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Alright guys! I decided to change the name of this chapter

It was a last minute call heh -sweat drop-

Anyways I hop you enjoy this chapter

Chapter 4:

Jealousy

Naruto's Diary entry:

Why had he said that? I didn't fail him because I came back to him alive? No... He couldn't be. Crap! Was this just a foolish attempt to make me feel better? Was it an attempt to drag me from getting you back? No! Why Neji? Why did you have to make it seem like your the only one important right now. Bet he's regretting what he said right now. Sasuke... what would you think of me?

You know, up until now I've only ever thought of bringing you back. Never thought I'd be trying to make you see how much I care for you. But you're gone right? And the way things are running.. I'll never see you again. And then Neji... Neji's... He's.

I don't understand him. He's like you I guess. Dislikes me, but some things different in those eyes. Something soft that I could never find in you, Sasuke. Something that showed relief when he saw me walk in through his door. Yet how long have I been blind? How long have I been chasing after you trying to make you see me when... when all along, someone was always seeing me clearly.

My eyes... He could be wrong you know... Their not better than his. If they were... I would have seen you hated me, you never wanted me, but here I am... Trying to fight to get you back. It's hard you know, knowing there is something you'll never achieve. But I'll get there and if not... I always have Neji.

-Uzamaki

Naruto set his diary down. He had started to write in it when Iruka suggested it's be a good thing to do. Sighing, he pushed it under his pillow and brought his knees to his chest. He had been surprised by the Hyuuga's actions. He hugged him. He actually embraced someone. Of course he was going to be surprised but still he couldn't help but smile. Something deep inside, fluttering within his stomach, told him that he wanted that embrace. But Neji had backed off after feeling Naruto stiffen. He apologized and left. Left Naruto with his thoughts. Blue eyes turned to the glittering object on his bedside table. Picking it up the blond finger the symbol and the scratch he had made.

"Sasuke... Why did you leave? Did I do something wrong?" Naruto frowned and tied the band around his arm before getting up.

Walking to the closet Naruto picked out a tight fitting black t-shirt and slid it on. He wondered though why Neji had gotten so defensive when he found Sasuke's headband in Naruto's belongings. He wasn't exactly sure why he got mad. naruto wasn't even sure why he snapped at Neji. Just that he wanted to be reminded he was a faliure this time. Just this time. Now he was torn between wanting to find Sasuke and redeeming his failed mission and promise. Or. To stay and get to know someone whose eyes always seemed to see him clearly.

"Naruto?"

The blond lifted his head when he heard his name being called by a familar voice.

"Yes?" Naruto called back as he leaned against his door.

On the otherside Neji was leaning agaisnt it too, " I'm sorry about earlier... you just looked so sad... I thought maybe I should comfort you... I'm sorry if I made you uncomfortable."

"No... I think that was all I needed..." the blond replied smiling ever so slightly.

"Do you miss him?"

"Huh? What do you mean?"

"Sasuke... Do you miss him?" Neji asked, his eyes falling to the floor and waiting.

Naruto thought for a moment and sighed, " Yes..."

"Why?! Why do you miss him when he's deserted you?" Neji said, passed disappointed with Naruto's answer.

"Neji I just can't-" Naruto started but was cut off when Neji's irratated voice sounded on the other side of the door.

"No! Why do you need to miss him when there are people here... People here who need you, who care for you.." Neji's face showed sheer frustration that the other couldn't see.

"Neji..." Naruto sighed, a thump sounding from his side of the door, " I just can't forget the promises that I made."

"Hn... Whatever" With that Neji crossed the hall and slammed his door behind him.

Neji's Journal:

Why Naruto? Why do you have to miss him? Why did you have to come back here and forget what I said to you? When I told you your eyes were better than mine. I meant that for you to open your eyes and see me. But also for you to try harder to win this fight. I know how much that mission was begining to depend on you. Though in the end, I'm glad he didn't come back with you. That means I can have my chance to open up to me. My chance to be who you want to be close to. But yet.. you still like him, miss him. Hell! You may even love that bastard.

But are you really that blind? Are you so clueless as to what's right infront of your face. These feelings welling up inside me. I know them, but do you?

-Hyuuga

Neji tossed his journal into his side drawer and grunted out of annoyance. That little shit! How could he have fallen for someone who was so... so oblivious! He was mad, no Hyuuga Neji, mad? Hell no! He was... jealous. His blond's heart was still lost with what to do. Was he pushing the matter of letting Sasuke go? If so, that might take even longer to get the blond to even remotely care. But that was where Neji was wrong. Naruto had always cared. His heart was torn in two directions and he hadn't understood what was wrong with him until he was here with Neji. He was Gaya.nd in love. Not that Neji really noticed the subtle shifts in his facial expressions upon realization of this fact.

Neji was startled by a loud thunderous sound. He blinked. What was that sound? And it sounds like... crying? No... it was raining. But where was Naruto? His energy had long since moved from his room while Neji was thinking. Standing from his bed, the Hyuuga eased out of his door and looked into the hall. Nothing.

He looked into Naruto's room.

Nothing.

In the kitchen?

Nothing..

In the dinning room?

Nothing!

In the hotsprings?

Nothing!!

In the bathroom?

No! Nothing!!

"Naruto where did you go?" Neji huffed then stopped as he entered the out door garden.

Neji froze at the sodden blond out in the rain, staring up at the sky. Then that beautiful blonds name fell from his lips.

"Naruto..."

Neji's Journal:

I remember it had started to rain. I remember how the clouds seemed to cry out all the feeling Naruto seemed to be feeling. Anger, frustration, pain, sadness...And as I stood there watching the sight before me, he turned to me. But there was no happiness written in his eyes. No more smiles on his beautiful face. The deep oceans were gone and replaced... With nothing but turmoil.

I never want to see him that way again. I never want to see my blond look... as if there is nothing left to live for. And when I see Uchiha Sasuke again... I'll kill him.. For breaking the heart of my Naruto.

-Hyuuga

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