Trust issues

Trust issues- Chapter1

I had been travelling with Alice for quite sometime now we did settle for a while but with Alice visions of the future we always seemed to be on the move, I didn't mind that I was not much of a Settle down person. I had have known Alice for 155 years I found her when she was going through her change, she was in the wood behind a hospital, she didn't seem to harmed just changing, I decided to take her in and from their she became my much loved sister.

Alice doesn't remember anything from her human life, I could tell it really upset her at first but after a while she began to accept she may never know.
A few days after the change she started to have blackouts my first thought was something went wrong during her transformation but soon discovered that it was her gift. The gift of sight, Alice can see the future. I was sceptical at first as to how reliable it was but as time went by she started to get more visions and they became very true, we have both come to rely on them probably a little to much that's how we found the Cullen's.

"Bella" I turned around to see Alice staring at me with disapproving eyes.

"What Alice what wrong", I said oh god what now I thought

"Bella look at your outfit its all messed up." She said almost having an aneurism.

I hadn't realised until I looked down at myself I had ripped my jeans across the leg and my left foot had a shoe missing, we are about four miles out from Alaska in the mountains, its beautiful out here there is snow on the mountain tops and no civilization for miles out.

There is a small stream up ahead with the steady sound of running water, it's a really peaceful day. We are catching up with some of the wildlife out here I guess I got a little carried away.
Alice is a well how can I put it, a fashion freak yep that's the right word, she loves shopping it's a way of calming herself down a way of life for her, she can't go a day without it, so when I go ahead and mess an outfit up well lets just say world war three erupts.

"Bella you only brought that yesterday, come on you will have to wear something else. What would you do without me, you would be a fashion disaster" Alice said while coming out from behind a thick Forrest tree.

I had been alone most of my life until I met Alice, I had never found a mate, I had partners for a while of course but never really anyone I could say I truly loved. I was content being a nomad vampire I could do what I wanted go were I wanted. I enjoyed travelling, I have always been a vegetarian or animal drinker.
I started calling it vegetarian ever since Alice mentioned the Cullen's, apparently that's what they call themself's.

I'm not saying I haven't slipped up, I have a few times when I was first changed, and those times were hard for me the guilt of what I had done was overpowering, all I wanted to do was to end my miserable existents, but I have come to realise that I have done a lot of good things, In which I hope has helped to making up for what I did back then, it took a while but I have come to accept what I am and to make the best of it.

Then when I found Alice life changed, I cared about her, took her in and helped her learn the vegetarian way of life and she has never slipped up she came close a few times, but never did I let her.

"Bella are you ready to go we have to be there by noon" Alice came up to me I had just changed into a simple outfit blue jeans and a purple blouse, it was a pretty blouse one of my favourites. Alice never liked me wearing an outfit more then once but I told her to back of were it comes to this blouse, I have picked it myself and loved it. Alice huffed and looked at me up and down.

"Your wearing that blouse again do you ever ware anything else" she scolded

"Yes Alice I'm wearing this blouse again it's my favourite you no what I said if you tried anything with it." I smiled sweetly while Alice just glared at me, I told the little pixie I would burn her wardrobe if she touched it well her bag, as we were travelling but even so.
I said pixie because that's the nick name I gave her, Alice is well small tiny she 5"2 with black spiky short hair, she has a very small frame, and looks like a cute pixie, when you first meet her she looks very venerable due to her size, or lack of, but looks can be devising and in Alice's case they are, she is very agile when fighting she dances around you when in a fight and is very hard pin down. We often practise together I have taught her many moves since we been together and she can certainly hold her own.

"Come on Bella"

"Alice I'm coming god you can be so persistent at times but I love you for it" I said while giving her a hug. We are currently on our way to a small town of Forks Washington DC apparently by Alice's vision this is were the Cullen's are living at the moment.

Alice has told me as much as she known's about the Cullen's through her visions and it seems they hold a permanent residents in forks and have been there for a few years. I have never heard of vampires staying in an area for more then a few months, so I was quite interested on how these Cullen's lived among humans without them become suspicious, the longest time I had spent in a place for was 3 months at that was in England, I liked it there it was a good climate always cloudy, I found a small cottage out in the woods, but I had to move on there wasn't that much wildlife, one can only live on deer for so long.

Alice was so exited about meeting the Cullen's, she has been having the visions about them for over three months now so here we were running through Alaska, we are about a two hour run away from them heading towards Forks,.

I trust Alice with her visions they have never let us down before. I've told her to be careful with what she says when we meet them but she doesn't seem to think its going to be a problem, she's convinced herself that they will welcome us with open arms. I on the other hand are a little bit more guarded then Alice and I have good reason to be, I have seen and experienced a lot in my time, and learnt not to trust anyone straight away.

