A Change Of Heart

Pam walked out of that room and onto the ship deck, feeling sorry for herself and for Jim. He just couldn't understand. Pam knew that there would be trouble if Roy saw them together. During Jim's confrontation with her, Pam learned something else. He loved her. The look in his eyes was full of love, sadness. It was as though his eyes were pleading with her in some way. Pam had to get out of there as soon she could. She just couldn't look into those eyes. It broke her heart to see Jim like this. Pam and Roy also knew that Pam was also in love with Jim. She'd never say it, but she had a sinking feeling that somehow, someway Jim knew about it. But for the time being, Pam had to bury those feelings.

Lunch with Roy was very quiet. Pam looked around the room at the passengers. Holly was sitting with Kevin, she was apparently still under the idea that Kevin was mentally challenged. Carol sat by herself, a cigarette in her hand. Pam assumed that Michael had made her angry in some way. Pam didn't see Dwight anywhere. Andy was trying to feed food to Angela, shoving his fork in her face. And Michael was feeding french fries to Jan. No wait.. he was shoving them into her mouth and Jan was yelling at him.

"Michael, stop it! I don't want any fries!" Pam heard Jan snap at Michael.

"Babe, don't protest just eat." Michael tried to shove another fry into Jan's mouth but she slapped him.

Michael looked like he was about to burst into tears. Very embarassed by her action, Jan gave Michael a quick peck on the cheek and said "Remember babe, stay away from Carol and Holly."

Pam couldn't take her eyes off of Michael. They were in similar situations. Both trapped like insects in jars. Pam walked over to Michael and sat beside him.

"I'm not allowed to sit beside females." Michael muttered softly.

"Michael, its alright I just wanted to talk to you." Pam replied.

"Jan isn't going to like this." Michael said softly.

All of a sudden, Pam felt a new feeling inside of her. What Michael had said, brought her to her senses. Michael couldn't let Jan push him around. He didn't love her, he wanted someone else. But Jan's jealousy limited him. They were in the exact same situation.

"Look." Pam said, not sure if she was saying this to Michael or to herself. "You shouldn't let Jan limit you. If you want to hang out with other people you should. Don't let Jan control you."

"She threatened to beat me if I do." Michael soflty cried.

"Don't let her scare you. If you love someone else, go for it."

"Well, I sort of think Holly is very cute."

"Then go for it." Pam encouraged him.

"You're right, Pam." Michael replied, brightening up a great deal. He went to sit beside Holly and Pam could see that he was asking her to have a drink with him. She could see Holly nod and Michael quickly turned to her and tried but failed miserably to wink at her. Pam winked back.

Pam decided now that she had helped Michael with his love life she had better fix her own. She had a special person to apologize to. And he was standing on the deck. Pam dashed up the stairs. She didn't want to be too late. She'd seen Karen. She knew that if she stepped aside, Karen would make a move on Jim and all would be lost. Pam ran and ran until she finally reached the deck. She saw him all by himself, looking out into the ocean, very sad but he was still Jim. A feeling of relief flooded her, she suddenly felt an urge to run to him as fast as possible. With her heart beating fast, her blood pumping, she dashed over to him as fast as she could, her legs felt light and her eyes were on nothing but him. When she caught up to him she could manage a small "Hi Jim." How pathetic. She had so much more to say and the most she could get out was "Hi."

Very slowly he turned his head to look at who was beside him. His miserable face looking into hers. "Hey Pam." He replied, his tone sounded very dull, as if he had just given up on life. Pam looked into his sad eyes and felt pity wash over her. She made him miserable and now she was worried that he wouldn't want to take her back. Pam knew that he would be a bit upset with her. She had been a bit of an ass to him and he deserved an apology.

"Look Jim, I didn't know what I was saying. I'm sorry, Roy is a jerk, I know, and I'm just really, really sorry and I hope you can forgive me and take me back please, I don't know what I was thinking, I made a mistake."

Pam kept babbling on and on with her apology and yet Jim was smiling at her the whole time.

He finally stopped her. "Pam, its alright, I know."

"I've had a change of heart, I've realized that you're the one I love."

Pam looked deep into his eyes and searched for a reply in them.

He wrapped his arms around her and embraced her. "You have no idea, how long I've wanted to hear that." Out of the corner of her eye, Pam saw a small tear brush down her cheeks. In seconds, there were tears in her own eyes.

"I know" Pam replied in a voice that was on the verge of tears, "And I'm sorry."

They broke out their embrace after what felt like an eternity. Jim smiled at her and said "Theres no need to be."

Their silence was maddening. Pam itched to say something but felt the ball was still in his court.

"Want to see an awesome view?" He asked her after a long silence.

"Sure." Pam replied.

"Okay, close your eyes." Pam obeyed, Jim lifted her onto the edge of the deck and spread out her arms out just like an angel.

"Open them." He whispered in her ear.

Pam obeyed and what she saw brought an exciting sensation up her body. She was speechless.

"Wow, Jim...I don't know what to say."

"Its an amazing view, isn't it?" He asked, still holding onto her arms the whole time. "You look just like an angel."

Pam turned to look at him and he looked back at her. Very slowly he let her arms down and their faces moved towards each other closer and closer...

Just when their lips were about to meet they heard the last voice they wanted to heard the voice that neither of them wanted to hear.

"Pam!"

Cliffie! I love cliffies, my world revolves around them! Its not who you think it is. I do not own The Office or Titanic.

Sorry for late update, I've been so busy enjoying my March Break that I forgot.

Happy March Break!

Infernape Master