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Lily

I'm left, stunned at what Sarah and Alice just told me. James was with them the whole time? This was all fake? I feel cheated and I want him up here now. There are so many people I need to talk to. Him (again), Sirius, Remus, all my teachers, my parents (again), and Sophia and Bethany (again). But I want to start with Sirius and Remus. They can help me, because apparently, we're 'close' and they know James better than anyone, so they could tell me whether or not James was really lying about our relationship. I glance at the clock on the wall. It's seven thirty-eight, so they would just be finishing up diner.

"Madame Lou!" I call out, and she rushes to my bedside.

"Who do want in here now?" She says, exasperated.

"I've only asked to get someone in here once! And I want to talk to Remus Lupin and Sirius Black." I add quietly.

"I don't want them in here!" Madame Lou says in a whisper. "They... break things and make noise!" I quite like her.

"I really don't want them here either, but I am desperate for my memory. I don't want any more of your freaky magic herbs! Desperate times call for desperate measures, Madame Lou!" I cry.

"Fine. She waved her wand, looking angry at the fact that I insulted her herbs, and her tabby cat Patronus flew out and ran off towards the Great Hall. Seconds later, a Patronus in the form of a butterfly came back. I was a little giddy at the sight of a butterfly Patronus. However, the voice that came out surprised me.

It would be my pleasure, Louise, to send up Mr Black and Mr Lupin. Anything for my favourite student, Miss Evans!

The butterfly with Professor Slughorn's voice evaporates, and two minutes later, Sirius and Remus walk in. Actually, Sirius bursts in with his arms and head high like he just finished a dance routine and Remus jumps in like a ninja, karate chopping the air. At the sight of Madame Lou they straighten up and say "How de doo, Madame Lou?"

I hold back a chuckle at her look of disgust.

They walk over to my bed quite pompously. "You wanted an audience with us, Miss Lily Evans?" Sirius says, bowing deeply. Remus does the same, holding back a smile.

"I requested it, you are correct, Black. There are matters we must discuss." I say. "I invite you to sit down and make yourselves comfortable. Perhaps I can offer you some sweets. Trust me, you might need it. I have quite a lot of questions to ask you."

"You honestly believed those two hoes?" Sirius laughs.

"I don't know what to believe!" I shout. "I still have a hard time believing I'm seventeen!"

"Lily, James loves the shit out of you." Remus says. "That's all there is to it."

"But Sarah and Alice said he just pretended!" I say.

"James was obsessed with you Lily! I'm sure you can remember that." Sirius says, fishing around my treat pile for something to eat. He grabs a mini treacle tart and opens it. "And I'm sure you know that even though Alice is with Frank, she wants James more than anything. And Sarah wants whatever Alice wants and vice versa. So that's that. I even remember the day you two got together...."

"James said it was no big deal. Was it a big deal?"

"Well, sort of. None of us really noticed anything different. But somehow, we knew... anyway, Sirius, never one to turn down a party..." Remus trailed off.

"You threw me a party?! Just for getting together with James?!" I ask. The thought of it seemed ridiculous.

"Not a big party..." Sirius says. "Remus wouldn't let me. So it was just the Marauders, you, Sophia and Bethany and Butterbeer."

"Sounds lame." I remember not being much of a partier, but seven people and Butterbeer?

"It was, believe me." Remus said. "I should have let Sirius throw a big bash."

"I doubt I would have enjoyed it." I take a sip from Sirius' pumpkin juice.

"Are you kidding me? Have you not looked at the scrapbooks? You are like the party queen!" Sirius cries. "You and Bethany. Sophia too, if you get her drunk enough."

"What?!" My eyes go wide. "Why didn't James tell me any of this?"

"He didn't want to freak you out. He said Sophia, Bethany and us should handle the social stuff." Remus explained.

"You could have at least waited until I was out of the hospital! Don't tell me anything else now!" I shut my eyes. Maybe if I keep them shut for long enough, they'll disappear. I open them. Nope. They're still there.

"We won't tell you anything you don't already know." Remus promised. "Besides, you should be out really soon. You've been in here a two days now."

"Mr Lupin is right, you know, Miss Evans." Madame Lou said, bustling over to give me something folded. "Actually, you should be released within the hour. I'm packing up a lot of your stuff now. Here are the clothes you were wearing when James brought you in." She hands me a pile of green silk and walks off. I forget about Sirius and Remus for a while and examine the outfit.

