Well, I finally got around to update, but it seems that this story isn't that popular after all. I barely got a review....

I honestly don't know if I'll keep going or not.....

Chapter 3- Realization

"Edward! How is this even possible?," I asked, frantic for an answer, hoping my son had it.

"I don't know. I thought you would. You're the doctor," Edward grinned.

"Edward. This is serious. All I did was...," I trailed off, not wanting to explain what I had done.

"All you did was what? Try to kill yourself? Esme nearly fainted when we found you at home on the floor. Alice had a vision of you in a hospital and so they came home from hunting earlier and called me. When we met at the house, I was shocked. I smelled human blood. Human blood! I thought you were dead Carlisle!," Edward shot a glare at me that made me turn away guiltily.

"Do you know how I felt? And Bella?," Edward continued.

I turned back to face my son.

"Bella? How is she?," I asked.

"Now she's fine. The medicine you gave her didn't do anything but put her to sleep. She was fine. Now, when she found out that you almost killed yourself over her, she was worried sick. Everyone is worried Carlisle. They would all be here, but it was doctor's orders that you only have one guest at a time. Everyone voted that I would be the one you'd want to see first," Edward frowned.

"Oh."

That's all I could say. Would sorry be enough? Not likely.

"Esme, theoretically of course, is now sobbing out in the waiting room with Bella. I convinced the others to go home and I would call," Edward said quietly.

"What happened to me? I'm trying to figure this out, but nothing seems to make sense. Human blood? I'm hypothesizing that you smelled human blood because I lost so much of it. I had blood transfusions, I assume?," I inquired.

"You were in surgery! Of course you did! You fell face first on the damn knife that ended up in your stomach," Edward was fuming.

So I did have human blood put into me. That's what probably diluted the venom, making me human again. But, it's only a matter of time before the venom spreads and I become a vampire...again.

"Did the doctor say anything else to you while I was asleep?," I asked.

"No. From the minute I bought you here, I didn't see you until about thirty minutes ago. You have been here almost two days now. All I was told was that you needed emergency surgery because you were bleeding to death," Edward said, sorrow full in his golden eyes, "I was so overwhelmed that I couldn't think straight."

"I'm alive; aren't I? Thanks to you, Edward. I don't know what came over me; honestly. I thought about Bella...and the family...and realized that what I did was wrong. By the time that happened, I was already bleeding to death. I'm sorry. I didn't mean to cause you all this worry. I...I just don't know what happened," I smiled.

Edward sighed heavily; I wonder what he's thinking.

His eyes slowly met mine and he smiled. Brighter than I had ever seen.

"I'm so glad," Edward wrapped his arms around me in a hug.

I returned it gladly as a single tear slipped down my cheek.

We slowly pulled away, reluctant to let go of each other.

I wiped my eyes as there was a knock at the door.

The door opened and Dr. Holsten peeked in.

"Everything alright?," he asked, looking at me.

"Yes. We're fine. You can come in if you like," I smiled, welcoming.

Dr. Holsten grabbed the chart from the door before entering and closing the door behind him.

"Well. You look a lot better than you did before. How are you feeling?," he pulled a chair up to the left side of my bed and sat, looking over the chart.

"Fine. Just a little achy. Nothing I can't handle," I said truthfully.

My whole body felt stiff and almost numb, but it wasn't too painful.

"Do you remember anything that happened up to this point?," he asked.

I sighed deeply, trying to recall something between the house and the hospital. I blinked. Nothing.

"The last thing I remember is blood. Nothing else is coming to mind," I said.

"He was unconscious as I got to the house," Edward backed me up.

"I see. And how did you find him?," Dr. Holsten looked up at Edward.

"He was on the floor of our living room, covered in blood. The house was missing a few things and a window was broken so I assumed someone broke in," Edward said with a straight face.

I'm going to talk to Edward later about what he said. It's a good thing he said what he did. Otherwise, I would end up staying here longer for attempted suicide.

"Well...I guess that's good. I was thinking somewhere along the lines of suicide, but it's not after all," Dr. Holsten smiled.

I breathed a small sigh of relief. Perfect.

"Okay. Well Carlisle, you're not leaving us for two more days, so get comfortable. You do need a few more stitches on your leg and I want a blood panel done just to make sure. Have you ever heard of lead poisoning?,"Dr. Holsten asked.

Of course I had.

"Yes," I answered.

"That knife that you were cut with basically poisoned you. It's a blood disease. The symptoms are-," I cut him off.

I knew this already and I just wanted time to speak with my family.

"The symptoms are: headaches, fever, nausea, vomiting, fatigue, weakness, stomach pains and a list of various others," I said impatiently, but trying to be polite.

Dr. Holsten looked at me, apparently surprised with my knowledge.

He smiled.

"Doctor or nurse?," he asked me.

"Doctor," I smiled back.

"What a coincidence. Anyway, I'll be back in a few minutes for the blood test and to finish those stitches. Then you can rest all you want," Dr. Holsten got up and smiled at Edward and I one last time before he quietly left the room.

I sighed again.

"You should have heard what he was thinking. At first, he thought that he got showed up by a patient smarter than him," Edward laughed lightly.

I grinned.

"I wanted him to leave so we could speak," I said.

"About...?"

"About everything. I know that what I did was wrong. Especially for the fact that I'm a doctor and I should know better. But, now that I'm human, a few things have to change. Yes, I do need to sleep and I do need to eat, so that's basic. And, as our top priority, we need to figure out this mess and find out when I will become a vampire again. Otherwise, life will go back to normal. I'll work like I normally do and no one will suspect a thing. And thank you for telling Dr. Holsten that someone broke in our house. That saved me a lot of unnecessary time here."

"You're welcome. He was contemplating a suicide attempt in his mind. And that sounds good. After you're done with the stitches and things, I'll call the others to come and visit," Edward smiled.

"You know...I've never felt a needle in my life. When I was human, stuff like that didn't even exist. I wonder how it feels...," I thought out loud.

"Don't worry. You didn't miss a thing. Needles suck," Edward grinned.

I laughed.

"Of course you would say that."

He just smiled.

"It's nothing you can't handle," he said.

I felt a small smile grace my lips as I looked up at the ceiling.

If I was human, at least it wouldn't be all that bad. I have my family, after all.

I don't really know what to say....review please? Wether I keep going or not depends on how popular this chapter is.

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Blood Red Vampress