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WEDNESDAY;
THE PARK.
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Sonny walked along side Chad silently through the huge green park, she felt awkward, she felt sorry for him, forgetting about enjoying herself she was thinking forward, forward to when Chad would be loosing the fight.
"Sonny, you okay?" He asked, glancing to her then back to the millions of stars dotting the dark blue velvet sky.
"Huh, me? Yeah-course" She absently smiled sympatheticly, exhaling.
He frowned.
"You need to stop feeling sorry for me"
"But-"
"Sonny, stop It, I'm fine, I stopped feeling sorry for myself years ago, If I spend what I have left I'm gonna' have the worst few days ever"
Sonny smiled, admiring him In every way possible but then her brows knitted into confusion and she stopped dead in her tracks.
"Wait- days?" She barely choked.
He avoided her gaze and stared to the grass, he kicked up a small tuft with his foot, nodding solemly.
She bit her lip, feeling her eyes sting as they filled with tears.
He finally looked up from the ground.
"Whoa whoa, Sonny, come on" He sighed, reluctantly walking over and wrapping his arms around her, wondering wether she'd push him off, instead, she pulled him closer.
"Why you? Why someone so perfect" she whispered into his chest, knowing he didn;t hear.
"Whats wrong huh?" He pulled away, sitting down on the winter grass, wrapping his jacket around his body.
"I don-" She took a breath, relieving smoke into the air from the cold
"I don't wan't you to- die"
He produced a lopsided sad smile, not knowing what to reply.
"Life is a constant arcade of fear and pain Sonny, Fear of losing, and the pain of having lost. Pain will continue for some time,
it will take off, and leave you numb, feelingless,
until you're just an empty body,
living like you used to,
but not being alive.
That's when you're ready to start all over again.
Ready to get close to someone else again,
and have the fear return,
stronger than the last time,
'cause you know how it feels to have lost.
But you must go on,
you must keep loving.
You must never let the fear of losing keep you from playing the game" He crossed his legs and played with the blades of grass between his fingers, mumbling into the ground as she listened intently, sniffing her tears away every so often.
"Where did you hear that?" She asked quietly, her lips trembling.
"I realised It when my mom died a few years back" He chewed on the inside of his cheek, remembering the remarkable woman.
She nodded solemly, realizing inside of Chad, was so many qualities, waiting to get out, for everyone to see.
"Look, we both know that very soon I am going to die, so lets make use of this time, lets have some godamn fun!" He grinned, pouncing on top of her and tickling her as she gasped for air.
"Ch- ad- sto -p" She could barely breathe, she was shrieking and laughing loudly, echoing through the entire empty park, still but a small breeze, blowing the abandonded leaves everywhere.
He stopped for a few seconds, she pushed him off with all her strength and jumped up,
"Race you to the tree over there!" She shouted, and sprinted off, Chad running behind, claiming she didn;t do a proper start but grinning none the less.
They both stood arguing about who won, catching their breath until Sonny interupted.
"Can I ask you something, Chad?" She tried her best not to look nervous as they both sat onto the cold grass, Chad leaning against the tree trunk.
"Uh, yeah. Okay." He smiled
"If you don;t already have a date, will you…uh, go the Condor dance with me on Friday?" She immediately looked down to her hands, that were twiddling around eachother.
"Sonny, I don't know if that's such a good idea. I mean… I'm-" He wanted to go with her so badly.
"Chad, please?" She looked into his eyes.
Chad knew he couldn't say no to her dark shimmering brown eyes.
"Okay, on one condition." He said seriously.
She looked up with a slight smile on her face. "And that would be?"
"You have to promise you won't fall in love with me."
Sonny nodded, smiling although she knew she'd already fallen.
"Come on, lets go get a coffee, It's freezing" She grinned, sticking her hand out to him and pulling him up.
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