Chapter 25: An insatiable desire

A/N: Yeah I know, my update is late again, very late to be exact. I've been watching jdramas and I can't take it off of my mind. It was the first drama that I ever cried over on. I had the feeling that maybe I'm overreacting or if it's just normal for humans to feel like that after watching it. I just hope that this feeling will go away soon. I hate being depressed, but sometimes I enjoy being like that. Weird, eh?

Chapter start………….

A year has passed, yet there was no news for Zero's safety. He never wrote, never called, and he never even sent anything to make them think that he's still alive and kicking. It was a sad moment for Yuuki to remember the things that he had left, his room which was filled with his scent, and his spare clothes that didn't look like they've been touched, and most of all, the memory that he had spent with her. Everytime that he would cross her mind, tears would threaten to fall. She really paid no mind to it so much since she promised to herself that she wouldn't cry whenever she thinks of him, if he had seen that, he'd be disappointed at her, a feeling that was no longer felt yet remembered.

"Hey little prefect, focus on your job more" her thoughts were stopped as she heard a familiar voice. It belonged to a night class member whom she truly loathed, Hanabusa Aidou. She had been in a daze without noticing it. The day class girls pushed then and there and she had been backing them off 10 minutes ago.

For once she had thought, why won't they walk faster? Would it bother the night class to walk with a faster pace than the normal? It wouldn't be so hard, would it?

More tears threatened to fall but she managed to keep them intact. A certain someone would worry if he caught her crying without telling him the reason. She hated worrying that person, and that person was none other than Kuran Kaname, her knight in shining armor, as the chairman would call him when she was discussing serious matters with him. She would blush and turn away once she hears these words, not because of her evident crush on him, but the uneasiness she felt. It felt wrong for him to even notice her even just a bit. It always sounded so weird for him to care for her in such a way that she would be enticed by it, a move that will eventually enhance the doubt in her. What if she was just another plaything for him, just like everyone else in the night class. She wouldn't want that no matter what happened. But what if he really was playing with her? Can she accept it? Or will she be alone for the rest of her life, acting like a doll with strings?

Her thoughts were hindered again when a day class girl stepped beside her, for once she felt so angry at them that she wanted to tear them to shreds. She gave the girl a glare that made her want to run. The girl looked at her in fear and ran off with the rest of the others. She was now alone, with the night class walking away from her. Yuuki thought twice about her actions, she had made a day class girl run off from fear. What was happening to her? What would the night class think of her? Was she becoming Zero?

A laugh was heard from a distance. She turned towards it. A lean figure stood beside her, wrapping his arms around her. A gesture that she was fond of for so many years. A gentle hand caressed her right cheek, that was when the tears freely fell. The figure hugged her closer. Disappointed that the girl's hands were plainly hanging from her side.

"You're still thinking about it?" the figure asked. It just caused more tears to fall. She reminisced about it and found it silly to be worried about something that will eventually come back. She had so much faith in him that no matter what happened; he was still the person with the right views and opinion.

"Who wouldn't?" she said in a hoarse voice. It really wasn't helping her. Making her be reminded of that person makes it even uneasy yet sometimes it wavers. She would reject the idea and think of his condition as well and alive. She dared to make herself think that he was alive, still eating and having fun with his hunter friends, if he had any that is.

"But it's alright, I know he's still alive" she choked out. No doubt evident in her words. The figure slowly released her from his tight hold, which made her relax at last. He smiled at her tenderly and patted her head.

They stared at each other's eyes for a while before a bored voice cried out to them. "Dorm leader, it's time for class~!"

They didn't pay attention to the voice and just got lost in each other's eyes. It was her who decided to break the staring competition. The figure waved a hand at her and kissed her lovingly on the cheek before giving her a last pat on the head.

"See you later, Yuuki" he waved to her, silently walking towards their classroom. She waved back, forcing a smile as response. She had her head down. More tears cascading down her cheeks. An unlikely sight for a prefect to give.

He stopped for a while, gaining her full attention. She stared at his back for a while, eyebrows knitted together in sheer confusion.

"Have you forgotten about the decision, Yuuki?" more tears fell from her cheeks. She had been thinking about the other party so much that she had forgotten to think about the other one close by. She had her head down again, tears soaking the asphalt ground.

"Not really" she forced to smile for a bit. She felt a grin touch his lips though he wasn't facing her way. She felt the uneasiness shower down to her. It wasn't a decision that can be made in one day, that would be stupid.

It was a trivial decision, one would be hurt eventually and she would be the only one happy. Sharing would be immoral and she wouldn't dare thinking about that.

She felt him walk away, sadness washing over her. But there was something she has thought of just now as she was being cradled in the arms of the pureblood leader. Her heartbeat wasn't racing anymore and a blush didn't show unlike before. Was it just infatuation that she felt for the pureblood, or was she just blinded by her sadness to not notice it? She sobbed now, she was torn apart once again, but she believed that maybe she really didn't love him; maybe she had a feeling that was sealed off or put off for Zero. With the pureblood around, she didn't think of anything affectionate, but with Zero, it was more than that, she felt safe and loved.

She held her head up high in shock. So it really was Zero that she loved and preferred more. She wanted to slap herself for being stupid and blind about not noticing him. She assured herself that once he comes back, she'll make his journey worthwhile.

Yuuki had her head up and walked away. Doubt no lingered her thought nor was she troubled. All she felt was hope that she'll be able to say it before anything comes up.

A/N: How was it? Reviews please~!!!!

And maybe next time… I'LL FLY YOU TO THE MOON~!