I DO NOT OWN INSTANT STAR OR ANYTHING THAT INVOLVES IT! I DO NOT OWN ANY SONGS USED EITHER. PLEASE DON'T SUE!!!
I woke up around 1 o'clock refreshed from last night. I needed some coffee so that I could fully wake up. I put my robe around my nightie, seeing it was partially see-through, and headed towards the kitchen. Approaching the kitchen I heard male voices so I stopped outside the door to listen. "I know man but she is young." I heard Tommy saying. "You already said you like her kisses." Hmm…so Kwest is trying to hook Tommy up with someone. "Kwest, come on really I just met her and she doesn't even seem interested." "Tommy, she is gorgeous and she loves flirting with you." Kwest tried to persuade him. "I don't know I probably won't even see Jude much again after today." Oh my gosh. He is talking about me. So he does like me. "You are my best friend, so that means where ever I go you go, and where ever Sadie goes Jude can go." "You are crazy I tell you. And man she is not interested in me, all she did was put me down and try to get under my skin. Even all the flirting was just to see if she could get me riled up." "Listen Tommy if you like her go for it, what do you have to lose?" Kwest asked him. "Well for one I said I liked our kiss and she is hot. I never said I liked her. You just assumed so. And two does it look like I have time for a girlfriend. I would love to tap that though." Tommy said in a playful voice. So that's what he wants from me. Well, guess that Kwest was right all he wants is a one night stand. But then why is he trying to get us together. "Tommy, I swear you need to find someone to settle with you are not getting in younger." "Whatever, she is too young to want to settle anyway and I don't want a relationship. I like the way I spend my night's thank you very much." I decided I had heard enough and was ready to make myself known.
I walked into the kitchen and both Kwest and Tommy looked over towards me. "So I see one of the sleeping beauties has awakened." Kwest said smiling. I was shocked usually Sadie gets up before me. "Sadie isn't up yet? She always gets up before me." "Well, she kind of had a long night." Kwest said smirking. "Okay… okay…eww." That was not what I wanted to hear about my sister. Kwest and Tommy both just started laughing. I walked over to the coffee pot and made me a cup of coffee then grabbed a strawberry pop tart. I opened the pop tart and took a big bite. "Yummm..this is so good." I said chewing it with my eyes closed. I opened my eyes when I heard Tommy and Kwest laughing at me. "What?" "Never knew that pop tarts could make a girl have so much pleasure." Tommy said smirking. "Whatever they are my favorite. My every day ritual. Coffee and Pop tarts. Can't get through the day without them."
"She is not lying either. One day we ran out of pop tarts and she would not leave the house until I went to the store and got some. Now we keep at least five boxes in the cupboard." Sadie said coming in smiling, fully dressed, looking as if she stepped out of a magazine. "Wow, so Sexy Sadie even wakes up gorgeous." Kwest says walking over to Sadie and giving her a kiss on the cheek. "Well you know." Sadie said in reply. I looked down. I was the only one not dressed. Oh well. "So what are everyone's plans for today?" Sadie asked. "Well, since I have the day off I was hoping to spend it with you." Kwest said. "Oh honey, I'm sorry but I have to work today. A fashion-ista never rest." Sadie is one of the top fashion designers of Canada. Even the US loves her styles. "Ahh… well then I don't know what I'm doing." Kwest said. He seemed upset.
"I am off work today too; I really do not know what I'm going to do. Maybe be lazy." I said. "Wow so that is all you do is lay around doing nothing?" I looked at Tommy with smile. "No I like to have fun, just when I have a day off from my hard work I like to be lazy." "Sure, so what do you do?" Tommy asked me. "Well I work at a music store, I play for the customers sometimes, and I also go to classes on Mondays, Wednesdays, and Fridays." I said proud of myself. "Oh, so you love music that much?" Tommy asked. He seemed to be interested now. "Yes, very much so. I am majoring in Music Education. I want to teach students to sing and play instruments. I love it so much." I love music. It is my life. I am going to teach it seeing I can never live out my dream and actually make a record of my own. Music is my Passion. "Oh!" Tommy said. "Well since you love music so much and me, you, and Tommy is off work today, Tommy owns a record company, why don't we go there and show you around." Kwest said excitedly. "Oh that sounds like so much fun. Can we please?" I practically begged Tommy. "Wow the day I decided I'm not going in and you want me to go in to show you around. What do I get from this?" Tommy asked me smugly. "Come on. PLEASE. It would mean so much to me. Please." I begged again. "I guess but you owe me." "Fine, let me go get dressed." I said with a big smile on my face. "Okay, but don't take to long." Kwest said.
I ran to my room to get dressed. I put on my tight pair of jeans with black calf boots. Then I put on my white button up frilly shirt with blue jean jacket to match my pants. I put on light makeup and pulled my hair up into a ponytail.
When I'm all ready I run back to the living room where Tommy and Kwest are waiting for me. "Hey guys, ready? Where is Sadie?" I asked. I didn't see her. "She had to leave for work. She said to tell you she won't be home until later tonight because she has a dinner meeting with another fashion company." Kwest explained. "Oh okay. So are we ready to go to G major?" I asked excitedly. "I guess lets go."
We all walked out of the apartment towards the parking lot. "Hey Jude, if you want you can ride with me and I will bring you back after." Tommy told me. "Viper…mustang….hmm…most defiantly viper. Ooo, can I drive again?" I asked giving my puppy dog look. "Uh no. I have no idea what got into me last night but no one drives my viper. It must have been Temporary Insanity." Man I really wanted to drive the viper again. Oh well. Hmm… Temporary Insanity. That gives me an idea for a song. Guess I should write it down on the way over to the studio then. "Fine, then be that way." "I will." "Guys, I'm going to meet you two there I will follow in my car." Kwest said walking away.