Our kind can be very power hungry which has been a problem for me, I have what you could call multiple gifts some vampire are born with gifts and some aren't, I have been born with gifts it can be a blessing and it can be a curse.

When I first woke up I didn't know what was happening to me. My creator was a man called Michael Samson he looked after me for the first year teaching me all I needed to know to survive, but he wasn't a vegetarian so I eventually pulled away from him but it wasn't easy as my powers started to come in the first year, and Michael wanted to keep me himself.

(Flash Back)

We were staying in an old run down barn on the outskirts of a small village some were in Utah that's all I knew.
I had not long been changed and was very new to the whole vampire ways, but I knew one thing I didn't want to hunt humans the thought of it repulsed me. When I first woke up Michael took me out to hunt I had the burning in my thought but it didn't seem bad enough to take another human life I just couldn't do it, Michael said it was normal to feel the guilt for a while but it was natural for us, its our only source of food, we needed it to keep us strong.

I starved myself for a week the hunger just kept building until I finally snapped and drunk from my first human, I didn't realise what I had done until it was too late I just let myself be taken over by instinct. I felt horrible the guilt of what I had done was eating away at me, I didn't even thing about trying feeding of animals until I saw a deer in the woods a couple of days after, It was bleeding from an attack it had received earlier that day, the blood seemed to smell more appetising then the humans so I tried it, and to my amazement it tasted good, the guilt was still there but not as bad as taking a human.

"Bella come on I'm getting thirsty I want us to feed before we move on" Michael said

"I told you Michael, I am not feeding of humans I will feed when we make it to the forest" Michael looked at me like I had grown a second head.

"You can't be series you keep this up and you will become week, you can not deprive yourself of what you really need Isabella" he said.

You don't know that, I have been following this diet for two weeks now, I feel fine just because you're ok with killing innocent people doesn't mean that I am."

Michael looked at me with anger in his eyes. "I'm not going to be carrying you around when you can not stand any more because you are too week, this is pointless just come with me now and feed, if it makes you feel any less guilty I'll kill them for you, all you have to do is drink"

"NO" I said with as much force as I could.
Michel stalked towards me grabbing my arms I still had the strength of a new born but Michael was a skilled fighter, I dare go up against him, I didn't know what happened next but Michael was suddenly pined up against the tree pain evident in his eyes, looking at me incredulous, my temper started to come down and so did Michael. I realised from that moment that I had the power of a telephath.

(End Flash Back)

I was brought out of my thoughts by Alice's exited squealing, we were getting close to forks, the landscape was starting to look very green now as we headed through a small meadow. I was beginning to get nervous so I decided to remind Alice of what we had talked about earlier.

(Flash back)

We where in the forest just outside the borders of Texas. We had been staying here for a few weeks and I was starting to get a bit board of the surroundings, Alice had worked out were the Cullen's were staying, and we were about to head off in search for them

"Alice we need to careful I know you think there going to just let us into there home, but we don't want to let them know to much about us too soon we have to be on our guard" I said to her.

"Bella I wouldn't move us there if I knew they were going to be dangerous, trust me its going to be fine we have to be open and honest with them Carlisle and Esme they will become like parent to us and Jasper Rosalie Edward and Emmet are going to be out siblings, I have seen it." She said confidently

"Alice I do trust you, you know that I just don't trust other's of our kind, I have learned the hard way to always be on guard you have to understand were I'm coming from here." I said exasperated

She looked at me with sad eyes, she known's my past and the powers, I have and the fact that were ever I go people want to keep me like a prized possession. There either scared of me or possessive, Alice gift is very rare in it's self, and with both of us together is a force to be reckoned with.

Alice has seen it over the years we spent together, we came across a colony of three vampires not so long ago James, Victoria and Laurent as soon as they learned what I could do they were wary of me but became possessive over time. Wanting to keep me and use me to take over the voturi the government of out kind, and to one day rule over the vampire world. Of course after that we both made hasty exit's but not with out putting up a fight first, I thing that's when Alice first realised how dangerous it was for me. And for her, Alice has never seen me like that and has loved me for who I am.

"Alice I just don't want you to tell them anything about out gifts maybe after a while but not at first lets just access the situation and go from there, please Alice you know what happened last time and I don't want us to be put you through that again"

Alice came up to me giving me a warm hug, well as warm as it can be for us vamps.

"Bella I understand and we can keep your gifts a secret but there going to want to know how we found them, and believe me when I say there different from Victoria, James and Laurent they are like us, please just try to be open minded you don't have to tell them much just a bit" she said giving me the puppy dog eyes oh god I'm done for.

