This one was sitting in my
archive for a while before I realized it didn't suck enough to stick
it on there. :D
Warnings: Boy/boy love. ItaNaru
Disclaimer: Owning Naruto is something I don't have the liberty of having. :B
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It
was often said that there was no way to personify human emotion. It
was, and always would remain elusive, indiffirent to the will of
those they affected. And no matter how much we wanted, something so
close to us was always out of our reach.
That
was the phrase my life was always built on. Through years of trial
and error, I'd come up with a phrase I stuck by for years. With the
many things I'd endured, it was only a reassurance for me.
Too bad
I was wrong.
Ironically, it was cloudy
outside. Nature itself seemed to be trying to chain my spirit down,
punishing me. But I smiled. I kept that face, those feelings. I
laughed all the while.
He always told me I was defiant. To this
day I never figured out whether he meant it in an endearing manner.
But I agreed.
Nothing, no matter how tragic or unfortunate,
could sink my spirits low.
He told me he liked that about me. I
told him I was too optimistic for my own good.
The frigid
winter air seeped in through the cracks of the heavily windowed room
where I sat. Another form of torment. I felt feathers of cold licking
my bare shoulders and legs, wrapping me in an inescapable blanket of
cold. I stared at the long, satin gloves that covered my hands and
took one more glance in the mirror at my side.
They had told me I
looked beautiful.
I never saw it.
"I'm just a
crossdressing pretty boy." I quipped, tugging at the delicate
blue fabric of my dress.
It was tradition for a groom to be
unable to see a bride in her dress at anytime before the wedding.
Even though it came off to me as crap, he was persistant on it. I
went along with the idea. His exitement was adorable. This had been
our first real experience with true love, and the daring commitment
that came with it.
I was one to forgive the past. He dwelled in
it. Even today, that stubborn self-punishment that he would inflict
on himself staggered me.
Oftentimes, the things I did, were more
for him than me. I loved him, more than anyone ever had. But I could
never afford to break the heart I'd made so fragile.
There
was a sudden noise near the door behind me, the door protesting with
a loud creak as it was forced open. A woman popped her head through,
cherry blossom locks piled delicately on top of her hair, spilling
over her shoulders.
She was stunning, and years ago might have
taken my breath away.
"It's almost time." She informed
me.
Butterflies ran rampant in my stomach. Blinded by the lacy
veil, I followed my cherry blossom friend out into the cloudy sky,
down toward a clearing where a crowd of people gathered.
Thunderclouds were looming overhead with threatening presence, but I
simply dared them.
Nothing could bring me down.
I stood
behind her, and groups of other women, hidden.
But even through
them, I saw him. He was so lovely, I nearly fainted. Stoic, tall,
calm, but his eyes sparkled with the exitement of a child. He was
happier then I'd ever seen him. And so was I.
He was elegant,
refined. Hair pulled back into a neat ponytail and blending in with
the ebony color of his suit.
He'd always told me the color black
comforted him. He was well suited for it, and I could immerse myself
in his radiance.
But the music was my cue. The girls in front of
me parted aside, and it was just me and him.
The anxiety caused
tremors in my body, and my legs had seemed to fail me. My cherry
blossom friend handed me a bouquet of bright red flowers, sharply
contrasting the pallid appearence that I put out.
I took a
shaky step foward, and walked to where he stood, focusing only on his
smiling face. There was no one else around me, no other watchful
eyes. He was my light, and I followed it.
My beloved, my Itachi
Uchiha.
The rest of the day was a daze. After that first bonding
kiss, I was robbed blind. The rest of the world blurred out from my
periphreal and soon all I saw was him.
I spoke with others, I
danced with them. I laughed, smiled, lived, and even heard them.
But
I could not see them.
Many years ago he was relentless on
capturing me.
He succeeded.
Capturing my heart, soul, my
everything.
Despite how the outcome was compared to the
beginning, he succeeded with his mission.
