Song: True Heart- Tackey and Tsubasa
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"Kagome, there's someone here for you."
"Thank youf, Katashi." Kagome smiled at him then finished washing her hands. 'Wonder who it is.' She strolled down the stairs to the lobby and gasped. "Tsubasa? Is something wrong? Did something happen?"
"Kagome, hey." He gave her a small smile. "Yeah. Something kinda happened. Can we talk outside?"
Kagome looked behind her when she felt Sesshomaru's aura. He was staring at them. Offering him a small, timid smile, she nodded at Tsubasa and followed him outside. "So, what happened? What's wrong?"
Tsubasa stared down at her. "I just, I needed to know something."
"Shoot."
"When...when did you stop loving me?" He stumbled over his words. "I mean, something is telling me that you, that you don't feel the same anymore. I know you're kinda starting to drift off."
I guess I know
You've already decided to go
Out of my life once more
No turning back that's for sure
Kagome opened her mouth slowly. "I, um, Tsu, what-"
He held up his hand. "I just want to know the truth. Baby, I just have to know."
Before you do
Girl please promise to tell me the truth
And if this must be so
Darling I just have to know
"When, Kagome? When did your heart stop loving me? When did everything change?"
When did your heart stop loving me
Where did it all go wrong
"I mean, we were so good together. Why, now, are we suddenly so weak? Is it Sesshomaru?" He stepped towards her, hoping to find an answer if he got closer.
How can it be we're suddenly weak
When we used to be so strong
"When did you start looking away from me when we talk? Tell me how this happened? How could something like the love I thought we shared just fail? Was I alone in this? Was I dreaming?"
"N-no. I loved you. I-I love you." Kagome stammered, trying to make things better.
It seems so strange
How such precious emotions can change
He shook his head furious. "You don't. Not the same way. I used to be able to feel your love, your admiration! I could feel it in your aura, Kagome! Why did it change?! Things aren't the same! Even you've noticed."
All that we held so dear
Somehow became so unclear
"Tsu, please. Listen to me. I do love you. I never stopped. I swear."
"Kagome, it hurts so much more than you'll ever know. Just tell me why we aren't as close as we used to be. I need an answer, baby. I need to know."
When did your heart stop loving me
Where did it all go wrong
"I don't-"
How can it be we're suddenly weak
When we used to be so strong
Kagome felt her eyes watering. "I mean-"
When did your eyes start wandering
How could those feelings die
"Tsubasa-"
I can't believe this wasn't to be
It's tearing me up inside
"You can't even tell me when, can you?!"
I can't see why the magic died
Or the reason loved slipped through our hands
"Kagome," He held her close, "what can I do to make things better? How can I win you back? How could we have even let Sesshomaru come between us?"
"I-I-I..."
Help me to understand
I'm still trying to understand, oh
"Help me to understand, baby. I'm begging you. Just help me to know what I can do to make you happy."
"I am happy. I am. I love you, Tsubasa! I swear! Just you!" She tossed her arms around his neck and kissed him him passionately. She felt so dirty, so disgusting. She was hurting him, and all for Sesshomaru. She didn't even know if she loved Sesshomaru. But she loved Tsubasa. 'Just a little longer with Sesshomaru, and then I'll stop. I need to know if I love him too.' Withdrawing, she smiled and traced his lips with her thumb. "Your lips are so cute after we kiss."
"Yours look even better." he breathed, kissing her eyelids lightly. "I love you, Kagome."
"I love you too, Tsu."
He petted her head affectionately. "Well, you better get back inside."
Kagome grinned at him mischieviously. "Actually, my shiftis over. I just did my last surgery. So, we can go home and...you know."
"Oh?" His eys widened. "Oh?! Well, what are we waiting for?! Come on." Laughing, he yanked her towards the car. 'So she doesn't even love Sesshomaru yet. If I can keep her away from him...she'll be all mine."
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Poem: A Maiden's Secret- Ella Wheeler Wilcox I have written this day down in my heart
As the sweetest day in the season;
From all of the others I've set it apart---
But I will not tell you the reason,
That is my secret---I must not tell;
But the skies are soft and tender,
And never before, I know full well,
Was the earth so full of splendour.