We got into the viper and I pulled out my song book that I write all my lyrics I come up with in. It is a brown leather bound book with a brown ribbon to mark pages. There are little guitars and music notes bordering all the pages. On the front my name is embroidered on the bottom right corner. I had it custom made at this really neat shop down the road from my job.
I pulled out my pen and started writing. I scribbled and slashed through things. I finally finished it and looked up. I must have been really lost in my own world because we were stopped in front of a building that read G major on it. Oops.
"So Harrison what have you been writing this whole time that you didn't say a word to me and didn't notice we were here?" Darn. I usually don't let people know I write lyrics. I really don't want to show him, he manages a record company for goodness sakes. "Um nothing. Just some ideas for school." Dang that did not make any since. "Ideas for school. So school is that interesting. There was a lot of scribbling and scratching for it to just be ideas. If I didn't know any better I would think you were writing lyrics Harrison." Well I guess I should tell him since he already knows. "Yeah, I was. It is just something I love doing but I never share it with anyone. It is one of my dirty little secrets." I said softly hoping he wouldn't want to read it. "Wow… do you want to sing it for me?" What. No. Gosh. "I don't think so. I only sing by myself. I'm not that great. That is why I am going to teach it." He looked at me with puppy dog eyes. "Come on it can't be that bad. Please for me. I'll take you to a private studio and no one will hear you except me. I mean you can't sound that bad." Well it could be fun I guess. I know I can sing I just don't like to brag about it. Maybe I should. "Okay but only if you promise not to laugh at me." "Okay let's go."
We got out the car and made our way into company. Kwest had not arrived yet. When we stepped foot into the building I stood shocked. It is gorgeous. There were albums hanging every where. It looked like a fun place to be. There is a lounge area with the biggest couch ever in it. There is a kitchen area that people are chatting in and enjoying their lunch. It was beyond gorgeous. "Come on Harrison we can go into Studio A right now. There is no one set to record in here for the rest of the day." I just followed him into the studio. He sat down in an oversized leather chair in front of the mixing board. I sat in the chair next to him. "So do you know how to work that thing?" I said pointing to the mixing board. "Yes I do. I not only manage this place but I also produce. I have many talents." He said with a raise of the eyebrow. "Oh you do." I put on a flirtatious tone. "Many." He simply said and then turned to the board for a moment.
After a minute he turned back to me. "So, you ready to sing me that song of yours?" "I guess, but do you have a guitar? I kind of also thought up the chords to go along with it." He looked at me shocked but then responded, "Sure not many people can do that all off the top of their heads and in the time you did it. Wonder if it is going to be good or not?" "Well I hope so… but you promised not to laugh, remember?" "Yes I know." He walked into the sound booth and grabbed a guitar. "Here you go. Start whenever you like." I nodded my head to him. I grabbed my notebook and turned it to the page. I began to strum the intro to the song. Then I began to sing.
What just happened
Did you kiss me?
'Cuz that's a place we've never been
Until now
And I don't know
How it's gonna be after this
Do we pretend these feelings don't exist at all
Or do we fall?
While singing I noticed something about this song. It was about him. The entire thing. That kiss last night, it was so amazing. Even though I just met him I feel a connection to him. I never let anyone see my lyrics much less sing it for them.
My confusion shows whenever you get so close
I stumble, I stutter
Forget what to say
I'm nervous, I wonder why I'm acting this way
I am nervous around him. I still speak my mind but I worry about what he thinks of my music more than anyone else. I just met him yesterday. How can he have this affect on me?
It's temporary insanity
What's going on with you and me?
Is it real or is it fantasy?
Forever, or just temporary…insanity?
You made a move, don't change your mind
Too much to lose, we've crossed the line
Between friends and something more
Well we really haven't done anything to cross a line. Well that kiss was steamy. He did stay at my place. I never want people staying over like that not even Jamie. I like him. I don't want to lose him as a friend. Well at least I think we are friends.
Was it all a big mistake
And if it was, it's much too late to undo
And I don't really want to
Let you go
Would it really be a mistake if I didn't let my feelings be known? I feel as if I want to keep him in my life for a very long time. I know I really don't know him but I just have this feeling.
But I still don't know
How I feel about you
What this really means
It's crazy to want you
Is it meant to be?
I don't know what these feelings are. Are they infatuation? Are they adoration? Are they like? Or is it possible it is something else?
It's temporary insanity
What's going on with you and me?
Is it real or is it fantasy?
Forever, or just temporary?
It's temporary insanity
What's going on with you and me?
Is it real or is it fantasy?
Forever, or just temporary…insanity?
I wonder could it be temporary insanity. He never lets anyone drive his viper. He knew me for what four or five hours and he lets me drive it. He says it was just temporary insanity, but is that really it.
What you do to me
What comes over me
If this is crazy, there's nothing I'd rather be
I like this feeling whatever it is. I will have to figure that out before I decided to make my next move. Yeah that is a good start. Figure out what I am feeling.
It's temporary insanity
What's going on with you and me?
Is it real or is it fantasy?
Forever, or just temporary?
It's temporary insanity
What's going on with you and me?
Is it real or is it fantasy?
Forever, or just temporary?
Losing my mind, losing my mind, losing my mind
Losing my mind, losing my mind, losing my mind