XI : In Which She Is Deceived
Once he made sure I went inside, I realized that my parents were yet to be home. I sighed deeply in relief. I had no idea what I would say if they had asked me about Kakashi's jacket lying suspiciously upon my shoulders in a regal fashion. I hurried up the stairs and took off the jacket, placing it upon my desk, and then I went and took a shower. My heart thumped as I continuously recounted the events of what had occurred several moments before. 'Maybe it is possible for a fat girl like me to have a love life.' the bold thought leapt into my mind unexpectedly. I blushed, even in the cold shower. "I'm crazy..." I muttered to myself.
As I changed into my pajamas, I worried and fretted over how we would approach each other the next morning. I smiled myself to sleep that night.
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"Hey." Kakashi offered as a greeting towards me as I stumbled downstairs. I found my mother the only family member present, I guessed that my father had left for work before I had awoken. I also noticed Kakashi sitting lazily upon the sofa, his signature slouching position in progress.
"Yelin! We were wondering when you'd wake up." My mother bustled around the kitchen, promptly serving me breakfast. I glanced down at my plate in utter horror. "Mom, what is this?" I gagged, pointing at the revolting substances that oozed around on my plate. "Why, its your vitamins!" she chirruped happily. "Oh, my, look at the time! I've got to get going. Well, Kakashi told me all about your little dieting plan, so I'm just serving you only what your body needs, not your mind." She tossed a magazine at my lap, from which I flinched away from as it slapped onto the wooden floor.
"Read it, Yelin! It says that what you need to eat is different from what your mind wants to eat." She explained hurriedly as she rushed out the door, past me and Kakashi, "Goodbye!" she uttered as her footsteps faded.
I felt my cheeks grow heated as the tension in the room between me and Kakashi amounted. "Good Morning." I responded to his first greeting with a timid voice, despite my large mass. My back was turned from him in my current seating position on the table. There was no response, and I grew quickly worried. Did he not want to talk to me? Was he ashamed to talk to me because of yesterday? I gulped nervously and whirled around to face him. If he was going to ignore me, I believed that I was entitled to the reason as to why. If he were going to take drastic actions against me, I demanded an explanation.
All of those thoughts immediately disappeared as my eyes met with his steel grey ones. The close proximity of our faces made me dizzy, my face heating up more than ever as a flood of emotions overtook me. I swooned and it took all my strength to not turn into a pile of human mush.
"Are you okay?" He asked, his strong baritone voice snapped me back to reality far too quickly. "Uhm, yes, I'm fine." I coughed nervously into the back of my hand as I attempted to move my face away from his. However, Kakashi merely closed the distance between our faces and gave me another kiss.
"What the hell is going on here?!" Queenie's shout interrupted the mild rape of my mouth. I finally managed to shove Kakashi away while he was distracted, and ran upstairs to my room, locking all windows and doors.
I sobbed silently into the palm of my hand, wanting myself to disappear. How had this happened? I never thought that this relationship, if it even was a relationship, could ever turn into this downward spiral. The man whom I thought I loved had turned frightening. He was beginning to scare me. As my sobs quieted down, I heard Queenie's voice from below.
"Don't you dare go after her!" She boomed, and in that moment, I shut my eyes tightly, wishing that everything would just all go away.
"See what you have done to her?! We were merely sharing an innocent kiss!" Kakashi retorted, yet, his tone of voice still frightened me so very much.
"What are you blabbering about?! She was petrified of you! And what of me?! I come here to kick you all out of the house and into the training grounds, but I catch you smothering her!"
"Queen…I…" I cringed as I heard Kakashi's broken voice stutter.
"I thought we were together, not you two." I could just hear the scowl upon her face.
Wait, what?! Kakashi and Queenie?! Together?!
Were they not brother and sister?
I heard an intake of breath, "Queenie! She can hear!" Kakashi's raspy whisper echoed lightly.
"Oh, that does not matter anymore! She might as well know! Yelin, come down." The girl's voice demanded that I go down.
I bit my lower lip and opened the locked door, then headed downstairs slowly. "Yes?" came my tentative answer.
"Sit down, hon." Queen's face had been worse than what I pictured. Her cheerful face was now solemn and slightly reddened from all the shouting and arguing she had done for my sake. I couldn't thank her enough, but I kept quiet, for now. I sat obediently on the space upon the sofa where Kakashi had previously sat. The seat was still warm from his body heat and I shuddered in disgust.
"Kakashi, you should just remain silent." Queenie's usual sparkling eyes had taken on a masked demeanor. Kakashi could only nod feebly as he stuffed his hands in his pockets.
"Yelin, I'm sorry to have to say this…" Queenie started to speak, her voice was breaking my heart, her eyes were cold and emotionless; the very same way a doctor's eyes would be as they told their patients that they would soon die from a terminal illness. Tears sprang to my eyes, threatening to spill over, but I blinked them back. This was too sudden!
"…Kakashi and I have been deceiving you from the very start." She burst out, choking lightly on the words. "Kakashi is my fiancée. We were going to get married in the next month." She raised a hand to silence me as I attempted to speak. "Let me finish, dearie. Suddenly, Kakashi told me about you. He knew you had a desire to be skinny, and he told me that he had offered to help you become what you wanted. I allowed him to do so. I knew you were a young lady, and I never suspected that this would happen. But gradually, I saw something in Kakashi that began to change. He was happier after his meetings with you, and the way his eyes sparkled when he spoke of you confirmed that he was infatuated with you." I could only let my mouth hanging open as she unraveled detail after detail.
"So, I told him that I was going to intervene between you two. And I told you that I was his sister to see how far you would take things with Kakashi. Yes, we were going to marry, but I had to see how far you guys were going…Because, at that time, I was ready to cut off our wedding; however, I deemed that if you guys had not done anything too extreme yet, I wouldn't have to cut off our engagement." she shook her head, locks of her hair swishing from side to side like a mysterious curtain. "But when I went to intervene, you guys hardly showed any signs of admiration to each other, and I was truly happy. Truly." A flash of jealously flickered in her eyes momentarily, but soon disappeared.
"Queenie?" I reached out to her, a tear managing to slip down my cheek. It was then when I finally realized that she, too, was crying. Her eyes welled up with tears, some had already spilled over her cheeks. "I'm-I'm….I'm sorry--!" I managed to enunciate clearly, despite my tears and now runny nose, I ran upstairs to the bathroom this time. I locked the door firmly. I was still choking on my tears as I opened the mirror, pulling out a razor. My savior…my razor… I thought ironically as I quickly wiped away my tears. Still in my fully clothed form, I sat in the bathtub and turned on the cold water on, but only onto the lower pipe, not the shower head.
As the icy water reached me at a chest level, I glanced at my reflection in the mirror. My usual doe brown eyes had turned lust less and my pink lips had turned a bluish hue. I uttered a weak laugh, barely inaudible over the sound of rushing water. I still had the razor in my hand, and now, the water was past my chest height, spilling over the edge of the tub...
A/N: Dun Dun DUN. Will she kill herself? Argh, I know that the chapter may seem uber rushed, and maybe it's cause it IS rushed. I'm terribly sorry everyone ! (sob)