I sing at my labour the whole day long,
And my heart is as light as a feather;
And there is a reason for my glad song
Besides the beautiful weather.
But I will not tell it to you; and though
That thrush in the maple heard it,
And would shout it aloud if he could, I know
He hasn't the power to word it.
Up, where I was sewing, this morn came one
Who told me the sweetest stories,
He said I had stolen my hair from the sun,
And my eyes from the morning glories.
Grandmother says that I must not believe
A word men say, for they flatter;
But I'm sure he would never try to deceive,
For he told me---but there---no matter!
Last night I was sad, and the world to me
Seemed a lonely and dreary dwelling,
But some one then had not asked me to be---
There now! I am almost telling.
Not another word shall my two lips say,
I will shut them fast together,
And never a mortal shall know to-day
Why my heart is as light as a feather.
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Kagome glanced over to her assistant, a mere intern who hardly knew what he was doing. But he was Akane's nephew, so she had to agree to his hel. "Scalpel." She said simply, her hand held out as she stared down at her sedated patient. After a moment of not feeling anything in her hand, she looked up with a small glare. "I said, scalpel."
He blushed a little. "Sorry. I was um..."
"Staring at me again. What for?"
"You remind me of someone. Forgive me. Um, here, the scalpel." He handed her the small knife.
"I remind you of someone, ne? Who, then?" She asked inquisitively, laying the scalpel against the unconcious woman's leg and cutting through the skin. The instant the scent of blood hit her nose, she wavered a bit, dizzy. "Go ahead. Speak, Hiro."
He paled and gulped. "You-you sure you can talk and still do it right? I mean, you did just swoon a bit."
Kagome narrowed her eyes. "Just answer the question, boy. I'm fine."
Hiro nibbled on his lower lip. "You just look like this woman I learned about in History class. I admire her a lot. Wish I could get to know her, ask her about her experiences, you know?" He handed her a larger knife once she'd cut through the skin.
She chuckled. "You have a crush on a dead woman."
"Kagome was a phenomenal woman!" He defended, his face plastered with blush. He withdrew when he noticed Kagome pale. "Hiyashi-san?"
"Ka-kagome?"
"Yes. Her name was Higurashi Kagome."
Kagome sighed. "So, you care for her as well? What was it about that woman?" Her knife sliced through a thick piece of muscle, and Kagome's eyes widened before fluttering shut. The surgical blade fell from her hands, and she fell to the floor.
Hiro jumped and rushed to her side. "Hiyashi-san! Hiyashi-san!" Runing out of the room, he cried, "Someone, help! Hiyashi-san fainted! She's unconcious on the floor! Someone help!"
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"Hiyashi-san."
Kagome opened her eyes and sighed. "Yes?"
The doctor smirked to himself. "Well, well, well."
"Spit it out, Katashi."
"Took some urine while you were out."
Her eyes slid shut again. "No wonder I feel uncomfortable." She squirmed. "And you found out that..."
"You, newbe, are pregnant. Congrats."
She shot up. "Wh-whoa! What do you mean?! I can't be! We...I...whoa."
He smiled at her and sat on the bed beside her. "Sooo, whose is it? Sesshomaru's? That fiance of yours? I'm your friend. Let me know."
Kagome shook her head. "It's Tsu's. God, Sesshomaru is going to kill him. And he'll hate me. Kat, you can't tell him! Promise me you won't tell him!"
"I won't. Well, not until he already knows. Then I can rub it in." He smiled at her, but frowned when he noticed that she hadn't caught on to his joke. "Come on, Kagome. I was jokin. Calm down, babe. You need a hug?" Reaching towards her, he pulled her to him.
"Am I interrupting anything?"
Kagome sighed and looked at Sesshomaru. "Hi, Sessho."
"What is wrong, Kagome? Hiro ran to me, out of breath, heaving about you fainting." Sesshomaru only hoped she wasn't getting back the illness she'd had before she'd died.
"It's nothing."
Sesshomaru lifted a brow at her, silently letting her know that he wasn't buying it. "Yes. Of course." Eyes rolling lazily to Katashi, he said, "I will be taking her home."
Kagome eased off the bed. "Nope. I'll be fine. I can make it home on my own."
"Are you sure, miko? I do not think you should in your condition."
