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Chapter 4

Jacob was dreaming, he was a grown up in his dream. He was at his dad's funeral. There were tears, his tears.

Ding Dong.

He woke.

Ding Dong. Jacob thought he was only dreaming about that door bell too- apparently not.

Who could it be? he thought as he opens the door.

It's Edward the crazy. "Hi." he said politely, being brought up in the old days has taught Edward manners no teenagers now could compare.

Jacob fight back a shiver as he stood by the door, wearing only boxer and a singlet.

"Don't be afraid, I am not crazy, I just act it, for instance now - showing up at your door step. Sorry to be... please don't be afraid, I came to apologies." Edward continued "about yesterday, I am sorry. I am not going to loss my temper again, today." Jacob let out a small smile. "I plan to buy you breakfast as an apology?" Edward looked sincere, and hopeful.

"I can't." replied Jacob. "Who's there?" Billy ask from the kitchen "I am making toast by the way."

"Dad! I will make them!!" Jacob frown deeply, He turn to Edward "I am sorry, um.."

" I will go." said Edward, "Wait," Jacob called out, Edward awaits for him to say something, but Jacob has yet to figure out what he wanted to say, after a long second, he blunt out: "You can have breakfast here, if you want?"

"With you family?" Edward asked in surprise.

"umm yeah, Just Dad and me..." miaooo.. "Oh, and, my cat.." Jacob picks up Minty.

Edward took a step back, "Um, sure, if it's okay with your dad...and your cat" animal usually doesn't like his scent, especially cats.

Jacob smiles and let Edward in. "Yeah, no problems. I will just be a moment, come in."

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When Jacob came back to the kitchen, Edward is sitting on the round table opposite his dad, Billy has made toast and put out milk and cereal.

"I could've make the breakfast-"

"They are the same whoever makes it, right Edward?" Billy asked friendly.

"Right." Edward replied politely, looking at Jacob.

He realise the reason Jacob needed to stay was for his dad, who is in a wheelchair.

Edward went silent.

And now nobody is talking.

Edward isn't eating either.

"Would you like some coffee?" Jacob asked.

"Coffee would be great" Edward answered.

Billy makes small talk to Edward as Jacob makes coffee.

Edward answers him with great manners, which Billy was impressed.

"How old are you Edward?" he asked.

"Seventeen" if Edward was nervous he didn't show it.

Billy is careful about his words, he asked Edward where abouts he lives, how many brothers and sisters he has.

To Billy it was obvious that Edward likes his son.

Billy quickly realise that Edward was also the boy who fought with his brother for Jacob yesterday as he tells him about his foster brothers and sisters.

Although as a father Billy is open to homosexuality, nevertheless he is still protective of Jacob. He thought in his head 'they are only sixteen and seventeen year olds, what could they possible know at such tender age? especially of their sexuality.'

Edward is truly nervous now, he could hear Billy's thoughts loud and clear.

No.1 he wants to know what's his intension with his son.

No.2 He wants to know how can he be sure he is gay.

No.3 he also wants to tell him that his son Jacob isn't sure just yet.

At last, unconsciously Billy also wants to know, what about grandchildren?!

"So," Billy starts to say-

"I am very serious about this, I am - " Edward blunt out "You son, being friends with your son"

Jacob chocked on his coffee, literally.

It surprised Billy somewhat.

"I know we are young, we may not know exactly what we want" Edward looks at Jacob for a brief moment, who looks at him with dropped jaw. "But I like your son very much, sir" Edward bites his lips, "and I will be a good friend to him regardless." If Edward could blush, he will look like a tomato right now.

Like Jacob.

"Quite right" said Billy, he had to admit, he likes this boy.

Edward heard Billy's thought as he sips the coffee Jacob made for him. It tasted like happiness.

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Jacob couldn't put it in words how he feels about the most bizarre breakfast they just experience minutes ago.

They are now walking to school together. Edward is walking closely beside him.

he said finally, "I don't understand what just happened?!"

Edward stop walking for a moment " Can we skip school today?"

"What?" jacob stop walking too "You're crazy!"

"Yes. Can we? Would you like that?"

"I...Edward," It was the first time he says his name "that's crazy."

"Crazy is okay, Boring is not" Edward smiles, " It's my birthday...I don't want to spend it at school"

"Oh, I didn't know that," Jacob thought for a moment "What about your family?"

"We will have family party tonight, something small." Edward tried to guess what jacob was thinking, but he didn't allow himself to hear his thoughts.

After a long moment, Jacob asked "what do you want to do?" He isn't entirely sure why he's considering at all.

"I want to do something I have never done before." with that, Edward grabbed Jacob's hand walking towards the opposite direction of school.

Jacob's hand is cold because of Edward. But he didn't mind. He couldn't explain this feeling, whatever it is, it felt safe.

All the way, Edward didn't let go of Jacob's hand, even though there were people looking and school goers staring at them, he hold on to his hands tight feeling the warmth of Jacob's.

They stop in front of the travel buses company.

"That's was the first thing." Edward said with a grin. He was happy.

"What was the first thing?" Jacob couldn't help but smile too.

"Something I have never done" Edward said.

