Sunday, April 24, 2005
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I OWN NOTHING! Other than the plot of course...sorry for taking so long to put this up!
Chapter 3: "I started first...why am I last?
"Sit back and let her die slowly don't cry she didn't love you anyway"Hawthorne Heights
Loor was strong, stronger than most men. That's why she intimidated most of them.
But she never seemed happy, she respected Bobbys' concern and help, of course, even though there wasn't much he could do since the look a like a Rokador, in a Batu village... but she'd become accustomed to waiting.
Some week day--Bobby had long lost count of the days--Loor came home late. She was'nt alone. Terrified, Bobby assumed his usually hiding place in a small closet equiped with a small hole, for air.
Yes, Loor could be thoughtful.
They both agreed it wouldn't make any Batu happy to see a male Rokador lounging around Loor's house. So why did Loor bring someone home without any warning? And to make matters worse...It was a man.Men on Zadaa weren't rowdy like men on Second Earth. No, these men stepped over the line, theres some pretty bad stuff going on ,some pyscho shooting up some place. That was nothing compared the average Batu teen. These guys were lethal with fists.Their tempers were easily taken to their breaking points.So naturally Bobby felt betrayed. He was scared. He prayed the man didn't suddenly want to throw his shoes in the closet, discover a puny Rokador guy cowering in the corner, and twist off his head easily was opening a bottle of Coca-Cola.
The man was built like Loor but taller. He was lanky and towered over her with a booming voice.
"C'mon" the man said stroking her long hair seductively
"No" Loor giggled.
What's going on? Loor doesn't giggle...
"You know you want to" the man said
Scared, Bobby looked through his air hole
The man was holding Loor close.
"Stop it Rue!" Loor giggled again ,her speach was slurred.
Is she drunk? She sounds drunk...
"I SAID NOW" The man said now pinning her to the wall.
Loor's warrior instincts took over and she sprung a hit to his nose with the heel of palm before Rue knew what was coming.
Bobby smiled.
"AHHH you stupid--" Rue said raising his fist and slaming Loor in the face.
"I'M SORRY!" Loor wailed and slid to the fist pummeled her over and over without mercy.
"I'll make you sorry!" He screamed. His calm, cajoling voice was long gone and was replaced by an angry, drunken scream.He began kicking Loor who became a pathetic ball of small cries and wimpers.She reminded Bobby of the Gar's on Eelong in that he shared a cell with.
Why isn't she fighting back?
Bobby stood there afraid to breathe. What was he supposed to do? Be Loor's superman? What if the man ripped him apart? Worse. What if he ripped Loor apart? He was nothing without Loor. With Spader and Gunny trapped on Eelong he would be alone...
Bobby started to panic.
Fuck...he's going to fucking kill her. That stupid fuck! FUCK i have to do something. Fucking bitch! Listen to her scream? Don't you have fucking ears?. FUCK FUCK FUCK Think you FUCKER!
cause i think way too much
on a one track mind
and you're so out of touch
cause i'm so far behind
i'm trying to make sense
out of all of this
while your fading scent
just slips through my grip
Relient K
Stupidly Courtney had gotten herself into this mess. She gave herself a mental slap when she realized what she'd done. She'd let Spader take advantage of her!
mental slap No, you idiot you took advantage of him! Everytime he touched you, you thought of Bobby!
Courtney continued to battle with herself the next day.There was no convincing Spader to go back. He said he only wanted one thing out of life...and that was to be with Courtney. As sweet as that only wanted something else. Something different...
She wanted Bobby Pendragon to touch her in ways she'd always dreamed
She wanted Bobby Pendragon to kiss her, lick her, taste everywhere while she clutched his beautiful brown in between her fingers until he hit that spot that made her scream his name with a sigh that shook her whole body...
She wanted Bobby Pendragon to fuck her brains out.
Of course admiting that to herself she realized that thinking these dirty thoughts just made her horny...at school.