"C-condition?" She asked. 'Gods, I forgot that he was a demon. He probably smelled it from down the hall.
"You just fainted, did you not?"
She blushed and nodded. "Oh, yes. I'll be fine. Just got a little overwhelmed by the strong smell of blood. Forgot to block my senses. I was too busy chatting it up with Hiro. I can get to the house on my own. I'll be fine."
Sesshomaru looked on skeptically. "I do not know."
"Well, I do. See ya tomorrow."
Noticing that Katashi had eased out, Sesshomaru moved closer to Kagome, holding her against him. "Tomorrow is Saturday. You will be coming over?"
Kagome smiled at him shyly. "That's what I said, isn't it? Not like I haven't before. See ya tomorrow morning." Grabbing her purse, she pecked his chin then walked out of the hospital, her head spinning and her heart heavy.
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"You're lying!" Tsubasa twirled Kagome around in the air, laughing. When he let her down, he smiled apologetically and kissed her forehead. "Sorry, babe. You're probably feeling sick, and here I am spinning you around. I'm just so happy. This is so perfect. I...I love you so much. I'm so glad."
"So am I." She grinned broadly, her arms wrapping around his narrow waist. "We have so much to do, planning, shopping. I can' t wait." 'But Se-' ~Sesshomaru is unimportant. I'm pregnant. And it's with Tsu's cub.~ 'How do you-' ~I just do. It is Tsu's, not Sess's.~ 'But-' ~No buts. Sesshomaru can't get over her. And I don't share.~
"Oh, you're right. And we have to pack and..."
Kagome paled and grimaced. "Hold on. Pack for what?"
He smiled at her. "My job has moved for a while. We'll be in New York City for a couple of years. Then, when they open the port in Tokyo, if I decide to move back, we will."
"B-but, Tsu, I have friends, and, and the pups, they'll-"
"They aren't your resposibility, baby. They're Sesshomaru's. I know you hate to upset people. Just, let them down as easily as possible. We have to be out of the country by 2:00 am Sunday Morning. I have a condo waiting there already."
She stiffened, then glared. "How long have you known?"
"Not long, I swear. My boss had it for me."
"But, Tsu, we'll be leavin geveryone behind. I just made knew friends."
"Keh, like Sesshomaru?"
Her eyes hardened. "Yes, Sesshomaru. He's a friend. He'll be so hurt. It'll be like his mate is leaving him again."
Tsubasa glared and crossed his arms. "Well, you aren't his mate. You're about to be mine, right?"
She faltered, but sputtered, "Y-yeh. I'm going to mate you, but-"
"Then no buts. If you're tired, I'll pack for you. Yeah, that's best. You need to rest."
Knowing not to argue, Kagome sighed tiredly and brushed past him, freezing when he called out to her. "Yeah?"
"I'm sorry. I didn't mean to upset you. I just...you and Sesshomaru..."
"I understand." She gave him a weak smile and headed to their bathroom, where she'd cry her eyes out for a while.
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Song: Secret Valentine- We THE Kings
Tsubasa sighed contently in his sleep, rolling over and tossing an arm onto Kagome's waist, or at least trying to. But when his arm landed on the bed, he woke from his light slumber. Groggily, he mumbled, "Kag?" He squinted his eyes as a ray of light streamed into the room throught the cracked door. Getting up, he eased toward the door and opened it, eyes narrowing in annoyance.
His master acted as though he hadn't noticed and contined to look at Kagome, who dully stared back. "So, you understand then?"
"What is there to not understand? You wish for me to go to Sesshomaru's and bid him a farewell in whatever way I wish to." She replied, standing from the diningroom table. "And I will return by the time Tsubasa will be leaving. Goodnight. Tell Tsubasa not to worry." Sliding on her coat, Kagome whipped around and walked out the front door.
Tsubasa flung open the door. "What the hell, man?! You just sent her off to him like-"
The youkai held up a hand. "Look, fool, you saw how broken up she was yesterday at the mere thought of leaving him. Atleast now she may say goodbye. Rest up. You have to get up earlier in a few hours. Three to be exact. G'night." Eyes smirking arrogantly, he headed off just as Kagome had.