"Walking on John. St in the morning?"

Still smiling, "No, I mean this, holding hands with someone," Edward add "and walking on in the morning - I usually drive."

Jacob felt warm.

"I am sorry my hands are cold" Edward said with no intention of letting go.

Jacob laughed "You know, when you say sorry, you need to mean it"

"I am sorry" Edward said again.

Jacob laugh "No you're not"

"Okay, I am not" Edward really isn't. He's really happy "Now, second thing."

"Get run over by buses?"

"That's not possible," Edward reach for his pocket "Here, I got two tickets to la push"

"what? You planned this?" Jacob thought this was a spontaneous thing.

"Actually, I was planning to go after school, if you'd come with me of course, but I couldn't wait the whole day."

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Once they got on they sat near end of the bus.

The bus start off empty but have picked up some passenger on the way to the beach.

Jacob couldn't believe he is here, yet it feels right.

The trip was quiet, and comfortable.

Edward sat near the window, he looked out a lot, like he was thinking something very special. Jacob relaxed into his seat, there still be an other 30 minutes before their arrival. He hope it won't start raining.

"I think it will rain today." Edward said quietly.

"That's fine." Jacob said contently, eyes closed.

"Why don't you ask me the reason we are going to la push?" Edward turn to ask the boy.

"Why are we going to la push?" Jacob ask with a amused smile.

Edward chuckle lightly, it wasn't the point. But he knows Jacob knows that too.

Jacob smiled, "Okay I don't know why I didn't ask, but I figure you know where we're going and it's your birthday so, I followed."

Edward looked closely at Jacob's eyes that twinkle in the morning light.

"Is that good enough answer?" Jacob's lips curl and gave a little smile.

"Yes." Edward observes the out line of Jacob's lips. "I wish it's my birthday everyday,"

"Oh?" Jacob ask curiously, without realizing the space between their face is small.

"So you'd do things with me everyday?" Edward said in a question tone, he looked nervously at Jacob's eyes, and moved a little closer "Going to la push could be the third thing I have never done."

Jacob could feel the heat in his own skin, he hoped to goodness he isn't blushing too excessively.

"wha..what would be the second....thing, Edward?" With that, Jacob have only a second before he close his eyes in time.

Edward's lips was on his, ever so lightly Edward kiss Jacob on the corner of the lips first, then a little more to the lips, then a little more - until pink lips of Jacob become the center of Edward's universe and focus.

Jacob's heart was beating profoundly. He is being kiss for the first time. But he didn't although he should have taken Edward's words literally when Edward said he wanted to do things he never done before, which would makes this Edward's the first time too?!

It couldn't have been more than a few moments, but it felt a lot longer. Edward couldn't tell, maybe it had been a minute or, three?

Jacob's cheek was rosily pink, like his matching pair of newly kissed lips.

"Hap...Happy birthday." Jacob said with a raspy voice suddenly.

They both cracked up laughing.

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It was actually raining a little when they finally arrived at the beach.

La push was too quiet for a beach. The wind was strong and cold.

If it wasn't on Jacob's mind before, it is now.

"You've never been here before?"

"I have, but a really long time ago. I um.. I was always sick as a kid, I've never been to the pool much, let alone the beach." Edward looked far away "I've always want to swim in the ocean, but of course being ill all the times means I was never allowed."

"You're going to swim now?" Jacob sounded worry, "It's dangoues in weather like this, the water is below zero degree."

"I will be fine"

"How can you be sure?" But Edward is stripping "Because nothing can happen to me" he continue to take off his clothing.

Jacob couldn't help but star at his body.

"Watch my stuff?" Edward said

"What?" he flushed.

"My clothes and stuff"

"Oh, yeah" Jacob took his clothes, watch and wallet, trying not to stare at Ed, who is only wear a tight black bonds undie.

"You can watch me too. It's yours anyway." said Edward as he gave him a quick kiss on the cheek and ran to the sea.

Jacob was speechless.

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They have found themselves sitting in a cafe/restaurant near La Push after the swim.

Jacob's mind is still going on how Edward is Not wearing any underwear inside his jeans.

When he came back up from the water, it got very wet, obviously, so without any warning Edward took the little underwear off as he reach for his jeans and put it on, like it is the most normal thing to do, leaving Jacob eyes widen and face go red.

He didn't say anything, but every time legs or knees bump accidently under the table, it's the only thing he could think of - no undies!

Edward seem to be in a weird mood.

Jacob felt unease.

"What's the matter?" Jacob ask finally.

"Nothing, I am not hungry that's all"

"You seem quiet"

"I am sick of it all, I don't know what's the point of all this."

Jacob's heat skip a beat.

"How...what do you mean?"

"I don't see the point of my existence sometimes, I mean, the swim, for years and years, I dreamt of coming here and just have a blast, but when i finally did it, it...was good... but nevertheless I just don't know what's the point anymore... I wish I am someone else I just wish I was... not me"

"Don't we all feel that way sometimes? You know I'd give anything to be beautiful just like you." As soon as the words leave his mouth, Jacob felt embarrassed. Since when he think Edward is beautiful?

Edward gave him a sad smile. He went quiet.

