me to wear home?" Tousling through his drawers, Kagome searched.

"Clothing for you to sleep over in." He handed her a tank, a t-shirt, and a pair of his boxers.

"Fine. I'll stay the night." Fed up and exhausted, she caved and slipped into the clothes before following the scent of melted cheese, chopped sausage, and heated tomato sauce to the dining room. "Mm, pizza."

Inuyasha grinned at her, feeling his heart clench at the sight of her in Sesshomaru's clothes, as well as his arms. 'All these years, and I still ain't over her.' "Yeah. We ordered it while yall were in the shower."

Kagome took the slice he offered and sat between Inutaisho and Sesshomaru on the couch. As she ate intently, she watched the family communicate, warmness inside her. 'They love each other so much. Even Sesshomaru, despite that stupid blank mask of his.'

"Hey, mom, I-" Takako paused when she saw that her mother's eyes were closed. "Mom?"

Sesshomaru wrapped his arms around Kagome's waist. "Kagome, mate."

"No." She hissed, hugging Inutaisho's arm. "I want to hug my doggy daddy, my Tai."

He growled. "Woman, release my father."

Inutaisho snorted. "You've always been stingy. Never learned how to be kind and share."

"This Sesshomaru will not share his ma-" He quirked a brow at the finger Kagome laid sleepily on his lips. "Hn."

"Don't be so jealous, Fluffbutt."

Everyone laughed, save Sesshomaru, who narrowed his eyes.

Kagome sighed. "You're such a lost cause. Gosh, you're lucky you were born so beautiful...and smart...and talented...and perfect! Gah, I hate you!"

"I have a delusional, sleep-speaking mate."

"You're a lord, right, Sesshomaru?"

"Hai, little one." He stroked her hair when she climbed into his lap.

"That's like a king. And I will treat you like a king...as long as you treat me like the queen I am."

Sesshomaru smirked. "That I will do." He glanced at her phone when it vibrated.

Growling, Kagome answered, "Hello?"

Tsubasa smiled. "Hey, Kagome."

"Oh, hello, Tsubasa." She greeted tiredly, oblivious to the growls that sounded.

"Where are you? I was waiting up."

Kagome rubbed her eyes. "I'm at Sesshomaru's." She answered, much to everyone's surprise.

Tsubasa laughed. "Good one."

"I'm being one hundred percent serious."

"Right. Well, tell whoever it is that I said hello. Love you. Night." He hung up the phone with a chuckled. 'She's hilarious.'

Kagome shrugged. "I tried." She sighed and tossed the phone onto the floor. "Hey, Sesshy, can I tell you a secret?"

He looked at her in question. "Yes."

"Sometimes, I find myself wishing I would her, your Kagome, so that you would love me wholly, truthfully. And sometimes, I think that the possibility that I am her is high. And then, those other times, the thought of being her absolutely repulses me, because that means that I could have been the one who abandoned you." She cringed. "I don't even want the thought in my head."

He cupped a hand over the hand she hand on her stomach. "You did not abandon us. You died."

"And the difference is?"

"Kagome, your death is far from dishonorable. You did what you did to protect myself against my wishes. Quite foolish indeed, but not dishonorable."

"How was her dying for you foolish?"

"I am youkai."

She smiled tiredly. "Strong, yes. Invincible, I think not. If she had not done whatever she had, you'd be in her place."

His eyes hardened. "And I would have gladly traded places."

"For such a brilliant man, Sesshomaru, you are an utter idiot." Kagome shook her head, stood, and kissed his lips gently. "Because then you would be damning her to a lengthy life without you, a life of pain and remorse. She could not have raised the pups well in such a condition. Goodnight, everyone." Turning on her heels, she sashayed off to Sesshomaru's bedroom, adding, "And she probably knew that you were stronger, that you could handle a life without her. She knew you were strong enough to heal." She touched the doorknob.

Sesshomaru spoke lowly, his voice rough with pain. "I did not heal. I saw my mate die. I saw you die before my eyes in an attempt to save my life. I will never heal from such a deafening blow."

Kagome froze, then glared at him. "And you're a damned fool for that! I'm sure her soul will never be saved if she knows you're still holding on to her!"

Sesshomaru stormed up to her. "Do you think that she is fine now?! Because from where I stand, my mate is in pain because she can not remember! You can't even remember me, Kagome! Your true mind, my mate, is locked in a cage! And your pain, will forever cause me pain, as I wish it to be!"