She sighed, trying to get control of her hormones, and tuned back in, to listen to whatever her Science teacher was blabbing about. What did it all matter? Bobby was out there trying to save fucking Halla while she was sitting here pretending to understand punnet squares and all that other crap.
With another heavy sigh she turned her and looked out the window she said to the far left of the room. It faced a overgrown bush.Instead of seeing the usual dull mini-leaves she saw...
Spader?
She jumped then looked around to make sure no one else had seen. The skater chick in the back was painting her nails bright red with a sharpie and the hot emo kid with his hair in eyes and the lip ring was looking out a different window. Probably writing poetry or something emo like that... Everyone else either had their foreheads pressed against their desktops or were passing notes.
She jumped out of her seat a little too fast...
"Miss--"
"Cramps!" she yelled running out of the classroom. Her classmates eyes followed her as she ran toward the door clutching her stomach.They were snickering.
She swore at herself once she got into the hallway.Had she just walked out on her Science class.Her Dad would be pissed. But imagine all the crap she'd have to put up with if Mark saw Spader on Second Earth when everyone was worried about him.He would never shut up about about responsiblity or something shit like that.The truth was a part of Courtney didn't want Spader to go. The kiss they'd shared was was better than what she'd ever even imagined with Bobby.
And Courtney imagined a WHOLE lot.
Working her way outside of the to the door and not being hounded by a hall monitor was Courtney's plan. She walked as fast as she could.
Around a corner she ran into someone who's pathed she had stomped on and covered with dirt.
"Patrick..." she said.
He was still as breathtaking as she remembered. Tall, slender with broad shoulders, and blonde hair that curled into eyes. He had the perfect body of a swimmer.He was water polo jock. But his blue/grey were the first thing that had attracted her to him.The fact that he was innocent...so unlike Bobby...
Flashback
"Oh yes..."
His hot,wet kisses took her breath away.
She felt a tingling in her lower stomach unlike she'd ever felt before.
Was it just her or did his hand being there make the tingle turn into a full throb?
"Oh God."
He cupped her breast gently stroking the nipple.Then traced lazy circles with his tounge. His kisses ran down her stomach.
"What are you doing to me?"
It was night she'd told Patrick that she loved him. Then pushed him away, leaving him breathless and confused...
But she realized that she did need him. She needed him to fill the empty hole that Bobby had cut out of her heart.
She went back to him that night. Only to find Patrick...with a man in his arms.
She wept that night. She blamed him for her hurt.
"FUCKING QUEER!"
Courtney screamed and cried and switched the blame over to Bobby.
The things shes said that night...they were horrible.She ruined a beautiful boy with a wonderful lifes' future.
Did she reject him because he was bi-sexual?
Oh, the thing's you said that night...
No. She didn't even know that.
Why are you such a bitch?
That night her soul crumbled and Courtney became machine with no emotions of feelings on the outside. But tears and regret messing up the machinery on the inside.
End Flashback
Courtney stood in front of Patrick with her eyes down.She never stood like this she was always tall and proud for everyone to see.
"Hey..." he said
Courtney had fucked up Patricks reputation.She dragged him down into her life and spit him out into a whole new private hell hole. He was now the school's biggest queer...What could Courtney say, after months of avoiding him, to make everything how it used to be?
"I-I have to go." She said pushing past him and hating herself for remembering what she'd done to him.
Sighing Courtney Chetwynde pushed through the school doors. She'd never realised how easy it was to walk out. It always seemed like there would snipers in the clouds are something.
"So this is what it's like to ditch..." she said turning around him the parking lot looking at the grey clouds. It wasn't the prettiest day. But at least it wasn't raining.
"Hobey Ho! Courtney!" Spader said running toward her with Marks' yellow Cool Dude sweatshirt.
Courtney wanted to laugh because Mark's clothes didn't fit quite fit Spader's tall, athletic body, but she didn't even smirk. She crossed her arms and gave Spader a dead stare. Maybe then he'd know he wasn't wanted.
It began to rain.