Disclaimer: i do not own any of the Twilight characters. Property of S.M

This chapter is very fast, i dont really think it matches but i was desperate for Edward to come back.
JACOB AND BELLA DON'T GET TOGETHER, THEY ARE JUST FRIENDS! lol

Anyway i hope i havent ruined it.

Its not a great story but ... i had to try. =)

I dropped the phone and ran out the door straight past the rabbit and the motorcycle. I pulled the heat from within and let it engulf me. Before I had even hit the trees I was running on all fours, going straight to Forks.

But I wasn't alone.

Jake? Sam thought.

No it's Santa Clause… of course its Jacob Leah snapped.

What are you doing up? And what's you're rush… Before he could finish all my thoughts of Bella were up on display for him and Leah to see.

Oh great! Here we go! Crazy Bella's back Leah whined,

Shut up Leah I snapped.

Jacob, tell me what's going on? Sam thought softly.

But I didn't have time to answer; I was across the road from Charlies.

I have to go I phased before Sam could order me to stay.

I was going to burst through the front door but it was locked so I knocked loud and hard, tapping my foot impatiently.

Charlie opened the door and his face said it all, complete fear.

"K-K-K-Kit –chen" he pointed a shaky hand behind him.

I passed him and into the kitchen, there on the ground was Bella.

She was once again wrapped up in a tiny ball, but this time she was rocking back and forward. It was painful to see, she was hurting.

I kneeled down and reached out to pull her hair from her face.

My touch seemed to bring her back, her head slowly raised to look at me.

When her eyes met mine it was hard to not burst into tears. The old chocolate brown eyes I loved were gone; instead hurt and heartache had taken their place.
My heart skipped a beat.

"Jacob…" she whispered "…he's gone."

The pain intensified in her eyes and then the tears came, she wasn't crying or sobbing instead she was howling and wailing. It frightened me, Bella always hid her pain but it didn't mean I couldn't feel it. Now she was letting it out, I found my heart breaking for her.

I pulled her into my arms and cradled her, rocking us both back and forward.

Praying she would survive this.

The wailing slowly turned into sobs and the sobs into whimpering.

Eventually she had cried herself to sleep.

I held her tiny body in my arms and carried her up the stairs to her room, and lay her down. "Please…don't leave me," she whimpered.

I wasn't sure if it was a dream but I didn't leave, I lay down next to her and held her tightly. I knew why she always held her torso; it was because she felt like she was about to fall apart.

A piece of paper scrunched up in her hand caught my attention.

I pulled it out and read.

Bella.

We have left. I write this without Edward's permission.

I'm sorry Bella, I'm sorry to put you through this again.

I have always and will always love you.

Please don't try and find us, all you will find is heartache.

I love you.

Forever.

Alice.

My hands started trembling, I dropped the note, letting it fall to the floor. And concentrated on Bella's slow heartbeat and her shallow breath's.

It didn't take long to control the heat threatening to change me.

I tried not to think of the note and how horrible and brutal it would have been for Bella to read.

I knew one thing for sure, if – by some miracle- I ever met Edward Cullen again, I will kill him. No questions asked, and I wouldn't do it for myself, I would do it for Bella, for all the suffering he caused her. I would kill him slowly and let him feel a tiny portion of what she is going through. Not only Bella but everyone else, Charlie is suffering right now. Every time that stupid-heartless-selfish, leech hurt Bella it hurt the ones that loved her.

I feel asleep just as light streamed through the window.

When I woke, Bella's face was flushed, from my body heat. I quickly got off the bed but pulled a rug over her.

Then tiptoed down the stairs to find Charlie had already left for work.

I had breakfast and made a piece of toast for Bella and took it, along with a glass of water to her.

She was awake when I go there, still staring out the window, at nothing but the rain.

"Bella, you need to drink something" I sat down beside her and held out the glass.

She shook her head and didn't even look at me.

"I'm not asking Bella, I'm telling." She took the glass from my hand and downed the drink in one gulp.

"Eat," I said holding out the plate. She closed her eyes and dropped her head.

"Please Bella?" I asked softly.

She shook her head.

"Bella…you need to eat. Charlie's getting worried and threatening to ring Renee" I said in a gentle tone.

Her head snapped up and her eyes looked furious, but before she couldn't yell at me the fury burnt out and the pain washed over her.

"I'm sorry Bella. You aren't going anywhere…you can stay here as long as you like" I pulled her into my arms and let her cry.