The meal has came, Jacob ordered meat ball spaghetti while Edward is having a cup of coffee.

"I wish I was you" Edward finally said.

Jacob feel sad but didn't know where it came from.

Edward continued "I grew up in an orphanage. Childhood to me was a lot of Don't do this, don't do that. I was always sick as a boy. I spend days on my bed every time I got a cold or something... no body wanted a child like that if you know what I mean... At 16, I finally had to leave the orphanage home as I was getting too old for them. Then at 17, I was really sick... I mean...." Edward sounded in pain " All my life, I never had anyone who really... I guess I just wish that I have at least someone...I want somewhere I could call home.... Nowhere feels like home, But then I look you Jacob, I look at you I feel the love you have - in you, around you. I can't tell you how much I thought about you since the day I met you. Your whole being...I didn't understand what it was, then I suddenly realise... When I kiss you on the bus, I realise that more than wanting to be you, I wanted to be with you. Sometime I wish that I was someone else, maybe you think I am talking crazy, I hope I am not scaring you, but I even felt envious of your father, you love him so much... I even felt jealous of your cat, he love him too. I just know that..."

"You don't know"

Edward was taken back by Jacob's tone.

"You have a very sad past and I wish I could change that, I wish I met you when I was a little boy, I know I will somehow take care and look out for you, I will go to the beach with you on sunny days and I will let you stay in my bed when you feel sick...but although nobody did those things for you, it doesn't mean you don't deserve them. My childhood was a lot, a lot of tears and hospitals. My mother was sick. I travel from hospital to home, and home to hospital. It took Dad many years to feel normal again after the lost of his legs and mum. I mean, I could be sitting somewhere right now moaning about the unfairness all these are, and crying my eyes out, having said that, there isn't a day went by without me wishing that my mother wasn't sick and she's..." Jacob stop mid-track, he didn't trust his voice.

Edward for the first time in years felt tears in his eyes, he thought he has lost that after he became a cold blooded vampire.

"But...you don't stop at that thought, wishing..." Jacob found his voice again, quietly but firmly he said "You find a way to love again, to take care of the people around you. It hasn't been easy for them, so you make it easier by being there. But you are in so much self pity you are almost blind from the people who actually love you, you know, I don't know much about you, but I know you have a family now? Love them."

Edward wanted to tell him, there are still so much Jacob doesn't know. It make perfect sense what Jacob just said if he was still alive but not as a vampire. But now that he is a vampire, it changes a lot. And the sadness is 10 fold because that - having lunch, being with Jacob, would be temporary in the long run. 100 years later, he will be here by himself, and Jacob would be long gone. That is why he is sad, he doesn't want this to end. Like Jacob said, fine a way to love, he has, and then it will end before he know it... and what's the point then?

Edward wanted to tell him, Jacob would understand, Edward believed.

"Jacob, there is something important about me, that I am not telling you. And if I tell you, it's will affect our relationship effectively." Edward said in a low voice. " I.."

"wait," Jacob grab Edward's hand "sorry" He took back his hand.

"No" Edward held on to Jacob's hand, "don't be"

"I need to know, you said relationship, But - are we in a relationship? "

"Over 200 years I have never hold anyone else's hand, Never kiss anybody, never in my entire life went swimming with another person, let alone showing somebody my body. If I didn't think I was in a relationship - "

"But relationship takes two person, you never asked me - and what do you mean 200 years?"

"Yes, I never asked you." Edward is new to this "But I showed you?"

Jacob was quiet for a moment. Then his face break into a brilliant smile "You are a smooth talker, aren't you? Do you do this a lot?"

Edward's heart felt incredibly warm as he see Jacob smile like that "Yes, I do, I've been practicing just in case I met you."

"So now that um....." Jacob breath in for a second, he can't believe it, this morning when he wakes up the plan was to make breakfast and go to school, but now, he is 1. in a relationship with someone 2 . someone is a boy; 3. the boy is Edward. What more surprise could Edward tell him? "that we are...boyfriends?" Jacob stop to check if Edward agrees

Edward lean over the table and gave him a kiss, so yes.

Jacob continue with a smile, "so what haven't you tell me that would effectively affect our relationship?" Jacob said in a light-hearted voice.

Edward is having second thoughts about telling him, why break this now?

"What do you think of sex before marriage?" Edward asked.

Jacob burst out laughing, "Is that a confession of a sex addict or something? That's what you want to tell me?"

Edward smiles "No, but I wanted to change the subject, so what do you think?"

"I don't know, sex before marriage, with someone who doesn't wear underwear? Well..."

Edward laughed out loud "Oh shut up, it was wet, and you couldn't stop looking mind you"

"I thought you said it's mine anyway" Jacob said.

"yeah, about that" Edward took Jacob's hand and kiss it "It works both ways."

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They didn't realise, but it was the perfect first date anyone could've asked for.

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But in both two boys mind, there were worries with no apparent reasons. Neither of them are accustom of being this happy. They sat in the cafe, and the hours slip by. If only they could stay here like this forever. If only

So, another chapter, it's pushing to chapter 5 and I under 10 review~ really?! I like this story personally, just me?? Sigh!!!