A/N: OMG! I've finally brought this lovely chapter to you with the help of my awesome Beta, Musings of a Shaken Mind. If it weren't for her help and guidance I don't think I would've continued on with this story. I would also like a review or two, that would be nice. If this helps more, sigh, then I'll give the 15th reviewer a place in the chapter after the next one because I've already made the next chapter and plan on keeping it the same. So what do you say, eh?

Disclaimer: You're right i don't own Twilight or it's characters, however I do mess around with them a lot.

BPOV-

He pressed me against the fridge, his strong arms on either side of my head, trapping me where I was. I pulled desperately away, but his soft, firm lips found the sensitive skin of my neck. I needed to find a way to get him away from me- oh! he discovered my weak spot. I moaned, and he reacted by grinding into me which caused us both to hiss with pleasure. This needed to stop, now.

"Edward...oh god...Edward, stop" please, Edward... have more control over yourself, so that my virginity remains intact for now.

"Why?..." he asked, grinding into me again.

I groaned; he wasn't making this easy. "Edward...ungh...this-this isn't r-right".

"It feels right, why can't you just go with it...please, Bella." He pulled back to look at me with glazed, hooded eyes that seemed darker than usual with lust.

"Billy and Tanya are going to get worried and de-definitely find us, this is a bad idea..."

He pulled reluctantly away, his free will seeming to return to him. "Fuck," he murmured, "you're right Bella, thanks for snapping me out of that." He paused, before kissing my forehead and grabbing my hand, leading me with him.

Whoa, now that's some kind of confusing...oh well, I quickly shook it off as we entered the living room.

I leapt over the arm of the couch, scaring everyone. "OH!- sorry."

Billy quickly pulled me to him, his possessive side showing itself. "What took so long?"

"Sorry, couldn't decide whether I wanted Coke or Sprite," I lied.

"Well...I'm glad you're back." He rested his chin on my shoulder and I automatically leaned in to his warmth.

Everything after that passed by in a blur, but all I could think about was what had happened between me and Edward. It was definitely a mixed signal, but I couldn't make out what it all meant. Had he felt the same way I had, when he'd had me pressed against the fridge? Did it make as much sense to him as it did to me? Was he even thinking about this too? This is frustrating, why doesn't it make sense to me. I know exactly what will help me.

When everyone left, I ran to my bedroom, opened up my purse and found the razor that had helped me through so much.

I placed it on an unblemished section of skin and pressed down, drawing the blade across my raw skin. Everything was forgotten when I hit this kind of ecstasy, my worries were tossed into the black hole of sheer bliss. I could breathe again. I grabbed the towel next to me and let the world fall back on my shoulders, coming down from my temporary high. Yes, I felt bad. But did it feel wrong? No, not at all.

I tossed aside my bed sheets and jumped in. I didn't know if my bed had ever felt more comfortable than it did right now. With that final thought I was out like a light, falling into a dreamless sleep.

EPOV-

Stupid! Stupid! Stupid!I was pacing back and forth across the only place that my thoughts seemed coherent, the beautiful meadow I found whenever I wanted to simplyescape fromthe world and take a deep breath. With mom and dad constantly on my back about the most stupid shit ever, I needed something to calm me down, so I found solace in the place that soothed me the most.

God how could I be so fucking stupid to just attack her like that?!There goes a good friendship ruined because my stupid hormones. She probably hated me now, I didn'tdeserve her trust, I never had. This was too confusing, Whenever I looked into those deep brown eyes, I saw this glint in her eyes that made my stomach do weird things. Whenever she blushed and looked down I felt inexplicably like tipping her chin up and kissing her senseless. I just wish I knew what it meant. I needed to stop thinking about her. I needed to be me, not this pathetic little wimp she seemed to be turning me into.

Since when did some girl have this much of an effect on me?! It had never been this bad. I needed to get away for a while, just clear my head. I knew I had some explaining to do tomorrow.

Well I do believe this is one hell of a short chapter but you do know what could make the next chapter come faster...I mean there is this big button that says review but pshhh I guess I don't know what I'm talking about maybe I'm just imagining it or not, it could be real. Pffft. Review, and no one gets hurt.

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