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Kagome boredly slid the key out of her pocket and opened Sesshomaru's front door. 'He must really care to give me a key.' Closing the door gently behind her, she stalked toward the living room after seeing that the light was on. 'What is he doing?'
Sesshomaru turned to face Kagome after he saw that Inuyasha, Miroku, and Koga were staring behind him. He hadn't even caught her scent. "Kagome." 'Why does she seem so dull.
"Ho-how- wh-what the hell?!" Koga yelled.
"Oh yeah, Kagome came back." Inuyasha said offhandedly, sifting through the cards in his hands.
"What are you doing?" She inquired coldly.
Miroku smiled at her. "We are playing poker. Wanna join? We could make it strip poker." He winced and yelped when Sesshomaru punched him in the arm. "Ow!"
Sesshomaru nearly rolled his eyes. Looking to Kagome, he stated, "You were supposed to be here the morning. The pups were upset." When he saw that she did not plan to answer, he sighed and continued, "Something is on your mind. Out with it, woman."
Kagome tossed his key onto the table and stared him in the eyes. "I want to have sex."
His eyes widened considerably.
Inuyasha and Koga choked. "What the- Kagome!"
Miroku grinned pervertedly. "Wow. I wish Sango could be that way."
"What do you mean, woman?" Sesshomaru asked her.
"I meant exactly what I said. We've never truly done it in these human forms."
"So, you decided to come at 11:30 and say that before these imbeciles."
She frowned at him. "Must you always make everything so difficult? You're a man. Just get horny, and come on. I'll be waiting in the bedroom." In a stiff turn, she walked to his bedroom and closed the door.
Sesshomaru growled. "Damn woman. I am the alpha male."
"Alpha male my ass, Sesshomaru! Kagome's waiting! What are you doing! Be a man like Kagome said! Just be happy she wants to do it!" Miroku yelled. He shrank back and chuckled nervoucly when Sesshomaru growled viciously at him. "I mean, she did come all this way, leaving her fiance for you."
He blinked. "Hn. Get out of my house." He left to his bedroom and closed the door. A smirk crossed his lips at the sight of Kagome sprawled on the bed, her clothing on the floor. "You are lucky that I am in a good mood, Kagome."
She smiled seductively. "Blah, blah, blah. Come on, Sessho."
Smiling a little, he sank into the bed behind her and pulled her on top of him. "Little minx."
"Got anything to drink?" She asked softly.
Sesshomaru placed a chaste kiss against her lips before leaning over to reach into the minifridge beside his bed. He withdrew a bottle of wine and poured it into the glasses he kept near the small fridge. "White wine?"
Kagome nodded slightly, taking her glass gratefully. "Arigato."
"And what are we toasting to, miko?"
"To-" Her eyes flashed gently, and she grinned. "To a night of passion...with the taiyoukai that I love." She tilted the glass up to he rmouth and swallowed the small amount of wine.
Sesshomaru flashed her a quick, but genuine smile and placed his lips against hers. "You look simply beautiful tonight, dear." He sat his glass on the night stand after a small sip, then returned to Kagome.
Soft kiss and wine what a pretty friend of mine
Kagome buried her face in Sesshomaru's neck. He gnawed and nibbled against the delicate flesh on her neck as he sat up, reclining against the headboard with Kagome in his lap. She groaned and clawed his back. "At last, we're linked this way."
we're finally intertwined
She couldn't help the part of her that felt shy and juvenile when he drew back and stared at her intensely. "Don't look at me that way, Sesshou."
"Why not?" He asked throatily, returning to her neck as his fingers played with her clit.
She swallowed a loud moan and replied spunkily. "Because, I said so."
nervous and shy for the moment
we will come alive tonight
Kagome lifted her head and nibbled on his earlobe. "You're my little secret from Tsubasa, Sesshomaru. But not for long."
The words, music to his ears, made Sesshomaru growl appreciatively, gnaw harder, and pump his fingers into her quickly. And she returned the favor by gripping his member and stroking lovingly.
secret valentine
Their mewls, growls, purrs, and sounds blended together into a soft song. They gripped each other tightly, as though afraid to let go. Kagome cried out as she came. And Sesshomaru howled loudly.