"Y-You can't leave me Jake," I was startled to hear her voice but it too held the pain her eyes did.

"I will never leave you." I swore.

And I didn't.

For 15 whole months, I stayed with her.

B.P.O.V

15Months passed.

I loved this feeling, the speed, and the exhilaration. But mostly I loved hearing his voice.

Bella, you could have hit that car. He said in an unhappy tone. Everything he said, he was either telling me off or yelling at me.

But I didn't I retorted to myself.

I spun around the corner and skidded to a stop in front of the rabbit.

"Bells?" A familiar husky voice said walking out the door.

"Hey Jake" I pulled the helmet off - the one he had given me, all those months ago.

"Extra classes?" He smirked.

"Yeah, I had to grab some extra books too. How was work?" I asked shrugging out of the leather jacket also.

"Didn't have any today,"

I wandered inside to my bedroom upstairs. There I dropped my heavy bag with the books and flung myself on the bed.

His voice was getting clearer again. A few months ago it nearly disappeared; that was the reason to me wanting to suddenly go to college.

Now I was here, at Portland Oregon. Living with my best friend, in a small three-bedroom house. Jacob had been amazing, he stayed with me for the harder months; the ones I can't even bring myself to remember.
To say the least, I was a mess; Charlie and Renee were discussing treatment for me. That's were Jacob came in, he pulled me out of the cage I had locked myself in.
I never fully escaped though, at nighttime I could hardly breathe, the nightmares were worse. I could hear his voice in my head.
"Isabella Swan, I promise to love you forever – every single day of forever. Will you marry me?"

I woke up screaming most nights, sweating or either shaking so much that my body would ache in the morning.

The memories I fought so hard to forget during the day, haunted me at night. I could never escape, no matter what Jacob said, even if he stayed up the whole night talking to me, I couldn't escape the memories.

But with all the sadness there was anger, anger at myself and also at him.
Because I felt like everything he told me was a lie. I can remember when we got back from Italy and I had my epiphany. I was positive he loved me. I was sure that he was only afraid for my soul, and all the human things he didn't want to take away from me. But how could I believe that he loved me when he left again, leaving me alone, shattering my heart into nothing. So I was angry at him, furious I could say, but still unconditionally in love with him, he will always own my heart.
And that hurt more than anything, that the one I loved was causing me the most pain.

"Bells? Come on, you have classes at 10," I woke to Jake leaning over me.

"Huh?" I mumbled.

"It's morning, you fell asleep last night" he hauled me up.

"What's the time?" I asked stretching.

"8…you feeling okay? You look kind of pale," he grinned, I rolled my eyes.

"Funny Jake, real funny." I grabbed a change of clothes and headed to the shower.

Once I got downstairs Jake was zipping up his leather jacket.

"Where are you going?" I asked tying my hair up.

"We're going to breakfast at the café…" he said.

"But you have work"

"We have breakfast then I start work," he grinned.

"Oh okay… I feel like eggs," I said pulling my bag over my shoulder.

We walked out to the garage where the rabbit and two motorcycles stayed. Jake let out a low whistle.

"Seriously Bells, where did you get the money for these babies?" He ran his hand over the bike.

"Ha! Never you mind, just be thankful you got one," I laughed pulling on my jacket also. For Jacob's birthday, I traded in the two old bikes and my old Chevy truck, with a little extra cash I brought us each a Kawasaki Ninja 250R.
Jacob's was Black, and mine was a deep blue.
I jumped on and started the engine, loving the sound as it roared to life.

"See you at the Café." He called out.

"Try not to take too long little boy" I called taking off out the driveway and into the drizzling rain. I knew if Jacob saw me driving fast he would freak out and threaten to hide the bike, but if he thought it was a race, then he wouldn't care.

Bella! Slow down! His beautiful velvet voice growled. I ignored him but sighed at the sound of it.

I twisted in and out of the busy rush hour traffic, Jake staying hot on my tail. I had learned how to ride properly before I left La Push, now I rode the motorbike everywhere.
I leaned into the turn and shot around the corner.
The College car park was 5 blocks away, a set of lights changed- Bella! Don't you dare! The beautiful voice snarled. I noticed a police car on the other side of the road and I slammed on my brakes, managing to stop in time.

His growls were in harmony with the growling of the motorcycle.

Jacob pulled up next to me, and smirked.

"Bring it on tampon!" I laughed; no one would have been able to hear me besides Jake (it was something Seth said to his sister when they had a argument once.)