"Fine but what about Edward he reads minds after all isn't he going to get a little suspicious when he can read ours"

That's another of my powers, I'm a shield, I can expand the shield to envelope other people or just me, I can also send message's through my thoughts and receive them but I can't read other people's thoughts and send message's back unless my shield is around that person.
The shield also keeps out unwanted mind powers and I always keep my shield around both me and Alice we often have conversations with each other using out minds it's a quicker way of communicating and it help if were separated. I am so in tuned to Alice I can put my shield around her from miles away.

I came out of my thoughts as Alice said. "He might think it's a little suspicious so you might want to tell him you're a shield and you're protecting both of our minds" she checked the future "Yep that will work" she smiled at me.

"Fine just watch what you say for a while ok Alice" I added

"Yes Bella" she said sweetly. I knew her far to well to know she can't hold her tongue, when Alice gets exited about something there no stopping her.

(End Flash Back)

"A colony this large is not heard off I'm very surprised the volturi haven't broken there numbers up by now."

I knew off the volturi, sure I did but kept my distance, I met Aro many years ago. He comes to seek me out every couple of years, asking for me to join along with Alice but we both say no and he seem to accept it, he doesn't know about all my powers which I'm grateful, if he did I'm sure I wouldn't have a choice, my shield stops seekers from finding out my gifts. I'm sure Aro suspects but he's not sure.

(Flash Back)

"Ah Isabella, Alice its so nice to see you again its been far to long how have you both been my dears" Aro said,
we were standing in a field, Alice had anticipated his arrival, it happened every year I really do not understand why he doesn't give up our answer, is always the same very persistent that one, I am older then him something Aro doesn't like he always assumed he was the oldest and wised vampire around.

"Hello Aro it's very nice to see you again what brings you to this part of the world." Although I already know why he was here. We were staying in Brazil at the time just for a few months, when Alice got her vision of the guard coming along with Aro.
Alice always gets a bit worried about seeing him but it doesn't bother me, I have known him for many years were on friendly terms but I never allow myself to get very close to them.

"Well we were just passing through," he said nonchalantly, "tell me Isabella have you had any more thoughts on joining me and my coven in Italy, we would love you to come and visit to see the city for your self it is a wonderful place my friend." He said giving me that cheesy smile.

Aro is never just passing by.

"Ah it's an attempting offer Aro but I'm afraid, I'm going to have to pass not really my thing, but thank you for asking me." I said kindly. He looked to be debating something but settled on "oh well that's a shame maybe next time," turning to Alice with a smile.

"And how about you sweet Alice would you like to join, accompany me volturi you would be a great asset to the guard."

I looked over to Alice her eyes wide and slightly fearful she said "No thank you Aro thought I appreciate the offer."

Aro turned towards me looking damn right trodden, really does that man ever learn. How many times do you have to say no.

"Oh well better luck next time I suppose" or maybe not I thought "we won't be keeping you any longer I hope to see you again in a short time but for now farewell."

"I'm sure we will be, farewell to you to Aro goodbye" I said he turned to leave with the rest of his guard following behind.

(End Flashback)

"Oh Bella you just wait and see you will love them and if you feel uncomfortable I promise you we will leave ok"

I looked at her, she was really my sister I lover her very much.

"Ok Alice I love you"

She looked at me came over and gave me another hug. "I love you to Bella now come on better not keep them, waiting"
"Alice they don't even know were coming"

She started laughing and we headed towards Forks I can't believe we where going to be staying in a place called Forks that alone made be laugh. A short while later we arrived at the sign "Welcome to Forks"

"Alice I thought you were joking when you said we were going to be living in a place called Forks" I laughed as she looked at me and started falling into a laughter of giggles herself.

We were going to meet four of them today the others were apparently by Alice's visions in school, I suppose that was to keep up the human crusade, we were meeting Carlisle the father, Esme the mother and the two siblings Jasper and Emmet, I was starting to feel really nervous.

We came out of the woods from the side of the house and what a house it was half of it was coved in glass from the front. The house is three stories with wood going around the bottom of the structure, it looked absolutely beautiful I loved it, of course Alice has seen it in her visions.
I would had been able to see it too but Alice has found a way of blocking me from her vision by reciting many different language in her head it annoys me to know means.
But the house looked really welcoming not a sort of house you would expect vampires to live in but we are in the 21 century so what can you expect.

We both looked at each other holding hand as we made toward the top step. I extended my hand, took a deep breath and knocked twice on the door. This was it there was no turning back, the door slowly opened and there stood a very handsome looking male vampire with blond hair, this must be Carlisle, he looked to be in his late twenties, early thirties. Alice said the so called children looked around seventeen, she also said they like to be called family I should get used to that.

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