We'll write a song
that turns out the lights
Sesshomaru held Kagome against him as she shook. He couldn't deny the strong vibrations he felt in his spine. But he was worried. "Kagome, are you well? You are shaking."
She looked up at him with a smile, tears in her eyes. "I'm fine. And you're shaking too."
He chuckled. "Yes, I know. You have that effect on me, my mate."
when both boy and girl start suddenly shaking inside
"Well, no need to waste valuable moonlight, Sesshomaru. That was the first of many tonight." Kagome panted, gripping Sesshomaru's member again. "This time, though, I want you inside me." She smiled and began to lower herself onto him, wincing a little from the rare position. Her breathing grew labored and fast when he pushed her back onto the bed and thrust into her.
don't waste your time
speed up your breathing
Kagome whimpered. "You ruin everything. I wanted to do you tonight. You always get to do me. I wanna please you."
Sesshomaru smirked and licked her cheek. "You are pleasing me well enough this way."
"No." She bit, pushing as hard as she could until they'd flipped and she was dominent. "I want to make love to you, Sesshomaru. And you're going to let me."
He cocked a brow. "Is that so? I could easily change positions."
"But you won't. So there. Now, close your eyes," she whispered, then placed butterfly kisses onto his eyelids once he had. "Good. Don't worry. I won' t dissappoint you."
just close your eyes
we'll hope it's not for nothing at all
Kagome ground her hips into Sesshomaru, smiling at his loud hissing. "Feels good, doesn't it, al-pha male?" She mocked, growling and forcing him against the bed when he tried to get up. "No. No. No. I'm in control now. At least let me finish this session, Sesshomaru. Don't be so stingy."
lay down be still
She stifled a giggled with her hand when she saw his facial expression. "Is the great Sesshomaru pouting?"
"You're being a tease, miko. This Sesshomaru does not like to be teased."
"I know." She whispered into his ear. "But you simply loooove it when I do it, right? I told you to relax. I'll love you good tonight, Sesshy. Mama will take care of you til morning."
don't worry talk they will
i'll be loving you until
morning's first light
breaks tomorrow
i'll take care of you tonight
"This Sesshomaru is not used to a woman being in control, Kagome." Sesshomaru attempted to push himself up, but his arms trembled when Kagome lowered herself onto him with great force. Hissing again, he lifted his head and nipped vigorously at her shoulder, lapping up the blood that spilled.
"Which is why I'm givin' you your first dose, Sesshomaru."
secret valentine
Sesshomaru groaned when she lowered herseld onto him again. Clawing at her hips, he muttered, "As you wish." His purr blended with Kagome's and he smirked. "What a symphony we make, my love."
We'll write a song
that turns out the lights
when both boy and girl start suddenly shaking inside
don't waste your time
speed up your breathing
just close your eyes
we'll hope it's not for nothing at all
'Tsubasa-' ~No Tsubasa! Just Sesshomaru!! 'But-' ~Shut up!~
when guilt fills your head
brush off rise up from the dead
this is the moment that we
will come alive
Sesshomaru dragged his claws down Kagome's back. he felt as though he would explode in any minute. "Kagome," his voice was gruff.
"Sesshomaru." She moaned back, grinding against him. "Oh, Sessho, I'm- I'm coming!" She screamed, thrusting her head into the pillow beside Sesshomaru's head to muffle it.
"Kagome!" Sesshomaru snarled out, not bothering to hide his pleasure. Panting, he smiled, "My turn?"
"Yes." She grinned back, kissing him. "Your turn."
brace yourself for love
sweet love, secret love.
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Sesshomaru dropped on top of Kagome, then rolled over, his arm tossed across her waist. Lazily he looked at the clock. "1:41." Snuggling tiredly against Kagome, he pressed his lips to her pulse. "I should have marked you." He smirked. Yawning softly, he asked her a question that a had ran through his mind the instant she'd come in that night. "Kagome, why does this entire thing feel as though it is a goodbye."
Kagome stiffened and looked over at Sesshomaru, but he was sound asleep. 'Oh thank Kami.' Tears streaked down her face as she snuck out of the bed and got dressed. She wrote him a small note and sat it beside his head, kissing his forehead gently. "Forgive me, my sexy little demon tenshi. And goodbye forever." Stifling a sob, she ran out of the house and hailed a cab.