The lights changed and we both took off, side by side, he pulled into a driveway and disappeared, I continued along the road, and finally I pulled into the carpark.
Under the shelter of the huge roof, was Jacob, his helmet under his arm and branding a huge grin. Reluctantly I pulled in next to him and pulled my helmet off.

"Whatever you win," I sighed.

"Say it." He took my book bag off me and slung it over his shoulder.

"You're the best" I huffed walking towards the Cafe.

We found a table and sat down, Jacob ordered nearly everything off the menu while I went for an omelette.

"You're so paying," I laughed while he inhaled his food.

"Sure, sure"

We finished eating then I noticed the time.

"I have to go… I need to go to the library before class." I said standing up.

"Okay… that's cool. I'll see you at lunch. Give me a call if you need anything" he yelled as I walked out the door.
Ever since we got to Portland I made Jake carry a phone around, it wasn't anything flash but as long as he knew how to answer and call me, then I was fine.

I rushed to the library, dropping my overdue books off and picking up 4 more I had on hold. I noticed the time… 9:59am. I had 1minuet to get to my first class, and it was on the other side of campus. I was never going to make it so I tried to ran.

Luck must have been on my side because somehow I managed not to fall over once, but that luck must have ran out.

I made it to the class at 10:10, I flew through the doors, my lungs were on fire from the run and my hair was in a crazy knotted bun. But that wasn't what made me freeze, what made my heart to skip a few beats, and my skin turn colder than … ice.

It was the young man standing next to my teacher; at the head of the class, his golden eyes fixed on my face. His skin was pale white and there were small black rings around his eyes.
A beautiful face...

"Carlisle" I breathed.

"Uh excuse me, you're late. Please take a seat," the professor said.

Somehow I managed to drop myself into an empty seat, Carlisle continued to stare at me like I was a ghost.

"Dr Cullen, you were saying?"

"Oh…Uh…I have moved here from California with my family, and I will be teaching a few classes on campus for a month then I will be working at Portland Hospital." I continued to stare at him and every few seconds his eyes would flash to me.

"You have children, yes?" the professor asked in a booming voice.

"Uh yes. 2 daughters and 3 sons" His eyes fell on me again, but I was a statue, I couldn't move.

"Are they going to be attending this college Dr?"

"Yes, they will ALL" he looked straight at me with a hard expression "…be attending this college."

"Well we look forward to that. Now if you would like to speak or ask Dr Cullen any questions, he has an office across the hall from my own, feel free to have a chat with him. And make the most of it students, having such a wonderful Doctor here is very rare."
The class continued, for an hour and a half, I stayed frozen to my seat.
I needed to get away from here, I could see the surprise on Carlisle's face when I walked in, they didn't come looking for me. I was just going to cause them more dramas. I had to leave, to get away from Portland and go back to Forks. Jacob would understand and Charlie wouldn't mind. The bell rung and students started flowing out the doors, I quickly pushed myself out with the crowd, not sparing another look at Carlisle. The horde moved down the hall and towards the front of the main building.

Once I broke through, the main doors I heard a voice calling out my name.

"Bella! Bella please…wait!" It was Carlisle.

"Carlisle?" Another chiming voice hit me like a brick wall.
I continued to push my way through the other students. Finally I broke free, the café was just across from me, and all I had to do was get my helmet and ride away, and never come back.

"Bella!" Carlisle's voice yelled again.

I sprinted into the small café running straight into Jacob, I fell backwards and narrowly missed knocking my head on a table.
"Bells?" he asked.

"Where's my helmet Jake? I n-need to go. Now!" I scrambled to my feet.

He reached behind the counter and held it out.

"Where are yo going?" he asked.

"Away," I called already out the door.

I had a feeling he would follow me, I was trying to get across the lot faster when I something caught my attention.

It was Carlisle, standing between a shiny black Mercedes and a red convertible.

The gaping hole flared up and I forced myself to look away, before I could see any of their faces.
"Bells? What's going o-" I turned to see Jacob running after me, he stopped dead in his tracks, his nostrils flaring and his hands shaking. He slowly turned in the direction to Carlisle and the two cars.
I didn't stop for long though, I jumped on the bike, letting it roar to life and taking off, not even bothering to put the helmet on. I passed Jacob, and the two cars; I couldn't bring myself to look, but I'm sure I heard someone growl.

Then I was out of the lot, and on the road.

The wind whipped at my face, my hair trailed out behind me. I pushed the bike faster, as i did the gaping hole flared and burned, i needed to get away.

Review please! I need to know if i should continue or not.
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