January.

He has not touched me since that night. He acts as though it has never happened. Where I could not get passed the nightmare. I did not feel safe in this house, but yet there was no way of getting out. No way to escape, except for death. I had thought of it many times. Many times I saw it as an easier life, but if I was dead it wouldn't really be a life at all. I decided I would persevere through it. One day I would be free again. One day I would be in the real world. I would be able to see my friends, maybe meet someone who would love me, someone I could love back. My fantasies got me through the days slowly. They didn't seem to drag on when I thought of what life could be like if I wasn't stuck here. Dr. Cullen's attitude has changed greatly towards me. He seemed sincere about everything. He offers to make dinner, lets me roam the house, things he normally wouldn't allow me to do. He even let me open the windows so I could smell the outside world.

As the days passed, the nicer he was being. When I finally got the courage to look at his face he looked to be about ten years older than he really was. His eyes were blood shot and the look in his eye was different. Sadness, remorse, pain, regret, hurt, anger resided where his usual demonic look did. I gasped, unable to look away from his eyes. We stood there for who knows how long until he broke the silence.

"I'm sorry." he said, dropping to his knees. His eyes never leaving mine.

"What?" I asked, stunned.

"I hurt you. Physically hurt you. I realized how scared you must be to be trapped in a house with no way out, with a monster. I didn't realize what I was doing when I did it, but when I woke up the next morning and you wouldn't look at me, I realized I took something from you that could never be replace. So I am giving you your life back." He whispered, standing up from his knees. He walked to the front door and pulled back the curtains that were on the windows surrounding the door. He pulled keys out and unlocked the door. He held it open for me, the keys dangling in front of him.

"Your free. There is a full tank of gas in the car. Make a left out of the driveway and about a half a mile down the road there is a gas station, stop and ask for directions. Again I'm sorry." He placed the keys in my hand, but I seemed to be frozen. I could move, couldn't speak. Time stopped. "Go! I am letting you go! So go!"

Even with him yelling at me, I couldn't move. My mouth hung open, my eyes wide. My mind was telling me to run, but my heart was telling me to stay. I had no idea what to do. Any normal person would run for dear life. But the emotion he was showing now made me want to stay. Made me want to help him get better, because I sure as hell knew something was wrong with him.

"No. I want to stay." I said confidently, my gaze met his astonished face.

"Why in the hell would you want to stay with a monster?! I raped you! I took something that could never be given back…I raped you. LEAVE!" He all but shouted at me. I didn't flinch an inch. He wouldn't fool me.

"Yes you did, but we all make mistakes don't we? You apologized didn't you?" I asked, but didn't give him a chance to answer. "I will not leave. I have nothing to go back to any way. I figure we are both alone, why don't we keep each other company. And now that I know where the keys are, I can leave whenever I please. But when I go it will be my choice." I stated confidently. Then he said the last thing I never thought he would say.

"My family will be here within the next hour." He said, looking me in the eye. The front door was still open, the keys in my hand. I thrust the keys back in his hand and closed the door. I made my way to the kitchen to make something to eat. I was full of questions and he would answer them.

Ok, so this is a complete turn around for them. Instead of Bella being the insecure one, Dr. Cullen is. I hope you enjoyed it. Thanks for reading! =]

Kayla