It's a halter top dress with a deep plunging V neck. The silk is as green as summer grass, like my eyes. The skirt flares out over the huge cremlin skirt. There is a black headband and tights, with the emerald shoes! Emerald shoes! They are so much prettier in real life, I must add. But sadly enough, they don't trigger anything. I feel my face fall, but shake it off and keep looking. Obviously I was wearing the jewellery in the baggie, but it seems Madame Lou forgot to give me the little diamond earrings. I stick them in my ears, just because they are just too cute. There isn't much else, except for a couple of pine needles, grass blades and speck of dirt that must have stuck to the – my – dress with the fall. Tears flood my eyes. This must have been one of the best nights of my life. And I don't remember it. I try to play it out by piecing the parts James told me about in my head, like a movie, but that's all it is. A movie.

"Lily?" Sirius says, putting down a box of Every-Flavour Beans and leaning in. "Are you okay?"

"I just want my life back! I want to be back in fourth year again. This sucks!" I start to cry even harder, and Sirius moves to the bed and starts stroking my hair. Remus does the same, he moves over to the other side of the bed and strokes my back.

"It'll work out in the end, Lily. It'll work out in the end." Remus says soothingly.

"But what if I never remember?" I manage to spit out.

"It doesn't matter whether you remember or not to us, Lily." Remus says. "It doesn't even matter to James. Sure, he's really upset that you aren't together anymore, but he understands it's not your fault. Now all he wants is for you to be happy. He's cut up about it, though. He has nightmares about it. He screams in his sleep. He thinks it's his entire fault. He keeps saying if he would have gotten a better grip on you, you wouldn't be so hurt. You two might want to clear that up, by the way. Tell him that it's not his fault."

"Yes!" Sirius says. "It's hard to sleep when James starts screaming and crying in the middle of the night."

"James has cried about this?!" I say. "I've never even seen a boy cry."

"Yes you have, you just don't remember. James cries whenever you're even remotely sad. It tears him apart when you're not perfectly happy. That's why you have so much crap."

"Crap?" I need to see the state of my dorm room.

"He gives you so much stuff. Once, at the beginning of the year, when you missed being on vacation, James pulled some strings at the Ministry and bought you a Time-Turner, which was broken a few days later when you and James got a little... enthusiastic."

"Good Lord. We get enthusiastic to the point where we... break things? Stop telling me things I don't already know!" I cry.

"Okay, I'll try. And, Lily, you have no idea how enthusiastic you and James get." Sirius says grimly.

"Oh Merlin." I fall back on my bed.

"Hey, at least you don't have to watch it!" Remus says. "You two always make everyone feel really uncomfortable! Like we're intruding on something really private."

"Miss Evans, you're free to go. Have Mr Lupin and Mr Black escort you to the portrait hole, because I'm sure you don't know the password."

"Sure I do." I say. "It's Pretentious."

"That was the password in fourth year." Madame Lou says, and I sigh. She gives me a change of clothes and pulls the curtain around my bed so I can change. When I emerge, Sirius and Remus are waiting by the door. I walk over to them and we head up to the Gryffindor portrait hole.

"So, I have to talk to my teachers, my parents, talk to someone about rounds -"

"Oh, James took care of rounds for you. He says he can manage them alone." Sirius says with a wave of his hand.

"You aren't supposed to tell me things I don't already know!" I cry. "And I have to talk to James, to see if the 'pretending' thing is actually real."

"Not this again, Lily." Remus says, exasperated. We reach the portrait hole. "Kneazle." The portrait hole swings open. I'm glad to see that the common room looks the same. Some first-years are chattering and some fifth-years are working on homework and some Marauders-in-training are playing amateur tricks on some second-years and some Prefects are stopping them. It's still home. It's still warm. It's really the only comfort I have now. My life may have taken a drastic change, but things like this remain the same.

Sirius turns to me and looks me straight in the eyes. "He loves you Lily. The whole 'he was pretending' thing is as fake as Alice's boobs." Sirius smiles. And with that, they walk towards the boys' dorm, walk up the stairs, and leave me alone.

AN: It is a little short, but I wanted to end it on that note. Please review! Love you all!