"Y-you..." She looked elsewhere. "Thanks for the clothes. I'll see ya in the morning." Pushing him away, she ran into the room and threw herself on the bed, trying in vain to keep her tears in.

Sesshomaru pushed the wall behind him, staring at the hole he'd made and allowing his anger to vent out. "Damnit."

Takako picked up the phone. "I'll call the company to come fix it." She whispered, leaving the room.

"Damnit." Sesshomaru repeated, leaning his head against the wall.

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Sesshomaru blinked in surprise as he rounded a corner and got attacked by a black blob that clung to him. "Kagome? You've been upset with me for days. Are you fine now?"

"Oh, yeah! Way past that! You'll never believe it! Akane told me I could do some surgeries! I'm going to be the second lead surgeon! Isn't that great?!"

"Yes. Wonderful." 'So, Akane got my message.' He smirked to himself, hugging Kagome tightly, frowning when she quickly snatched away.

"And I have a surgery in thirty minutes! Gotta get going!" Kissing him on the cheek, she speed walked away.

He growled at himself. 'What have I done?'

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Takara arched a brow as she walked into the room and sat on the floor with her brother's and sisters. "What's with mom and dad?"

Takehiko smiled at her. "They're having a staring contest. Mom has actually won more times than dad, but he managed to get in a few."

"Why are they doing this in the first place?"

"Battle of the sexes. You know, for a youkai, father blinks alot." Takakosmiled at her father's growl. "Oh, and if he loses this one, he can't digest anything chocolate for a month."

"Wow."

Sesshomaru narrowed his eyes. 'I will not lose again.' Slyly, his hand snaked into her shirt. He kissed her forehead arrogantly when he noticed her beginning to struggle. When he sat the cool pad of his thumb against her nipple, he chuckled victoriously because Kaogme had jumped and blinked. "I win, my little miko."

Kagome glared viciously. "You baka, you cheated."

"You are too easily distracted."

"We-well...you're more of a lech than Miroku!"

"I beg to differ."

She huffed irritably. "Cocky son of a b-" She glared at Sesshomaru when he covered her mouth with his.

He backed away and flashed her a brief smile. "There are pups in the room. We surely must do something with that filthy mouth of your, priestess."

Kagomesnarled. "I got it from mouth to mouth contact with you."

"Ooooooh." The pups looked to their father for a reaction.

Sesshomaru tsked. "My fiery darling, that will cost you. I suggest you make good use of your ten second head start."

"Sesshomaru." She giggled nervously.

"Eight."

"Sweetheart." She reasoned. "It was a joke. You understand, right, dear?"

"Two."

"Shomaru?" Squealing, at the wild look in his eyes, Kagome shot up, only taking three steps before she was tackled to the ground. "No! Let go! It was a joke!"

Sesshomaru wrestled with her. "You were being spunky again, my mate. I must tame you one way or another."

She gasped. "Tame me?! If anyone needs taming here, it's the full blooded dog on top of me!"

"Do I now?"

"Yeah. In fact, I should tame you."

"I would like to see you try." He straddled her waist and pinned her to the floor.

"Flatten mommy!" Takehiko yelled, launching himself.

"No! Don't flatten mommy!" Kagome cried. But it was too late. Already, she was beneath a pile of dog demons. "Gee, thanks for the assistance pups."

"Well, well, well." Miroku smirked. "A dog pile on Kagome? Count me in!" He leapt, but was snatched back by the collar. "Sango dearest." he whined.

"Pervert. And you, Sesshomaru, you're going to suffocate my best friend!"

Sesshomaru looked down at Kagome, only to find her missing.

"Looking for me?" Kagome asked from the kitchen as she fished through the fridge. "Being a mikohas it's advantages." Winking at him, she turned back to the fridge with a laugh.

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Ayumi Higurashi wiped her eyes and got out of bed to answer the door. 'My Kagome, my baby, dead? How is this even possible? I mean, she was always the strongest girl. And Inuyasha protected her wonderfully."

She narrowed her usually kind eyes. 'It's because of that Sesshomaru! How dare he?! Take her from me and get her killed! That youkai! I knew demons were not to be trusted!' She opened the door, her blood running cold in ehr veins. "You."

"Hello, Higurashi-san."

"Damn, you!" She shrieked at him, causing her father and son to run down. "DAMN YOU!!!!!!!"

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Oh, BTW, I read in a book written by Rumiko Takahashi. It's been proven. Kagome's powers are stronger than Kikyo's, and Kagome would win the 1-on-1. Just had to include that. YAY KAGOME!